jada🎀.

"ionk she's just been acting funny every since we got off the phone last night" juju said to me and rayah.

"lemme call her and see what's up" i said.

she nodded and i ended the call so i could call kk. it rang 2x before her face popped up in the camera.

"heyy bookie" i said.

"heyy jada wada" she smiled at me.

"wyd ?" i asked.

"nothing watching netflix" she said.

"good okay so juju said that you been acting weird wassup ? talk to me if you can't talk to her" i said.

"she told yall that ? i wasn't acting weird. i literally told her i was going to sleep we talked normally until then i went to bed" she said.

"no but she's your fiancè kk, so she knows when somethings wrong you can't lie to her or hide it" i reasoned with her.

"look imma call juju and let her know wassup, then imma call the gc okay ?" she said.

i happily smiled and nodded. i'm so happy she decided to talk to juju about whats bothering her.

"okay i love you!" i said.

"i love you more" she said before we hung up.

i texted juju and let her know kk was about to call her and talk to her and let her what's up.

kk🦋.

i took a deep breath & called juju. she answered on the third ring. i watched as she smiled at me through the camera i nervously smiled back.

"hey ma" i said lowly.

"hey baby.. wanna tell me what's wrong now ?" she asked me.

"i mean i don't want to but i will" i said and she laughed.

"yeah sure mamas.. wassup tho ?" she asked me.

"question before i answer that.. why do you think im acting funny ?" i asked.

"because i could tell when you wanted to hang up. i could tell by the tone of your voice and the look on your face something was wrong"

"i'm your fiancè i been with you long enough and i have paid enough attention to you to know when your mood change. i've learned your tone and what it means" she said and that honestly made my heart smile & happy.

i have never had anyone pay that much attention to me to learn me the way she does.

"so again, what's wrong mama ?" she asked me.

"it's little it's not that big of a deal tbh" i said.

"big or little i wanna know so i can help you. let's fix it ma" she said.

"well so umm.. it's just when you was talking about your parents and how they were gonna come to your first WNBA game it kinda made me sad" i said.

"and yk im happy for you and i love seeing you happy you have the best parents in the world. but i feel like i have a huge void in my heart. cus i lost so much and i don't want to feel alone" i said holding back my tears.

"mamas.. why didn't you tell me that the first time ? i never want you to feel like your alone baby cus your not" she said.

i wiped my tears and smiled at her taking a deep breath. i have really learned how to control my panic attacks and i love that for me.

cus 19 year old me would've been breaking down so bad by now. i can definitely see the growth and im here for it.

"ik its okay, i've learned that grieving is apart of the healing process. grieving means being happy one day and crying the next. i will be okay" i said.

"baby. do you wanna talk about how you feel ? i don't want you to build all that sadness up and then one day you break down" she said.

"no i'm okay. i got it out of my system so" i said.

juju🌸.

kk telling me that she was sad cus she didn't have parents and because her brother isn't here to come to her games really breaks my heart.

although her aunt and cousin supported her throughout most of her career and even attended the draft they moved to london last month.

she must feel so alone and i hate that. i wish i could hold my baby right now cus she just needs someone. this what makes long distancing hard the fact that i can't hold her or be there for her when she need me most.

"kk i'm so sorry.. i did not mean to make you feel alone" i said.

"it's not your fault juju. their gonna be my in-laws. you should be able to talk about them to me. i love them like they had me and i love hearing about them and ofc i'm the one that asked"

"it just made me realize how much i've missed out and is missing out on having a mother daughter relationship. and although i've finally excepted it it's still hard" she said to me.

"baby" i sighed.

"are you getting frustrated with me ? cus if so lmk so i can go that's why i didn't wanna tell you" kk said looking down wiping her tears.

"what kamorea ofc not. that's not what i said. i just want you to talk to me love. you keep saying your okay when deep down your not" i said.

"i know.. i'm trying cus i have never been good at expressing my feelings. but i am really sleepy so i will call you in the morning and we can talk more" she said yawning.

"okay.. i love you" i said smiling at her.

"i love you beautiful" she said to me.

we hung up and i decided to watch tiktok. she finna be on my mind heavy. i just hope she gone be okay. because even tho kk went to counseling and she's healthier she's still healing from pain and trauma.

i never want her to go back down that road cus she worked so hard to get out of it. i hope tomorrow i can help in some way and cheer her up cus my first game coming up and i gotta lock in.

but locking in means making sure my fiancè good and happy. i turned off all the lights and made sure all the doors and windows are locked.

chapter 11🥹! aww kk feels lonely it's okay we gone fix that! 🙃. but juju is such a good gf she made sure kk knew she wanted to fix it. vote and comment🙃!