It's hard.. Keeping a secret.. Especially when you want to vent about that secret, but can't because you're scared of what others will think of you and who you'll lose.. There's day I just wanna shout it from the roof top and let everyone know, but... There's days where I just want to keep everything to myself because I know I wouldn't make sense to anyone.. Moments like these I just sit in my room and stare into the darkness of my closet until my friends Anxiety and Depression take over my body and put me at ease in a somewhat way they always have.. It's when you see others who can be free to express how they feel, which only makes you wanna bury your feelings deeper and deeper and then when the moon is high and you're all alone you let them out through tears and silent screams. Telling everyone you're fine when you're not because you want to speak the truth but can't!... That's how I feel on the daily.. I can't help it. It's just something I can't understand, but is gonna have to because... Because I just have too..