Butterfly
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"Will you stay by my side
Will you promise me
If I let go of your hand,
you’ll fly away and break.
I’m scared scared scared of that."

What happened?

What did I see?

Were they kissing? They definitely were.

How am I supposed to react now? My head is spinning and I feel nauseous. My stomach is flipping and I taste the vomit in my throat. I made it on time to the bathroom in our room. All that's been in my stomach is out now as I hover over the toilet. Everything is overwhelming me and I can't cope with this situation. Is Taehyung cheating on me? Was Jimin right when he said they're still in contact?

Please save me from this dilemma. I can't take this heartbreak, it will destroy me.

The footsteps approach me in the darkness and before I can lock myself in the bathroom, Taehyung stands already in the doorframe. I'm not ready to talk to him. I want to be alone yet I know we have to speak about it. My, still, boyfriend's face looks devastated at the scene. Me hanging over the toilet is not a very appealing sight. After collecting all my strength, I stand up and go to the sink to wash my face and mouth. Even brushing my teeth since the remaining vomit is acidic and is burning my mouth.

The man I love is struggling with whether he should help me or not. His arms flex and his lips open but no words are coming from him. I stand in front of him but there's no eye contact. Not from me but his eyes are following my every move. Taehyung steps aside to create a gap so I can leave the bathroom.

"Crissy, I'm sorry." He whispers but it's so noisy even though he spoke with a low voice.

"What are you sorry for? That you're cheating on me? That you made me believe you actually do love me but in fact you don't because you still love your ex? What is it, Taehyung?" My voice is shaking, hurt, and anger bursting out of me but I still try to control my emotions. The man is facing me and my heart is aching at the sight of his watery eyes.

"I'm not cheating on you, I would never!" Taehyung looks hurt as he tries to come closer but I step back, avoiding his touch. It shatters my soul to see him falling apart by denying him. But the picture of their lips connected is still haunting me to the core.
"Let me explain, please."

"I don't know what you want to explain when I caught you in the act." The words came out coldly and it fits my mood because I don't care about it. I don't wanna hear the truth. It'll break me and even though it sounds stupid I wish I never walked into that room. I wish I was still in my pinkish lovey bubble.

"Jen was wasted, that's why I brought her into her room. It happened all so fast that I couldn't act the way I should have. She confessed her feelings. I wasn't expecting this, it shocked me, and in another second, she kissed me." He sounds so unsure and confused. His feet are restlessly moving from left to right and his hands are moving and explaining while he speaks.

"I knew it!" The outburst of my voice causes Taehyung to jolt up and he's looking at me. "I fucking knew she still wants you. It was obvious the whole time. That's why she was always next to you. Her eyes were glued to your every movement. Why didn't I listen to my guts? We shouldn't be here, Taehyung!" My voice is breaking at the lack of air. As if someone is choking me. I'm hyperventilating. My anxiety is at its peak. Just the thought of losing him again shakes my whole body.

Before I collide with the ground, Taehyung catches me and is holding me close to his body. I protest by slapping his hard chest but he doesn't let go of me. "Let go. Don't dare to touch me with those hands." My body is weak. Why do I feel so tired all of a sudden? This situation stresses me out. It takes my whole energy to even fight properly against him.

I hate how comfortable he feels. I hate that I love his scent so much. I hate the way he can handle me even though I'm angry. I hate that I love his warmth. I hate to love being close to him.

"I got you, love." Taehyung kisses the top of my head and I could punch him for it.

"Don't kiss me with those lips!" The lips he kissed Jennie with, just kissed my head. I hate it.

But he's holding me closer and hums it's ok on repeat. What is he doing? I don't need his comfort. I do. "Psst. It's ok, love. I'm here."

"Fuck you Taehyung. I don't want this shit!" He leads us to the mattress and sits down with me between his legs. His arms are hugging me from behind now. "You touched her with those hands and kissed her with those lips and now you're doing the same to me?"

"She forced it. But all I want is you. These hands are meant to hold and touch only you. And these lips can't get enough of yours. I love you, Crystal. There's no place for someone else because my heart is full of your love. Please believe me. I would never hurt you like that." And again he places his soft lips against my neck.

"So you didn't kiss her?"

"I didn't!" The man behind me shifts my position so I can face him and our eyes lock. "Just when I wanted to leave, she pulled me down and I was surprised at her strength that I was distracted for a second and that's when she…" Taehyung doesn't end the sentence as his gaze lowers in embarrassment but I tug his chin to look up.

"You don't want her back? Did I get that right?"

"Yes, you got that right!" My body relaxes at his words and my gaze softens. He's still holding me and watching me with so much care. His smile is lighting up his face when he cups my face with his big hands. "Do you know what? These few days showed me what I was searching for my whole life. I thought I would never love again after Jen, but you proved me wrong. What I have with you, what I feel for you, is so different and special. Crystal, I don't wanna sound cheesy but I can imagine my future with you. This love that we have is mutual and mature because I feel like we are connected and destined for each other. You have everything  I want in a partner and so much more than I deserve."

When he started to confess his thoughts, I began crying and my tears won't stop. Taehyung's wonderful words touched me because I feel the same. He's too perfect to be real but here he is wiping away my tears and kissing my cheeks gently. I almost lost him. "Tae, I want to go home."

"Let's sleep here tonight, it's too late and I drank too much than allowed. I promise you, as soon as we wake up tomorrow, we will leave this place and go home."

After an argument and a rollercoaster ride of emotions, I got hungry. We decided to go downstairs to wish everyone a Happy New Year and of course, to get something between my teeth. Kai isn't with them, he's definitely with Jennie. As her best friend, he would comfort her or take care of her. Or he's just asleep because he was tired.

Who cares? I don't!

Honestly, I am glad she's not here. Looking at her now would be weird and I know the jealousy will tease my system and I don't have the energy for a drama. It's enough for me to know how my boyfriend feels. And I trust him when he says he doesn't want her back but I don't know Jennie. This woman could try anything to break us. And that's what she was trying for the whole time.

Who knows how she'll act tomorrow? Maybe she will leave us alone but she could also be more aggressive in her behavior. I don't want to risk this relationship just because a drama queen decided to play her high school love story again. We are all grown-ups and too old for this shit.

Taehyung is talking to Jimin in their mother tongue but I can imagine their topic. Their faces are serious and Jimin is shocked at some moments. I can't believe they're best friends. But I watched them from the day we arrived at this place, and this group of men, including Hoseok, Wooshik, Jimin, Taehyung, and even Jungkook, have a very well-knitted friendship.

An outsider can tell how close they are just by watching and listening to their conversations. Sometimes, they don't need to talk to understand what the other one means. They know each other very well but Jimin and Taehyung are different. They are two bodies and one mind. It scares me to tell Taehyung about my past with Jimin. These two are the closest, they're like brothers.

Will his love for me be enough to accept what Jimin and I did? It was a one-time thing. It's not like we were in love or anything. I didn't even know Taehyung before Jimin nor did I know they are friends. My boyfriend's eyes meet mine and right after I also feel Jimin's gaze.

"Yo, fellas, why so boring?" This voice causes my nails to curl. Jungkook is drunk. On one hand a drink and on the other a cigarette. He's wobbling from furniture to furniture until he leans against Jimin. The older one stabilizes his younger friend. "Shouldn't we play something?"

"Come on, Kook, you're too drunk. Your bed is calling." How can Jimin be so calm when the tattooed man puffs smoke right into his face? That must be disgusting but the blond male doesn't even react to the bratty behavior of Jungkook.

"What you mean? I don't wanna sleep." Jungkook protests and frees himself from Jimin's support. The dark-haired man looks around him until his eye catches me eating peacefully the leftovers. "Chim, why didn't you invite more bitches?"

"I wanted to spend time with my friends since I didn't get to see you all as often as I wanted." Again the control Jimin has is strong. The younger one scoffs at this statement.

"Still, you could've invited more girls. Jennie is wasted and I know Kai would never let me go near her. She would be a good fuck though. So…the only…option…"

"What the fuck, Kook, Jen is Taehyung's ex! She's a taboo." Jimin approaches Jungkook while my eyes wander to my boyfriend. The man I love has a frown on his handsome face but doesn't react to what Jungkook said.

"Tzz…I don't give a fuck." The younger one is acting like a little spoiled child. "But there's still one option." The sudden grasp around my waist takes me off guard. My plate falls out of my grip and shatters into hundreds of pieces when meeting the marble floor. Breathing is suddenly a hard task when I comprehend the happenings. Jungkook's arms hold me tight to his body. I get chills at the feeling of his touch, reminding me of the horrible morning when this man wanted to take advantage of me.

But before I can react and protest against him, Taehyung's fist collides with Jungkook's cheekbone. The younger one falls onto the floor, holding his face as he whines in pain. Footsteps echo in chaos just when my boyfriend hovers over Jungkook, ready to punch him once again. Jimin catches his best friend's fist in the air while Wooshik and Hoseok support Jungkook to stand from the floor.

"Stop it, both of you!"

"The hell I'd stop. Jimin, he touched my woman!" Taehyung yells at his best friends with anger in his deep voice.

"Calm down, Tae, he's fucking wasted."

"That's a bad excuse. I don't give a fuck about how wasted he is. No. One. Is. Touching. My. Girl."

"Come on, Tae, let's share. I bet she can handle a threesome or even more." Jungkooks evil laugh is loud. He's a devil. What does he think I am? My heart is near to exploding and my breathing quickens. I try to calm down but it's hard with all that's happening around me.

"Shut up!" Jimin and Taehyung are yelling in unison. Anger in every fiber of their body makes them tense. Their eyes are red but my boyfriend looks as if he could kill Jungkook. He takes another step toward the younger one but is held by Jimin. "Tae, don't."

"Aish. You're so cute. It has always been Jimin and Taehyung since we were kids, right?" Wooshik and Hoseok release the youngest one since he's protesting against their grip. "Tae, do you think you know everything about your best friend, Jimin?"

My boyfriend looks confused at Jungkook's question. "What does Jimin have anything to do with your filthy mouth? Don't try to distract me."

The tattooed man laughs at Taehyung which angers the older one even more. How can I stop this fight?  This is getting out of control and the man I love is on fire. I don't get to see him this angry often and I'm glad. Everyone is tense and somehow ready to fight. All eyes are on the youngest and Taehyung.

Jimin is looking at me and tilts his head to the side. Displaying me to take my boyfriend away from here. The blonde-haired man's eyes are shaking and his knuckles are white from squeezing his fists too hard. Jimin is nervous. Slowly I approach Taehyung and when I reach him I place my hands on his chest. My touch distracts him from his anger toward Jungkook as his face softens when his eyes finally meet mine. "Babe, let's go upstairs, ok?"

"Yeah, Tae, go upstairs and fuck her already." Jungkook's comment causes my boyfriend to tense up again. He steps forward but I don't let him pass by pushing him slightly backward.

"You fucking brat. Get your life together and act like an adult!" Taehyung growls through gritted teeth.

"Kook, that's enough, come on, you should also get some sleep." Jimin passes by us, shielding Taehyung and me but the evil laugh of Jungkook catches our attention again.

"Oh, I'm sorry Chim, I bet you wish to go upstairs with…"

"Jeon Jungkook, stop it!" The blond-haired man yells out of the blue, causing my boyfriend and me to jolt up in surprise.

"Mhh, right. Tae, should I tell you a secret?" Jungkook doesn't shut up. Taehyung's jaw is tense and his eyes dark, as if he's killing his youngest friend in his imagination.

"Babe, let's go." I feel the tension rising more and more. This place will explode if nothing's gonna change.

"Well, it includes your girlfriend as well." The teasing sound of his voice sends chills along my spine. I get an idea of what Jungkook is referring to and this is the last thing we need right now.

"Jungkook shut up!" Jimin yells again and Taehyung is growing impatient as his eyes are restlessly watching them.

"Do you know what Jimin did_"

"Jeon Jungkook!"

I push Taehyung back, in the hope he'd start walking away but he doesn't. His attention is completely on Jimin and Jungkook arguing back and forth.

"Jimin your best friend and Crystal_"

"Kook!" A loud bumping noise echoes through the living room. Jimin is holding his fist and breathing heavily while Jungkook hisses in pain on the floor, holding his bruised cheek. "Tae, go, now!"

"What the fuck, Jimin?" The man I love asks in confusion but starts to walk backward. His eyes are still glued to them but I hardly push him and he finally turns around.

"Jimin had your girlfriend first!" Jungkook yells out with a laugh. Taehyung stops walking and all the color on my face is fading. "Jimin fucked Crystal. They knew each other before you even touched her."

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