Finding Hope
3 am

"Wanting you more and more
I can't help but think of what we could be. And baby, if I could tell you..."

Taehyung molds our lips into one, claiming my mouth as if there's no tomorrow. His soft cloud-like lips kiss me so gently that his touches feel like air yet so intense that I'm on the verge to lose the ground under me. I'm lifted by his strong arms as he walks us into my bedroom. Our lips are glued together. It's crazy how he has me on my knees just by kissing.

It's easy to follow his lead because he doesn't force dominance. We share equally. If I want to lead he lets me. His tongue works magic when he starts to suck my neck and I already know that I'll be marked by him when I feel the little arousing sting. Tae is teasing a moan out of me when he bites the sensitive spot.

"Hmm, look at this love mark, it's art!" he breathes against my skin before laying me carefully on the soft mattress. This man's eyes capture my whole attention and I follow his every movement with excitement. "Do you think you're ready?" My heart aches a little at his question. I don't know what he's thinking and I escape his stare, confused about what to answer.

"I_ if you don't want to_with me_" I stutter. 

"I want you!" He gently pulls my chin with his thumb and index finger to face him again. "But if you're not ready I won't force you to do anything you don't want to. Crissy, you're more important!" How can he make me feel so worthy? My eyes get teary at his response but I hold them back from flowing. Even in this kind of situation, it's still important to him how I feel.

"Tae, I want you too!" A smile decorates his sculpted face and comes closer and kisses me more passionately this time. Taehyung always asked me if I'm ok with it, even the first time we had sex. He made sure to respect my opinion. I can trust him. "Didn't you say you're exhausted?"

The male sits on his knees and takes his hoodie off, presenting to me his naked upper body, "Well, you woke me up." he reaches for the hem of my shirt and undresses me naked. He can't hide his excitement as he bites his bottom lips, his eyes are hooded in lust. The bulge in his sweatpants is growing, and watching him crave my body is more than arousing. I don't feel shame or the urge to hide my not-so-perfect body because he makes me feel beautiful.

Tae starts to kiss my tummy while caressing my thighs and ass cheeks. He was the first who pleasured me orally. I always wanted to try it but never got what I yearned for until I met this amazing human being. Shivers bolt through my whole body when Taehyung places little kisses on my mound before he rolls his flat tongue along my lips. When he reaches my sensitive clit he starts sucking and twirling, like he's eating a sweet candy.

I let my head fall behind and enjoy the pleasure this man is giving me with his mouth. His groans send vibrations and it's even more enjoyable when he starts to thrust his finger inside of me. He curls his fingers inside me, teasing a sensitive spot and sucking my clit, all at once, bringing me closer to the edge that I have to hold the sheets for dear life not to burst out in satisfaction. I'm moaning uncontrollably and start to roll my hips onto his face.

"Mhm, that's it, Sugar, ride my face." He grabs my butt and presses me against his face to let me reach my climax. Tae is sucking my clit so hard that I start quivering as I reach my high and I come undone and spit profanities into the room when he starts to fuck me with his tongue just to tease me more. I grab his hair by the roots to stop him from overstimulating me and he lets out a chuckle.

While I collect myself from the amazing pleasure he gave me I hear him taking off his clothes. Tae comes next to me and caresses my tummy up to my breasts and gently massages them. I look at him and I feel my heart pounding faster. His eyes hide so much pain but now, he's looking at me with so much care and adoration. I tuck his dark locks behind to look at this man's stunning features.

"Tae_" He starts to kiss me, interrupting my attempt to confess something. Maybe it's too soon. I lose myself as he gently caresses my body. Tae places my leg on his hips and I come closer with my hips until I feel his tip on my wet entrance. We're kissing without taking breaks but it's different from the kisses we shared. It's deeper, slower, and more delicate. I have never been kissed like this.

My hips intuitively roll forward and allow him to sink inside me so easily. We both moan in unison as we feel the pleasure. Our bodies move rhythmically like we're dancing together. It's slow yet more passionate. He's holding my face and disconnects our lips for a few seconds just to look at me with so much affection. There's not only lust behind his irises, but worship is also more accurate and he lets me know that with his whole body.

Taehyung changes our position without pulling out, he's now on top of me.

"Sugar, give me a pillow." I pass him one and he places it under my butt. The difference is incredible and I know by the look on his face that he's thinking the same. Whenever this man bites his bottom lips and creases his brows angrily, that shows me he's liking it.

"Fuck, you feel so good, bebi!"

Bebi? Another nickname?

He starts rolling his hips delicately stronger than earlier but still at a slow pace. The thrusts are deeper, this position makes it possible for him to hit my cervix effortlessly. Our sex feels unlike the other times, it's more intimate and less rough. Taehyung was never too harsh with my body; he always prepared me nicely and didn't focus on just fulfilling his pleasure; he's not as selfish as my ex. The complete opposite.

I gently comb through his soft hair and watch his expression. He is so good-looking and pleasure is written all over his face. The urge to kiss his soft lips overrules my desire and I pull him slowly to my face. Tae smirks sweetly, understanding my action, and leans in for a kiss. He's leading my hands above my head and intertwines our fingers together.

This slow lovemaking is always what I imagined a loving couple should have sex. It's more than sex, it's beyond just two naked bodies. This completes everything: body, soul, heart, and mind; we are one. We are free from thoughts and worries, no acting or misunderstanding, everything is raw and genuine. Even our heartbeats are pounding at the same rhythm as our breathing.

I feel adored and protected by this man. My legs start trembling and he knows I'm close. His thrusts are getting stronger. Our lips pause kissing but we don't disconnect the touch. Tae is still holding my hands just the grip gets tensed as he groans and reaches his climax and cums inside me, filling my womb with his hot semen. He rests his head on the crook of my neck and we take our time to breathe and recollect ourselves from this breathtaking act.

I brush through his hair and scratch with my nails softly his back up and down. Tae grabs my hand, stopping me from touching his hair. Our eyes meet while he leads my hand to his lips, placing lovingly a kiss on my ring finger. Behind these chocolate eyes is my place. I want to be called his, and that's when I understand I'm in love with Kim Taehyung!