Dear Diary, Feburary 1, 2015

Moving was okay kinda stressful but I met a guy name Jackson Fromenda, he and I decided to date because we have a lot in common. But sadly, I hate my new family, the little boys are annoying, and the 13 year old, oh I so badly want to kill her. She hates my guts for no reason and she always gets me in trouble with Sharon my new mother. I miss all of my friends back in Lincoln and I can't wait see them in April. Sincerely, Ryder Daniels

Next Day

Today I start my first day of school, I don't know anyone or like anyone for that matter so this will be a hard start to the school year. I got to my first class and sighed, "this will be great" I said with a long drawn out whisper. I sat down in the far back corner of the room so no one could notice me. Then just what I didn't want to happen, happened. A shorter girl with long orangish-red hair walked up and sweetly spoke " hey you must be the new girl, I haven't seen you round here before." I quickly replied " yah, well what is your name?" " Cassidy Merone, and yours is?" she smiled. " Oh, Ryder Daniels" I replied nicely, "So Ryder, Where in world do you come from?" She questioned, "What is this 20 questions, Just kidding, I come from Lincoln Nebraska." "Wow, you moved far" she snickered, A tear rolled down my face, Cassidy quickly said how sorry she was and didn't mean to say that. I said it was find and the teacher walked in, he was fat and bald, and had a dounut in his hand. "Class has started, Take your seats," he muddered. He paused and turned, he looked a me for a second and said "Ah, you must be our new student from Lincoln." I replied in a soft voice "yes, My name is Ryder Daniels." Once that class ended I was happy. The morning went surisingly fast, and by lunch I had made a friend.

My last class was Communications History and there was a super hot guy in their named Connor. He caught me glancing at him, and he winked at me. My heart instantly skipped a beat and started to pound. I was sure he could hear it, and figures, I got paired up with him to do a project. I really like him and think he is cool, we have a lot in comon like, we both like sports, also we both like the Seattle Seahawk, his favorite subject is English and so is mine, and we like the band Theory of a Deadman or Bush.

After school Sharon picked me up is her stupid little Prius SX, the ride home was so quite you could hear a tree move outside of the car. Sharon didn't look amused to see me and I was thinking Sophia the 13 year old had something to do with it. So I broke the silence with a question, "Hey Sharon, um is something wrong?" She replied " Yes, you hurt my little baby's feelings.", I was thinking, What did I do to her this time, and Sharon gave me a piece of her mind. I guess that I broke Little Sophia's doll and colored on it with permanent marker but, I clearly didn't I was at school all day and it happened while I was at school, I think Sharon just doesn't like me. When we got to the house I went straight to my room and didn't come out till supper.

Jackson Stopped by later that evening and hung out with me in my room. It was a total suprise, I was so happy to see him I cried, I hadn't seen him for 1 year. He had been in the army serving in Iraq. We talked about life and how much we missed each other. When we where sitting on my bed his deep green eyes met mine and made me blush, he leaned in and his lips met mine. We kiss for about 2 minutes, then he pulled away, taking in gulp of air he leaned in again this time knocking me off balance. He leaned over my now fluttering body and began kissing my neck. I push him off and said "No, stop I'm not ready, not today.", he understood and we began kissing again. By the time he left it was 12:30 and I was quivering in my slippers. He makes me so happy, I thought to myself.

The next day at school I saw Cassidy in the hallway and wanted to tell her all about last night and how lucky I felt to have him in my life. When I went over to her she smiled and said hey. I pulled her to the side hallway and told her everything, she started to giggle the stopped quickly and screamed "you had SEX!" Everyone looked at her and I, so I smacked her across the cheek. "What the hell Cassidy!" I said in sturn voice. " No, we didn't have sex, he tried and I said I wasn't ready for it.", "Good", she sighed. We went to class and I saw Connor, his smile made me blush. I started to think about Jackson and quickly stopped looking at him. He looked at me worried, I saw him walking over to me and I turned away. He asked what was wrong and I told him, "nothing." I told him to go back to his seat and that he shouldn't care about my life. Instantly, I new I fucked up by telling him that, so I walked over to his seat and said sorry about being a bitch and that I didn't mean it. Again he asked what was wrong and I told him it was family problems, he said anytime I was sad to come talk to me and I felt better in a flash. He acts like a older brother, I like that a lot, I always had a guy to talk to about with. When the day ended, I was so excited because Jackson was picking me up. I told him about Connor and he hit me on the cheek and yelled, "little cheating bitch, how dare you cheat on me. I thought you loved me" "wait, wait what why do you think I'm cheating on you, Connor is my friend. I don't get mad when you talk about your lady friends, so why can you just think I am cheating." I screamed. He hit me again this time harder and it gave me a black eye. When I got home Sharon came up to me and asked what happened. Through my sobs I got out, Jackson beat me! My makeup was so smeared on the one side, I looked like a rainbow. I sobbed for so long my eyes hurt from trying to keep in tears. Sharon actually felt bad for me, maybe she does like me, I thought to myself.

A couple weeks later I finally had the guts so I told Connor and Cassidy about what had happened with Jackson and I, and Connor looked super worried for me, I still had a brused cheek bone and everytime I touched it Connor glanced at me and looked so sad I could cry. After class I told him not to be worried and that I would be safe around Jackson, and if he hurt me again I would breakup with him. I felt bad because I lied to Connor, I can't breakup with Jackson, he would actually kill me. I started to cry right infront of Connor, he could tell I was lying to him and he told me, you can't breakup with Jackson can you Ryder. I started crying harder and harder as Connor comforted me on the floor. His beautiful blue eyes met mine.