juju🌸.

"mm bronny" i breathed out.

he pulled away and stared at me.. did we really just kiss. i quickly sat up and looked around. i watched as bronny slept with his head on my lap.

"omg it was just a dream okay" i breathed out.

"why would i dream about my best friend kissing me.. weird" i said to myself.

i grabbed my phone and saw that kk called me so i called back.

"hey baby wassup ?" i asked.

"heyy mamas, i just wanted to talk to you.. you okay ?" she asked.

"oh yeah i was sleep lol. but wyd beautiful ?" i asked.

"nothing at the mall with paige" she said.

"aww okay, well i'll be back later on just enjoy your time with your best friend. i love you" i smiled at her.

"i love you more" she said.

we said our goodbyes and hung up. ion even know what to tell kk. like how imma tell her i had a dream my best friend kissed me.

it's never like that neither bronny or i have feelings for each other never have never will. simply like brothers and sisters.

i watched him stir from his sleep.

"hey you still here ?" he said in his sleeping voice.

"yeah i just woke up" i said and he nodded.

"what you want to eat ?" i asked.

"can you make me a fruit bowl please ? i been craving fruits like crazy" he said.

"that's it ? bronny you need more than that in your body" i said.

"ik but i will eat again after" he said and i nodded.

i quickly walked to the kitchen. i had to try my best not to act funny towards him but after my dream ion even know what to do.

i can't tell bronny either cus it will only make it more awkward. my go to person is definitely amoura. i made bronny his fruit bowl and told him i had to go.

"here you go, but i gotta go imma text you and i will be back tomorrow okay ?" i said.

and he nodded and smiled at me.

"thank youu.. for everything" he said.

"ofc, you gone always have me bronny" i smiled.

i grabbed my phone and keys and headed straight to amoura's house. when i got there i knocked and knocked until she opened it.

"hey bestie what's wrong ?"

"i gotta talk to you bout sum but you can't tell anyone especially not kk" i said and she nodded.

we went up to her room and we sat on her bed. she turned her phone off and threw it to the side.

"so what's up ?"

"i was at bronny's house cus he asked me to come hang with him.. well he's still on crutches until tomorrow so we decided to chill and watch netflix which is normal, we got on the couch and he laid his head on my shoulder"

"and the bad part is ?" she asked me confused.

"we fell asleep, and i had a dream. a dream that he kissed me. kissed me amoura ionk what to do. me and bronny don't like each other like that" i said freaking out.

"okay calm down did you tell him ?"

amoura💐.

juju telling me she had a dream that bronny kissed her is kind of worrying me. ik they don't like each other like that but that means something right ?

"ofc not it was only gonna make it more awkward and i was doing my best not to act funny but it was really bothering me" she said rubbing her forehead.

"okay look just relax... you guys didn't kiss tho right ?" i asked.

"noo" she said

"good, then there's nothing to worry about"

"ionk it's just i can't keep this a secret because the minute i look into kk's eyes the guilt is coming but i can't tell her either"

"like what am i supposed to say ? omg i had a dream that my best friend kissed me like that would totally crush her bestie. ion wanna put kk through that man" juju said her eyes filling with tears.

i pulled her in and hugged her tightly. she's obviously stressed and overthinking this when it's really nothing if it didn't really happen.

"look just tell kk the truth. she's not gonna be mad because it never happened. yes it was a weird dream but we know you two don't like each other like that than everything will be okay" i said rubbing her back.

she looked up and me and nodded wiping her tears. juju rarely cried but i when she did it hurt. i hate seeing my best friend cry.

"it's okay i promise" i whispered still hugging her.

"thank you bestie.. i really needed that. i appreciate you so much" she said and i smiled at her.

"it's us forever" i said.

kk🦋.

"omg that was so cute tho" i said to paige.

we walked into my dorm and i put my stuff down and juju's not here.

"yess, i had fun with you tho pretty girl. spending time with you is my favorite" she said.

i smiled and hugged her tightly.

"it's my favorite too, your the best. ig that's why your my best friend" i said making her giggle.

we continued to talk and i told her about azzi coming.

"i feel like i was too mean" i said.

"you weren't kk, if it was me i would've been meaner. you handled the situation the right way" she smiled at me.

i watched as juju walked through the door. i quickly got up and hugged her.

"hey you okay, your eyes are red and puffy.. you been crying baby ?" i asked.

"i'm good love yk me and my monthly mental breakdowns but i'm okay baby" she said.

she leaned down and we kissed.. but deep down ik something was wrong.

"hey paige" juju said giving her a side hug.

"hey juju, but imma let yall have yall alone time amoura called anyway"

"bye i love you" i said.

"i love you more" she said to me.

"juju ik something's wrong.. please tell me.. please ?" i asked looking into her eyes.

i could see the tears filling her eyes. i instantly hugged her tightly, because juju rarely cried so that means something really bad happened.

"mamas, talk to me please" i said.

"so yk how i went to bronny's house cus he asked me to come hang with him ?"

"mhmm"

"well, yk he's still on crutches til tomorrow so we decided on a chill day and do what we do regularly which is watch netflix. so i went and grabbed a cover and we sat on the couch"

"he laid his head on my shoulder which he does before he fall asleep.. but we both fell asleep. i had a dream" she whispered looking down.

"what was it about ?" i asked lifting her chin.

"bronny kissed me.. idk why because we don't have feelings for each other ig it's just a weird dream idk"

"you had a dream that he kissed you ?" i asked.

i really didn't know how to feel. because deep down ik they don't like each other in that way and juju would never hurt me but my mind is saying why would she be dreaming about that if she doesn't like him.

"yes, i'm so sorry mamas ionk why it happened and ian know what to do but i had to tell you and i didn't want it to break your heart" she cried.

i slowly backed away from her.

"do you want him judea ?" i asked lowly.

"man no kk. i want you and only you. yk that i just don't know why it happened. kk please nothing happened i swear" she said tears rolling down her face.

"so why you dreaming bout yo best friend kissing you if you don't want him ? it doesn't just happen judea" i could feel my tears falling.

"i don't know kamorea. and it did just happen okay because bronny and i are simply best friends and yk that." she said walking to me.

"baby stop please, why you keep backing up ?"

"because i don't understand juju. i really don't. ik it ain't happen fr but you dreaming about it is-"

"is what kk ? i told you because i wanted you to know i only want you man. ian wanna tell you ik you would act like this and ik it would break your heart but what else did you want me to do kk ? like i can't take it back , i can't help what i was dreaming about it ain't really happen" she said.

"ykw ion wanna argue judea" i said grabbing my phone and keys.

"so what you just gone walk out ? like everyone else did go ahead man ion even care nomo" she yelled in tears.

"i'm leaving because i trust you enough to know nothing happened but my mind still needs to processes it" she said.

"but kk that's not the answer, but you wouldn't know you live for walking out so."

"HOW DO YOU WANT ME TO FEEL JUDEA ?"

juju🌸.

the fact that kk is acting the way she is just blows my mind because nothing happened. but i was so tired ian have no fight left in me.

"i want you to tell me how you feel kamorea. you think i do all this for you just to end up dreaming about my best friend kissing me ? everything i do IS FOR YOU KK. so that you can be happy"

"i go to extreme lengths to be there for you because ik your still grieving your brother. you think i stay up all night to listen to you cry and talk just for that ? you think i went 12 hours with you to visit your brother just for that ? you think i went and bought balloons and released them with you just for that ?"

"kk i do all of this because I LOVE YOU. ion just hold you when you at yo lowest just to hurt you man." i cried.

i watched as her face turned red. we were both crying and screaming at each other and it's not what i wanted but kk gotta learn how to express her feelings instead of just leaving.

she stared at me and said nothing. and that right there was my last straw.

"after all that.. me expressing my feelings to you you have nothing to say ?" i asked.

"fine ykw f*** you kamorea. i'm done trying man. ionk what else you want me to do. i tried. imma just give you yo space cus obviously youn care."

"call me when you ready to talk, until then don't waste my fu***** time." i said.

i grabbed my stuff and bumped her shoulders. i really had it. like the amount of time i had to restrain myself and let kk be upset because she's grieving but my feelings matter to.

i love that girl. everything i do is for her! but she's still insecure and it's putting a strain on our relationship.

i got into my car and just broke down. because i never wanna fight with the girl i love most. we supposed to be happy. this was never supposed to happen but it did.

i think us giving each other space is the best option right now. because the way we both screamed at each other wasn't right and i admit that.

chapter 44🥹. you guys know i wasn't gone leave yall hanging for too long lol. it was just a dream. but yall juju really snapped on kk omgg. vote and comment 🙃!