Dear Book-Perfect Boy,

But after all the realizations that I had, will you still not come into my life? 

99% of the time, I am busy living my life but whenever I see couples...

Oh, that must be nice :)) 

The 1% will always be reserved for the man that I will love soon and will love me wholly too. For who am I. Forever.

No matter how many times I proclaim that I am content with myself, I will always have this smallest portion of "what-ifs". What if I had a boyfriend right now, would I be happy?

Seems like everybody's falling in love except for me. Maybe I'll... fall in love when I am already free from these thoughts. 

I wish to see you soon BPB. I can't wait for you to read these thoughts on our wedding day.

For now, let me chase my dreams for us both. I'll just yearn for the future that I can't see and wait for you. Will manifest every day that you will be the man of my dreams. I spent my youth on shitty men so I have high expectations for you, okay?

But please know that I love you (for who you might be), and I hope you will exist in my life soon. 

A simple girl yearning for love,

Allison Carmela <3

ཻུ۪۪⸙͎ End!