I listened to the pitter-patter of the rain on my window, and held the smooth teacup in my hands. I never opened my eyes, as i held out my hands, reaching for a napkin somewhere on the table. I placed my teacup down, and tried again for the napkin.

I knocked over the teacup. Hot liquid spilled across the tablecloth, but it never touched me. I heard a small chuckle.

"You should ask me if you need something Luka~Tan~"

My Butler quickly wiped up the mess with a cloth, or so i heard. It made a slight scratching noise on the tablecloth, and i felt my teacup move slightly as i held it between both hands.

I heard Ryu stop, so i assumed he had finished cleaning up the spilt tea.

I placed the now empty cup back on the sauser, and stood.

Ryu took my hand, and led me out into the hallway.

I still kept my eyes closed. There was no need to open them.

I'm blind.

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I stood on the rug in my room, holding my arms out for Ryu.

He approached me, and started unbuttoning my shirt. He pulled it off. He continued to undress me, then put me in my nightwear. He led me to my bed, and lay me down.

I heard the clock strike midnight, as i felt something against my arm.

"Ryu!" I called out. "Yes young master?" I could almost hear the smirk on his face.

"Stop ticking me~!" I giggled as his tail brushed against me.

Ryu, was a demon. He was a cat demon, but, so was i. But i was different. I was blind, and i was alone. He saved me.

~~~Flashback~~~

I shivered in the dark cold rain, huddled in a ally somewhere, no one could see me, and i couldn't see them. A man approached me. His voice was soft, but sounded like he was guilty of something.

"Are you lost boy?" His voice sounded like sweet honey when he spoke to me. He walked closer, but i huddled closer to the wall.

He stopped walking to me. But i think he held out his hand.

"Why don't you come with me? To the magic world of circus?"

I feel as if he was lying. I learned long ago what the emotions of people sounded like. He had done things i would never understand.

I felt something move the air in front of my face.

"Can you see me?" He asked cautiously.

I shook my head, and pulled my knees tighter to my chest.

"My name is Joker, what's yours?"

I opened my eyes, my milky eyes stared into the blackness around me. I held out my hand to push off the wall, and tried to walk away, but i fell.

I braced myself to fall. But it never came. Big hands wrapped around me, preventing my fall. But something... something was different about one of his hands...

Bones.

I screamed, and pushed his hands away. His hand was made of bones. I should know what bone feel like. I held my sister as she lay dying.

I think the man, Joker he said his name was, was confused.

"B-bones" i whispered quietly. I felt the air move in front of my face, i think he was offering to help me stand. I slapped his hand away. My hand hit the bones, and i squeaked again.

"What? What's wrong?" He crouched in front of me. I felt his warm breath on my forehead.

"You... you have done wrong... you..." i shook in fear. He backed up and called out to someone else. "Beast!"

I heard lighter footsteps, probably a woman. But one step was slightly off, making a noise different... hollow.

I groped around in the darkness for something, and found a tin, probably for cigarettes, and threw it at them.

"STAY AWAY FROM ME" i screamed at them, and then started crying. I shivered in the ally corner.

I think they were suprised at my actions.

I've heard a lot of things on the streets, about a Circus that travels around, and every town they go to, eventually a lot of little kids go missing. I wasn't about to be one. Joker's hand... and his clothes... they screamed warnings. His clothes felt ruffly, and they had small patterns you could see at a circus. And his hand of bone... it was made of children bones... i was sure of that much... but... i feel as if they were unaware of what their limbs were made of.

Beast, or so they called her, when i heard her walk, it was gaited to the left, so most likely she also had a leg like Joker's hand.

Someone picked me up and tried to take me with them. It wasn't Joker, or Beast... it was two people... smaller. A girl and a boy. Most likely also with the other, due to the frills i felt on their clothes.

I struggled in their arms until i was too tired. Then... i fell asleep.

~~~A year later~~~

I sat on a bed, in a tent where they left me. I lived with the circus now, when they took me in a year ago. I didn't trust them at first, and refused to speak to them, or let them help me. I just lay in bed, no one could make me eat either. But eventually i gave in, and let them help me. But the only person... the only person i ever spoke to... he was called Snake. Snake was my best friend, we were even about the same age.

True to his name, Snake had snakes, and could talk to them. Emily was my favorite. I would sit in his tent and talk to them when they would go do shows, and i never wanted to go anywhere else. Eventually Joker gave in, and let me stay with Snake in his tent.

But one day it all changed.

It was like normal, it was about midnight, i could tell by how cold the air was. And i heard Joker, Beast, a boy named Doll, Jumbo, and the twins, sneak outside. They were talking about something.
I had realized they were the ones taking children a while ago, and asked them about it.

Of course they were suprised i figured it out, but explained anyways. They weren't doing it of their own free will. I decided to ignore it now... nothing i could do. But tonight... i wanted to follow them. I slipped out of the bed i shared with Snake, and Sara, a Black Mamba, curled around my shoulders, like a scarf.

I slipped out of the tent, and ran after them, staying in the shadows so they wouldn't see me. Sara told me the way to go, seeing as i couldn't see. The grass i walked on changed, and i heard the pit-pat of my footsteps on pavement.

Sara wrapped her tail around my hand, pulling me towards the right.

I heard two sets of footsteps to my left, so i started walking faster. Sara pulled me towards the door, and i walked in.

I eventually found myself downstairs somewhere, Sara hissed a something in front of me. A man? With a knife? In a lab coat... i backed away, and hid behind a piller.

The door i just came out of opened, and i heard wheels turning. A wheelchair and two others. A man, and a child. I heard a gasp of horrer from the child. I assume that the room i was in, was none too pretty. The man in the wheelchair laughed at the young boy's horror. So i make a mental note to avoid him. Then i hear Joker scream.

He sobs as they continue talking. The others... Beast.. Jumbo... all of them? Dead? No...

I heard a knife being drawn, and then Sara told me that the man with the labcoat was dead. Then the man in the wheelchair. And then... Joker...

There was a shout from the boy. "Sebastian! Burn it! Burn them all!" I heard a slight madness in his voice.

"But my young lord, i was under the impression the Queen wanted you to save the children."

The boy screamed out, "you think they could live like this! They are like i was, but i got you. They don't have someone to bring them back. Sebastian! This is an order! Burn it all down!"

i fell from behind the piller i was behind as i felt the heat from the flames around me. I screamed in terror as Sara pulled me towards the stairs. I was running now.

Its just like that day...

I tripped and fell. Sara  wrapped herself around my arm, as a effort to pull me up. I took a breath, and started reciting a poem my mother always told me... before i never saw her again.

"Chane tula tula chane, den laha ha lane
Chane tula tula chane, den laha ha lane
Chane tula tula chane, den laha h-"

I was cut off by a vase falling on me. But then it all stopped. The fire was no longer hot. I no longer felt the vase on me. Sara was not on my arm.

I reached out into the darkness and stumbled around. "Hello?" I called out to the darkness.

I heard a slight chuckle, and something appeared in front of me... no... someone.

"Hello~" I heard a mischievous voice in front of me. "Why have you summoned me young boy?"

I felt arms wrap around me, holding me close. It was... comforting in a way...

"Summoned..? You?" I realized the poem i had chanted. My mother used to read it to me by showing my the letters... but she never read it aloud... then i remembered the storys about beings that were different than us, angels, reapers, and... demons.

The man in front of me, which i deducted was a demon i had somehow summoned, started stroking my hair.

I came to a decision. "Be my butler, and serve me until i die. Protect me. And save me."

He stopped stroking my hair, and released me from his arms. He held out his hand i think, and said, "it's a deal. Until the day you die, i shall await your soul. And protect you." I nodded. I think he was holding out his hand, because then he spoke again. "Shake my hand?" I realized he didn't realize i was blind.

I giggled slightly "sorry about that... I'm blind" i held out my hand, and then felt his large hand envelope mine.

"So what will my name be?"

I thought for a moment.

"Ryu. Your name will be Ryu."

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Heyy... so, as the title says, it is a new book idea.
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Kay.

I still don't know if I will make it a separate book, but i would appreciate some feedback

If you want this as a book, please vote and comment what character you will be paired with, and i will try and reply as fast as i can.

(No Alois or anyone from season 2... everyone always puts them in there, and i haven't seen a fanfic in Book Of Circus)

~~~~~~~Pairings~~~~~~~

-Ciel

-Sebastian

-Snake

-Beast

-Joker

-Random Undertaker

-other

-Ryu, can be a oneshot if you want, but not the main ship.

Also, i will change the name to Y/N for you guys... i just didn't feel like editing everything i already wrote
#LazyProblems
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Thank you for reading this!
Baiiiii~♡

~Liluka