fear pulses to paralyze [despise
thoughts and very soul are
caught in the web of [defies
life and death feels too far
away [disguise

Running away is not an option
though I would like
to flee
I am routed to the ground,
forced to simply survive
and be
They tell me I can push through,
they mastered life so why
not me?
But I'm afraid of all the risks,
not willing to take any
of thee

I don't know which way to go
My eyes are burried beneath the dirt
Unable to see or outmap the path
I
stumble
        and fall
               and hurt

My arms are stretched widely
But my hands are cut off
With bloody stumps I search the way
Just to
stumble
        and fall
               and hurt

My thoughts scream loud
But my lips are sewed together
I can't ask for the way
So I
stumble
        and fall
               and hurt

I listen to my own blood rushing
'Cause my ears are filled with wax
With silence as my only companion
I'm left alone to
stumble
        and fall
               and hurt

I stumble
                  fall
                         hurt,
                                -again-
                        -again-
                -again-
Until
I can't save myself anymore
Until
my bones and muscles are sore
Until
I don't bother standing up

-again-

falling

-again-                   

without

-again-

hurting

-again- 

seems

-again-

impossible

-again-

and