So something happened at school with a student this weekend and I called Carlos. We talked about it and one thing lead to another and he started playing his guitar for me. Then later I was watching TV still on the phone with him and I was making noises and he started laughing and called me adorable and cute. Later I told him Jackie was going to try and talk to him again and he said "I think she likes me again. " And I said "If you like her and she likes you the bbe with her. If she pushes you forward for your career then go ahead and be with her and I'll back off" And he said "You are pushing me towards my career" And my stubborn ass had to say "But if you like her and she likes you then be with her and I'll back off." And he went silent before saying "I'll call you later. " Ugh! What is wrong with me! He has feelings for me, but he doesn't know what to do? What are we even? He tells me I'm not ready, but he tells his friends I'm his girlfriend. We've made out in the hallways and he teases me with his shadow voice and-What is my life!