Blue
You make me wanna

"I know this is a feeling that I just can't fight. You're the first and last thing on my mind. You make me wanna love, you make me wanna fall. You make me wanna surrender my soul."

"Why are you here?" I step forward to hinder him from entering my home. My eyes follow every move he makes with furrowed brows. Out of all people, he would be one of the least I want to have in my apartment.

"Can I come in?" His sweet voice is quiet and calm but I know exactly what's behind the sweetness. He is not as sweet as he sounds.

"It's pretty late, don't you think? Why should I let you in? We haven't talked since the day you left Naomi's place. Remember? You just wanted to wet your dick that night but I couldn't give you that so you ran out to search for another who would do it!" I say through gritted teeth. It's still upsetting me the way he treated me and he dares to appear as if we're friends. Not a single message or a call did I get from him.

"Come on, Ruby_" Jimin sounds drunk.

"That's not my name!" 

"Ok, I'm sorry, Crystal, please let me apologize." He steps forward to approach me. The sweet scent of his perfume invades my nostrils and I'm starting to dislike his fragrance. I stop him from coming upon me when I push his chest away.

"You can apologize while you stand there, don't come closer or I'll slam the door into your face!" 

"Wow, I like this side of you_" Jimin smirks and a shiver of disgust runs through my body. He's canceled, Jimin disappointed me and it's not even his fault. I was the one who wanted to have fun without boundaries but he hurt my feelings and made me believe I'm worthless because I didn't give him what he wanted; sex.

"What do you really want?"

"I missed you!" This answer was unexpected but his look is more confusing to me. He is not lying, I see the sincerity in his gaze but it's too late for all of this.

"You never contacted me."

"Crystal, I was ashamed. I acted like an asshole and to be honest, yes, I wanted just sex that night. I came to Naomi's place with that in mind but ended up feeling bad about you. I still feel bad for my behavior and the words I said to you." Jimin explains, never losing eye contact. Why is it now? His words touch me but I ended this chapter already and I don't want to open it again. I swore to myself to never let a guy hurt me ever again.

I fumble with the thought to let him in but just at the same second a face appears in my mind. The smile I grow to love more and more, the eyes that see into the deepest secrets in my soul, the dark locks which move along to every movement, the man who's slowly stealing my heart, Kim Taehyung. Oddly, he's always been on my mind.

"I appreciate your courage to tell me this but you could have sent me a message or called me. It's late and I'm tired, could you leave, please?" attempting to close the door, he places his foot in the frame, stopping me from shutting the entrance. "Jimin, this is not funny. I mean it, please leave!" I raise my voice a bit.

"That's it? You would not let me in after I apologized to you?" He tries to push the door open but I lean my body weight against the cold material to prevent him from opening it.

"What do you expect me to do?"

"At least a hug or a kiss!" he jokingly says. I have enough of this shit.

"Jimin, if you don't leave I'll call the police, I'm not joking!!" Jimin lets go and the door shuts behind me. I sit on the floor hugging my knees and I feel the salty liquid wetting my cheeks. I'm realizing just now how scared I was as it reminded me of the situation with Jungkook. Why did I open the door? It could have gone so wrong. 

"Crystal, why do I have to think about you? Every fucking day, you're the first I have in mind! Leave my fucking brain! I don't want to think about you!" This man sounds angry yet desperate. Jimin knocks his head or his fist against the door a few times. I don't respond to him. What should I tell him? Maybe it's his penalty, he regrets what he did but that doesn't change my choice of choosing me, my safety, and the protection of being humiliated again.

Steps walking farther away are audible and when they disappear I stand up to see through the loophole; Jimin is not here anymore, he left. Thank God. The adrenaline in my body is fading away and I start shivering, it's the aftermath of all the building-up emotions that I held back inside. It would be nice to have someone to hug me tight now.

I crawl into my bed and reach for the pillow Tae has slept on and immediately inhale his smell. Like a painkiller would vanish the ache, Taehyung's perfume does the same to me. Just the thought of him being with me and invading my sense of smell calms me down and I can breathe easily again. Listening to my breathing sound relaxes my body and I'm close to arriving at dreamland but a loud knock shrieks me up. 

I raise my eyes open and collect myself if I imagine the sound on my door. It can't be that Jimin is still here, right? Another knocking is placed at my entrance I watch at the time, it's 3 am, what the hell is going on? My brain tries to function as to who could visit me at this hour but nobody comes to my mind.

"Sugar, are you awake?" My heart skips a beat at the voice and I jump out of my bed heading to open the door for that someone I want the most at the moment. The one who makes me feel good when I'm in despair, searching to be healed. The guy who has the power to read me without telling him anything. 

Kim Taehyung. 

"What's up?" I ask perplexed by the person who's standing in front of me with a box of pizza in his hand. His dark locks bounce when he takes off the cap of the pizzeria with the logo on it. The soft glimmer in his eyes shows me the tiredness of this beautiful man. Tae is working too hard for my taste but he must have his reasons why.

"Thought you might be hungry?!" An adorable smile appears on his soft light pink lips as he steps in and makes his way to the coffee table, just to put the very delicious-smelling pizza on it. He locks his eyes with mine, as I'm still confused and surprised about his arrival. Tae comes closer and takes my hand in his cold grip, he's freezing. No wonder the temperature at this hour of this season of the year is getting colder and colder.

"Tae your hands are freaking cold!" I automatically take both of his hands into mine and puff warm air with my mouth into the mold I created to warm him up just a little bit. Taehyung chuckles as he watches me and grabs my waist to lead me onto the sofa, making me sit.

"Panda, that won't do. You have something more to do than this." The sound of him giggling in amusement about my action is something I wanna hear all the time. There's nothing I dislike about this man or maybe I just didn't find out yet. My heart is beating so fast that I'm scared he could hear it pumping like crazy for him. "Come on, eat up," he says while trying to feed me with a piece "open your mouth, ahh" with wide eyes I look at him, "I won't accept a no, or I'm not hungry!"

How can I not submit to his sweet gesture? He makes me weak to the knees and I'm starting to be scared of what I already feel for this guy. Everything he does is too fascinating to me, whether it's his laughing and the little touches on my waist or his deep soul-dipping gaze with these chocolate brown eyes and the even sexier sound of his voice. It feels as if he's tattooing my whole heart, soul, and body with his imprint.

"You didn't eat today, am I right?" shocked by the fact that he's right I gulp the lump in my throat, "You look so pale, please eat up. I'll stay until you finish this!"

"Wait, I can't finish a whole pizza by myself and it's 3 am."

"I thought you're a good eater, good eaters can always eat, no matter the time."

"I am, but more the less but continually during the day, eater."

We burst out laughing while eating the pizza together. This man makes me feel so weightless as if I never had bad experiences in life and it's so relieving having him by my side. Taehyung appears whenever I need somebody. The mere touch of his fingertips or the cute knee-on-knee slamming is enough to let the insects, which are already going crazy in my stomach, turn into wild creatures.

"Did you just work till now?" I ask him.

"Yup, I did. Today was a very long day and I'm exhausted, to be honest." Tae shrugs his shoulders with a cute smile on his face.

"Tae, why didn't you just go home?" I touch his knees with my hand and show him that I worry about him when I caress his thighs up and down to massage the pain that he must be feeling after a long day. But he stops me by taking my hand and holding it tight.

"Because I wanted to see you no matter what!" The lump in my throat just disappears as I gulp it down. My face must be bright red by now. This man knows how he can make my heart flutter and leaves me speechless. He understands that his words affect me by the way he's smirking and looking at me.

"Well, I think it's time for me to go. We ate the pizza, and it's late." disappointed by what he just tells me, we stand up and stroll our way to my door. Why is it that I already miss him although he's still here? The thought of him leaving me is scary and I can't stop this feeling.

"Make sure you eat and don't skip your meals." Tae grabs the hem of my shirt and pulls me gently onto his chest. He is so damn handsome that I lose myself in his deep and sexy stare and his intoxicating scent doesn't make it easier. "I'll call you," teases this guy when he grazes my lips with his.

"Tonight?" I tease back and replay his action. A smirk forms on his mouth.

"If that's your wish, I'll call you when I'm home." He gives me a little peck and rests his forehead on mine.

"That's not exactly what I want…" just when I finish my sentence, his gaze is focusing on me with a hint of lust and desire. 

"What is it that you want?" our breathing gets faster and I feel our fire burning. His exhales hit my lips and I swear my slip is damp by now. I'm butter in between his hold.

"Stay with me the night!"