I am dead,

To my father,

To my sister,

To my enemies,

And to myself,

I am alone,

Everyone sees it,

But no one cares,

I am from heartbreak and misery,

The feeling of knowing you need to let go,

But also the understanding of knowing your not strong enough to,

I still carry on,

Despite my burdens,

I still want to die,

Despite everything I have,

I am lost,

Listen to my cry,

Because you already watched me,

When the icy wind blows,

When the dead leaves fall,

You'll find me,

Just at the crack of dusk,

I will be waiting,

Through snow storms and rain clouds,

Through droughts and floods,

I've been waiting,

But not just for anyone,

It was for you, Precious,

Finding you took a lot,

Giving you up took even more,

So when your ready,

I'll be waiting,

Even if you're not ready,

I still am and will be,

I have died like autumn leaves,

Ready to live again when you come around like spring,

And I will carry on