All 4 nothing
Lauv

"I'm so in love, I'm so in love
I don't ever wanna stop this ride that we're on, I don't ever wanna say goodbye
Then all of those nights, they would just be all for nothing."

Her little breathy snores indicate the runny nose she had since yesterday. Crystal must've caught a cold, what's not rare to have at this season of the year. Winter is cold here in New York and it's snowing again today. The warm air from her exhales hit my neck while she lets out a cute snort. It's hard not to chuckle at this sweet little panda candy in my arms. I want to bite her cheeks only to see her cute pouty reaction.

Having her, laying beside me, in my arms, is an incredible feeling. The whole world does not exist when I'm with her. All I can see is Crystal and she is everything I want. I missed this. She's giving me so much love in everything she does that I feel bad for not showing her properly what she deserves because she's worthy of so much more. I feel like shouting from the highest rooftop, for everyone to know how much I love her. Just to make clear she's my woman.

My panda didn't see my dark side yet. I'm a very jealous person and it's easy to bring me to the peak of it. I will try to hold it back as long as I can. Jennie hated it. My ex is a very open person, and so am I, but she is very touchy with everyone. If men or women. If someone touches what's mine, oh boy, he'd better run. That was a big topic in my relationship and my ex and I fought a lot because she didn't understand my problem. It was the way the other guys looked at her, and I knew what they were thinking. Their faces firmly screamed, dirty minds.

"Babe, what are you thinking about? You look kinda angry." Her candy voice sounds still sleepy and her half-opened eyes catch my attention. I love it when she calls me her babe, this pet name out of her mouth does something to me. How can someone look this cute but at the same time do unholy things to my body? "Did I kick you in my sleep?"

The chuckle, I was holding for too long, burst out because of her. She's so funny. "No, you did not!" Crystal's brows furrow, mirroring her confusion before she climbs on top of me. Her hands clutch each side of my ear, holding me hostage in between her stretched arms. Our stomachs are together and I can feel her soft skin on mine. My panda's silk black hair is falling onto her shoulders and a few strains tingling my cheeks. She's stunning even after waking up freshly.

"Liar!" Here it is, her cute little pout which teases the dimple on her left cheek. I can't hide my smile when she fills her cheeks with air, making them round and more adorable. "Why were you angry? Did anyone upset you?"

"I wasn't angry, sugar. And no one did anything to upset me, yet." I put my arms around her waist. Caressing her sides to feel her tender skin.

"Yet?"

"Crissy, I am a possessive boyfriend and very jealous of anyone who would touch you or eye you with bad thoughts!" The woman's face relaxes and blinks with her eyes a few times before I feel her hands combing through my hair.

"I like that." She whispers.

"You, what?" Never heard a woman would like a possessive man. "I mean, I will call to control where and with whom you are?!"

"Yeah, and I will answer you. I will ask you the same just for your information. It's not possession, babe, that's caring for each other." Her dark chocolate eyes soothe my heart at ease.

"I am very jealous, a wrong gaze from another man is enough to make me angry!"

"I would be more worried if you don't because I will get jealous if another woman is touching you." Crystal kisses softly the bridge of my nose before planting her lovely lips on my cheeks.

"Are you for real?" I am confused but her words don't sound as if she's joking. My hands find her neck and I massage gently the back of her head, causing her to close her eyes with a breathy moan.

"Kim Taehyung, if you're searching for a way to escape me, it's too late. You are mine!" The way my heart beats faster can only be caused by this woman. I don't know how she manages to make me flustered so effortlessly but I love the thought of her being jealous. Jennie was rarely envious but neither did I give her reasons to be. My friends are mostly men and I always try to leave a respectful distance from other women when I'm in a relationship.

"You are mine. Sugar, you're making me very happy. I can't believe you're real." Her little giggles are my happy pill I wanna hear every day. We lock our lips into a loving yet hungry kiss.

After dropping my love in front of her workplace, and a short but heated making-out session in my car, I'm driving to my place to get some stuff. I want to stay at my girlfriend's place. My Girlfriend, Crystal, is mine now. It's very hard to keep our hands off one another but I can't get enough. Maybe I should think about a way to glue our bodies together. I'm clingy and I hope she won't get tired of me.

This all feels different from what I felt for Jennie. There's no doubt that I loved her, I wanted to marry her and have kids, and if she didn't break up we'd probably still be together. Of course, after we split up I saw how different our thoughts were, especially regarding what we wanted our future to be. My ex and I are like fire on fire, and when we fought it always exploded to the point where we said awful things. I'm quick to fire up my emotions, difficult to calm myself from my rage, and Jennie was the same. We always ended up in bed but didn't talk about the issues we had and that's what parted us.

We ate too many problems and never solved them.

I'm curious what Crystal would be like in a situation like that. From what I've caught since I know her is that she can be very fired up but she's more controlled. Always chooses her words carefully but never went too far as insulting me. I don't even know if she ever cursed except when I made her feel good. She's the opposite of me yet we're similar in so many things, even our sight of the future is the same. This is what makes her special too but what pulls me to her is the feeling I get when I'm with her.

Crystal is what I consider my home. She is what I want to protect and cherish. Where I want to come back every day. All I want in a woman is her, she embodies everything I'm craving and searching for my whole life. I don't know why I feel this way. Others would say it's too fast to say things like this but I am sure about Crissy. There has to be a major issue to change my mind. Something that would break my heart yet I can't imagine she's able to hurt me. Considering her soft and caring personality.

My cold apartment seems a bit foreign now that I got used to my girlfriend's warm home. I plop onto my couch and rest my head against the back while expanding my arms to my left and right. Something hard gets into touch with the back of my hand and I squeeze my fingers in between the gap of my furniture. What I pull out of my couch makes me think for a moment but I can't find an answer. My lost phone is what I hold in my palms, it's off.

Did Jimin not search properly? Yes, maybe. But he is very precise in anything he does. I remember he had work to do, he probably hadn't a lot of time to search. I turn on my phone and as soon as it's on, messages tune in. They are all from Crystal *panda emoji*. That's how I saved her. Shit, she was really angry, and upset, I can feel her disappointment behind each texting. Oh, my sweet love, I am so sorry.

My heart aches at the sight of these SMS, and all I wanna do right now is hold her and apologize over and over again. She's always fighting for my attention and from now on, I will give her all of me. But why was my phone off? It still has 25% energy. Did I turn it off by accident as Joon hurried me to quickly pack my things? I'm not sure but glad my phone didn't get lost. Tapping a message to my panda makes the butterflies go wild in my stomach.

"I LOVE YOU!" Sent.

I wish time would pass quickly to get to her faster. Missing her already, although we parted just a few hours ago. A package is still in my suitcase, it's a present for my woman. I saw them in Seoul while I went shopping with my sister Jisoo. Crystal and I were so busy with each other that I totally forgot about this. It's a mocha-colored, knitted long dress with a turtleneck. Knowing she likes this style I immediately thought of her when I first saw this on a mannequin. And I also bought a couple-keychain as I hoped for her forgiveness. One has a black bear which is mine, and the other one is a panda bear, of course for my love.

My suitcase is filled with new clothes, undergarments, and my work clothing. Tomorrow will be my first day of work after my accident. Finally. To be honest, I love spending time with my girlfriend but she has a job as well and I can't stand staying at home without her. Work is a good distraction and time is running faster. I make sure to lock my door properly before leaving the building.

Next to my car is a very familiar, German brand of automobile, it's JK's. The tattooed man comes into my sight and I can't help but feel anger toward him. I didn't see him since the incident happened and I avoided this guy who mistreated a woman; my woman. Why didn't I punch him harder then? He surely deserved it but I didn't want to cause problems for his family. 

"You're back? I thought you were in Seoul." His dirty smirk is what I couldn't stand since he was little. It's always connected to evil thoughts.

"I came back two days ago. Something urgent had to be resolved, that's why I returned sooner." I try to say it gently but I'm sure Jungkook hears the undertone in my voice. He simply nods and tilts his head to the side, discovering my suitcase.

"Hmm something or someone?" This little brat and his fucking curiosity.

"That is not your business Jeon!" I scoff and walk past him to put my suitcase into the trunk of my car before heading to the driver's door.

"Are you still fucking that whore? Isn't her pussy worn out from all the dicks she_"

Bam-Bang!

My fist collides with his jaw for the disrespectful words he calls my girlfriend. I can't accept him insulting my woman in front of me. His body falls with a loud thump to the cold asphalt. JK curses at me and hisses in pain when he senses blood in his mouth.

"Dare to call her like that again and I will break all your bones. I'm not kidding Jeon. You know me, I have no problems punching someone even if it's a childhood friend. You went too far!" I warn him and enter my car before starting the vehicle and driving away from this dishonorable bratty kid. Jungkook was a friend but I never thought he would act this dirty. What the fuck is his problem with Crystal? Is his ego hurt because she didn't let him do what he wanted from her?

If it's sex that he wants I'm positive there are a lot of women who want to sleep with him. Crystal isn't even his type. Fuck! 

I need to see her as soon as possible to calm down. Her warmth and her sweet smell of vanilla will give me peace and secureness. I want to devour her and never let go.

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Jeon!!!
It's so funny to write scenes with JK. Hope you had a little glimpse inside Tae's heart. I love to write fluff, just melting with the emotions of my characters will be the cause to see the dentist soon. Tae and Crissy are too sweet ♥️
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