After my dinner with Levi and Eren, I excused myself. I didn't wash any dish nor swept a floor. I simply climbed my way up to the second floor and locked myself in my room. I could hear Eren's loud voice downstairs, complaining how I was such a lazy person. I didn't care. It seemed strange because when Eren started to complain, I used to rush to his side and do the things he complains about but I guess I won't be doing that for now.

I took off my coat and threw it on the bed. I wrapped my scarf more tightly against my neck to keep out the cruel cold. I don't know what's with Levi's logic but he keeps the air conditioner on even on a very cold day. He doesn't like heaters, that's what he always said. 

The cold was biting me, freezing me with its venom. It seeped through my legs, making them stiff. The tightness around my neck felt comfortable. I wrapped it more tightly, preventing more air to circulate through my systems. I felt like I was drowning except, there wasn't any water. I was having difficulty in breathing and my tears started to stream on my cheeks like a sad little river. I started wheezing. I knew I can die from what I'm doing but it seemed very enjoyable. Dying from scarf that Eren gave to me on the night my parents died isn't so bad.

My vision is now full of black dots. I chuckled but all I managed was a grunt instead. The dots looked funny. They looked like flies swarming on decayed bodies. My decayed body.

I could hear Mom and Dad's screams. Screaming for me to stop. Screaming at me because its my fault. Screaming at me because I was an ungrateful bitch. Screaming at me for I was too close-minded and selfish. My breath went shallow every second that passed by. The grip around my neck felt numb but I know its still there, enveloping me very tightly, killing me with its power. My eyes started to droop. I stood up and walked to the door to say sorry but before I even turned the knob, I fell and hit the door.

Mikasa! Mom screamed. Why would you such a horrible thing!

You're not our daughter. Dad scoffed. Who are you anyway?

Eren's desperate screams were muffled on my ears. I saw a blur of Levi, shaking me awake. Levi ordered Eren to do something which he did. He ran past me as Levi cradled me in his arms. My eyes slowly closed and Levi blurred into shapes and colors. 

I wonder how they opened the door. I was sure I locked it after I went in.

I didn't remember anything else than that because after that, I fainted. Part of me wanted to leave this planet so badly. Part of me wanted to stay. 

I was very excited to embrace Death. I'd like to feel his cold kiss upon my lips when he begins to suck the Life out of me. 

But too bad, I guess I'll meet Death later in my life.

My eyes were closed. My mind, blacked-out and relaxed.  I was just sleeping. Everything was black and dark and boring. I wanted to wake up to see things but I didn't want to return to my living nightmare. 

No, wait. 

I am the living nightmare.

I'm sure everyone at school is suspicious about my disappearance. They'll probably bombard Eren with dozens of questions about me. The teachers would get worried about me since I was a top student. Oh, them. Such an exhausting bunch. 

I don't care about school. I don't care about my teachers and classmates. I only care about my family and friends. 

Funny how the strangers see me as a nice girl. Smart, strong, athletic, all that crap. They see as someone who's very dependable and responsible. That's true but they don't know me. At least the me who committed sins so inescapable. 

I'll probably go to hell for this.

As I woke, I could see the white ceiling of the room. Everything smelled too clean. It didn't smell like Levi though. It smelled 'foreign' clean. I moved my fingers and my toes. They were still able but I felt something sticking in my hand. Oh, it's the IV. I allowed my left hand to touch my neck. There wasn't anything. I was breathing just fine. I inhaled and exhaled to find out if my lungs are still there and also, for clarification that I'm still living.

"So you're awake." Levi's voice rang.

I pulled myself up in sitting position so that I could see him. I sat and turned to see him sitting on some plastic stool to my right.

"Yeah," I replied, my voice all hoarse, "I'm awake."

"God, you sound so terrible." Levi complained and stood and grabbed some water bottle on the table on the far side of the room. He twisted the cap open and handed the bottle to me. 

"Drink." He said.

I gave him a small smile and took it from his hands. I chugged from the bottle until it was empty. 

I handed the bottle back to him, "How long was I out?"

He picked a biscuit from the table and replied, "Nothing much. Just overnight."

"Eren?" I asked, "Where is he?"

Levi rolled his eyes, "Brat, that brat is in school. I can't believe they made you top one when you can't even answer such a question. It's just common sense, Mikasa. Just how shitty can your damn brain get?"

I didn't say anything after that. I gazed out in the window from my bed to see the light blue skies that spread throughout the entire world. It was beautiful but I didn't like the view. It was all buildings and even more buildings. It was so annoying, even more annoying than Annoying Orange. 

"Why did you do it?" Levi asked out of the blue, "Why?"

I didn't answer his question. At the corner of my eye, I saw Levi pursing his lips. 

"They're on their way."

"What?" I said so loudly that it strained my throat and made it hurt. "But you said you wouldn't tell them. You promised!"

My voice was too loud that it rang around the room. I was really furious and began huffing and growling uncontrollably and yet, Levi still didn't look scared. I was pretty sure that my expression was creepy but he didn't looked scared at all.

"Your parents are very worried." He continued, ignoring my death glares and silent curses, "They asked too many questions about what happened to you and how this mania of yours started. They really got annoying, you know."  Levi looked at me in the eyes and I stared back at him in a mean manner. 

"Anyways," He continued, "Aunt Carla and Uncle Grisha are very worried as expected. They were sad about your suicide attempts and how you never opened up with your problems to them and it seems like you'll be meeting your psychologist once again and you'll have to narrate all the bad shits you've experienced in your life so far. 

"I swear that if you do something shitty again, forget being an Ackerman. You're not worthy of that name." Levi paused, probably thinking if it was too harsh, "Me and Kenny won't look at you the same way."

I gulped at that. Nothing would be scarier than being disowned by your own family. I'd rather fail my tests than get disowned, besides, The Ackermans don't have an Asian standard of education unlike my Mom. Well, okay. That was racist but my Mom does really have a high standards of my grades. Everything must be all A+  because for her, A- is a failing grade. Even though she passed, I still kept all my grades to A+. I don't how I did it though.

I wanted to say, They're not my parents! but I didn't since I didn't feel like arguing.

"Can I be discharged tomorrow?" I asked Levi, hoping to break the ice.

"Hm?" He mumbled, "Yeah, sure, probably, how the hell am I supposed to know? I'm not the doctor!"

I smirked despite his angry face. He looked very furious, the furious face he once worn when Eren broke his 20-year old vacuum cleaner. I laughed a little at the memory. Me and Eren scrambled away after seeing his "oh-so beautiful" angry face. 

Okay, I know that anytime sooner, my parents and Kenny will barge in my room, demanding me things that I don't want to speak about. 

"You know what," I said.

"What?"

"You should eat that biscuit in your hand. It's waiting for its demise. Eat now, Levi."

Levi rolled his eyes and munched on his biscuit, crunching it under the weight of his teeth. 

Okay, i suck. this chapter's pretty boring but i'll make better ones don't worry.