Chapter 30

Han Jisung

We chatted for a bit after Jihyo revealed such big information about what I am. Just to calm our minds down.

Now that I'm trying to communicate better with them, I see how important it is to try. Even though I'm just listening most of the time since I feel awkward talking.

They're all so casual and friendly with each other. It just doesn't sit well with me being like that. I mean, I avoided any kind of interaction with other people. I only talked to my brother and it's really not friendly at all.

I just listened to them as they talked. None of them really asked me questions that much. Maybe because they thought I'm the most shaken up about the revelations or they thought I won't speak to them.

My eyes ran through the whole room. A lot of tall bookcases and obviously books. Some seemed to be normal books while the others are somewhat glowing, especially the ones on the top.

My eyes spotted a small silhouette close to the windows of the palace.

Jihyo was looking outside through the big glass windows of the palace. Her face immediately displayed fear and worry.

"Why, Jihyo? Is everything okay?" Jihyo turned to me, forcing a small smile.

"Yes, yes. It's getting very dark. It's best if we stay here instead of traveling back. We could only use the portal and I'm afraid that it won't be safe to do that." Everyone's attention turned to us two.

"What do you mean? Doesn't the night helps you cast things like that easier because of the moon?" Youngjae questioned the younger one.

All of us are confused. Especially Minho and the other humans.

"Yeah, we are the moon clan. But traveling through a portal that a moon clan fairy made at night isn't really advisable as it's harder to control at night due to the overwhelming power of the moon."

"We could do other things easier when it's the night because of the moon but not traveling through a portal we made when it's night. The spirits tend to play with our portals always." Jihyo sighed lowering his staff slowly.

"It's alright! We can stay here, right? I mean, if it's okay with you and your clan?" Minho said with a comforting tone on his voice.

"Of course, it's alright. I brought you here so it's alright if you stay for longer." Minho's face immediately lit up because of Jihyo's words.

"I guess everything that gives you power also requests something in return no matter what it is..." I mumbled under my breath.

Everyone got back to talking while I sit beside Minho quietly. I'm not even gonna try to sugarcoat it. I'm scared. Not for me but for everyone else. Everything about me just gets them in danger.

My attitude, my temper, my family, my power. Myself. It's almost like everyone that wants to get close to me is just asking for something bad to happen to them.

"Han Jisung..."

I turned to Minho when I heard a voice called my name. I thought I was just spacing out but when I looked at him he was talking to Jeongin who was beside him while looking at the youngest.

"Who called me?" I mumbled to myself, not really having the courage to speak up since it's really awkward for me.

"Han Jisung... I'll come for you..."

Wait... That isn't from any of them. And this person will come for me? Where is it from?

I looked around the room quietly and calmly, not wanting to alert any of them.

"Han Jisung... I'll take him away from you again..."

I heard it again. That voice. It seemed very low pitch and faint. It kinda seems like he's whispering in my ear directly.

Are they gonna get in danger because of me again? I mean, that's inevitable since I brought them here. I forced them to be with us. But...

"I need to use the bathroom," I mumbled to Minho. He turned his head slightly to me and smiled before nodding a little.

I stood up slowly, walking away from the room. I wasn't going to the bathroom but I need to step out of that room for a bit.

Voices. I'm hearing them again. Everywhere I go there are always moments when I hear different voices. It didn't bother me that much since it's pretty harmless.

But the thing is. Different types of voices all are talking about one thing. About them getting me and everyone around me.

That's why I'm scared that I might've put everyone in danger at the very moment that I decided to force them to come with me.

"This is a huge problem..." I sighed, putting my hands on my jean's pockets. I walked towards a small path towards the outside of the palace.

I love sitting on the grass and just staring up the night sky. It makes me feel like everything is alright. It makes me feel like I'm just a boy who loves looking at the stars. Just for a moment, I feel like a simple human.

I envy them. I envy humans. That's some bold words, I know. But they live simply. They have normal jobs, they have normal lives, they have normal families.

I sometimes think to myself how it would be like if Felix and I were born in a normal human family. How different would it be?

"You didn't go to the bathroom." I snapped back to reality when I heard a familiar voice behind me. I immediately turned my head, seeing Minho with his soft smile.

"Oh, it's just you... Goodness." I sighed, messing my hair a bit before I nodded.

"Yeah, I didn't. I was getting a bit suffocated inside so I decided to go out. How did you find me? Did Jihyo help you?"

"Nope. She didn't. I was looking for you because you've been out for a while. I was getting worried then I found this." He sat down beside me while talking.

"You should head back inside. You'll get cold." 

"You've changed so much around me. It's unreal thinking that we will get along somehow." He let out a soft chuckle.

"I am not really that shitty as what you guys might think. I just really don't know how to talk and mingle. And I bring out really harsh and cold vibe around me because of how quiet I am and how bad my social skills are." I mumbled casually while staring at the sky.

"I really like the Jisung I'm with when we're alone. You're really scary. Like really scary when you're the Jisung with those cold eyes. Especially those deep purple eyes. God." His words made me look at him.

"I do? Those purple eyes just appear whenever I get angry. I think it's normal for Vampires? Or for Fliondésos? I've never really seen anyone else with changing eye colors." 

We both sat down the grass peacefully, staring up the beautiful night sky. It's so peaceful and calm, it almost makes me uneasy since this peacefulness doesn't come for free.

"You're so talkative. It's so refreshing hearing your voice." I can feel his eyes on me. But I don't know if I should look back on him.

"You're the second person whom I talked like this apart from someone else that no longer exists," I mumbled quietly, slowly laying down on the grass.

Memories.

That is the only thing keeping me together. I've lost two precious people that I love the most because of Luther.

"Who's first?" I turned to Minho, putting my arms behind my head for support.

"The first human who accepted me even though I'm someone very different. The first-ever person I accepted to enter my life." I couldn't help but smile when I remembered our happy memories.

"You love him, don't you?" 

"I do. Very much."

"Then why isn't he here with you? Is it one-sided?" I couldn't help but let out a very quiet chuckle. He's so interested, huh?

"I told you he never exists anymore. I'm the reason why."

"Eh? What happened?" His voice sounded softer but I know he wants to know. It's pretty obvious since he kept pushing it.

"Because of what I am. Because of my family. We aren't really meant to be. He's a human, I'm a Vampire. Sounds familiar doesn't it." I tried to play it cool with a little chuckle and a bit of a joke in the end.

On that note, I can't push our relationship anymore. I'm so foolish to think that I might have a chance again but this is obviously a no go. I can't let it all happen again.

I'm gonna protect him alongside Felix with no strings attached except the one tying our fate with each other. At least not until we finish making Luther pay for his actions.

I wish I can be beside you until the end.

Until we're both free.

"I used to really be obsessed with the night sky because of the stars. Almost every night, I sneak out of my room just to watch the stars when I was younger." Minho's tone softens.

"Used to? You don't like the night sky now?" I asked quietly, feeling the cold breeze brush my cheek.

"It's not that I don't like it. I just become obsessed with another thing." He let out a soft chuckle, making me smile a little.

"I found the night sky enlightened by millions of stars fascinating. I mean, who doesn't?" I turned my eyes to the sky above us. The sky is so beautiful.

It's very dark now. The moon and the stars are the only things I can see since I'm laying down on the grass.

It feels so peaceful. So peaceful.

"But the one thing that made me so interested in the sky and stars is the thing my mom told me when I was very young."

"Dead people become stars. That way they can see and guide us from above." I turn my head to Minho, interested in his words.

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Lee Minho

"Really? They do?" I nodded while still looking at the sky. There were so many stars.

"That's what my mom told me. I don't know if that's true or not but it's what I believe in." My eyes went to Jisung who's looking at me.

"So, if that very precious person of yours sadly passed away, just look up in the sky when you miss him. I'm sure he's very happy that you still remember him even though he no longer exists." I smiled widely when I saw his eyes sparkle.

"But he won't be happy when he hears you still blaming yourself on whatever happened. Always think of your happy moments or memories, that way you'll be happy when you meet him again." I couldn't help but giggle in my words.

I sound like a child giving a lesson to someone who's much much older than me. I'm trying to push the thought of his age to the back of my mind and just try to think that he's the same age as me.

I don't want anything to be awkward again. I've managed to make Jisung open up and be himself around me. I want him to at least be comfortable when he's with me.

"Thank you, Minho."

"Hmm? What for?"

"Nothing. Just thank you."

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Third Person

He watches the two from afar. His eyes burning with hatred and jealousy as he felt his heart beating fast.

"You're supposed to be beside me. You're supposed to lay beside me. You're supposed to be mine." He growled in anger, still staring at Minho and Jisung.

"I'm taking you back, Jisung. You're only mine. Only mine." He curled his hands into fists as his shaking lips curled into a smirk.

"I'll make sure to burn Minho in front of you too. Just so everything will happen all over again." He laughed crazily as he commanded his men to attack.

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Hi! We are on chapter 30! Finally, after a year of contemplating whether I can continue this book or not.

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