This is just something you guys can ignore if you want.

I've been depressed for a few years since I lost a close family member,and I've been that way since,and after that,I've lost two close friends one was an old elementary school teacher,and then my grandpa recently in December,I've been that way ever since,life is painful for me,very much,and I always think that I'm boring and a waste of people's time,well,that's all