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"Not sure how to feel about it
Something in the way you move
Makes me feel like I can't live without you"

"I know you want me as much as I want you, Pocahontas."

Jungkook kisses my lips but I squeeze them together to prevent him from going further. He tries to stick his tongue inside my mouth but I won't open my teeth. I don't want to taste him, kiss him, or do anything to him. This man is ridiculous for doing this without my permission. This is a crime!

He wants to take advantage of me when I'm paralyzed when I'm at my weakest condition. My body is stiff and my voice won't come out. If it stays this way he'll rape me I'm an easy target now. Please, someone, help me! Fear and disgust are what I feel for this guy. And this situation wakes up bad memories from my childhood. 

"Come on, don't fight your desire. I'll take good care of you, babe." His grip tightens around my neck and it's getting hard to breathe. Jungkook's other hand starts to grab my breasts roughly. He massages them and pinches my nipple so hard that I want to cry out loud but just a quiet whimper comes out of me. 

I don't want this. No one should touch me the way he does. I'm scared, very scared!

"That's right darling, moan for me." He's getting nastier, my neck is free as he lets go of me because he needs two hands to take the shirt off me. Taehyung's shirt, Tae put it on me so lovingly and with care. Now I'm naked in front of this evil man. My mind is going blank and pictures from my past start appearing in front of me. I close my eyes and start praying to God. 

Jungkook does what he wants to do, he kisses and licks my breasts. He likes to bite my nipples but it hurts so much. I feel like he bites them until they bleed and are wounded. Every touch he does is rough, it's not that I'm not used to being used but this is another situation. Yoongi used me cause I allowed him to, even though it hurt me but I loved him and thought that I have to give him what he wanted.

I was wrong for allowing him to hurt me, now I know better.

But with Jungkook it's different. We have nothing to do with one another. He is not my date, friend, or a one-night stand. No. He is forcing himself on me! Tears start running down my cheeks and soft sobs leave my mouth. My throat aches but I try to talk.

"Jungkook, stop! Please stop! I'm begging you!" I plead with a low voice.

It's no use the evil is not listening and starts to kiss my thighs and rubs my private part. This can't be happening. Why is it me again? Am I this naive that he takes advantage of my helplessness? I probably deserve this. Maybe I'm a bad person or did anyone wrong and this is my punishment. 
Yeah, it's my fault. I let him into my apartment. It could be that I sent him the wrong signals. Yeah, I'm at fault!

"Damn you're gorgeous, now I know why Jimin and Tae are crazy about you. I saw that you were sexy when you wore your skinny jeans last time but I didn't know how tender your skin is. You're so sensitive, I like that. "What Jimin? Why is he talking about him? Who is crazy about me?

So I am at fault. I shouldn't have worn those jeans. I'm dumb why did I wear those? I knew it was too revealing and tight but I wore a long shirt to cover my curves. Crystal you silly woman! Yes, I wanted to look beautiful to feel good. I didn't want to attract anyone. All I can do now is give him his way, he'll leave me when he's satisfied. Close your eyes and think about beautiful things.

He pulls my slip down and throws it on the ground. My tears have drenched my pillow, I feel the wetness on my cheek when I turn my head to the side to hide my face. I don't want to see him nor do I want him to look at my face. Please end this quickly and leave!

Beautiful things… Think about beautiful things... Flowers, I love flowers. Orchids, lilacs, and cherry blossoms...

Jungkook starts fingering me and I shriek up because of how sudden he went in. My body is gaining its control back a little. I press my thighs tight together to make it difficult for him. This dude is stronger, he presses a leg against the couch and I struggle to free myself. Unfortunately, without a chance, my body is still weak and exhausted.

"Mhhm, Pocahontas, don't fight me or I need to be rough. See I'm nice to you so don't try me. Come on, relax. Why are you so stiff?" And again he pushes two fingers into me and starts thrusting.
It hurts. "Relax!" His voice is getting louder. "If you don't, it'll hurt more. I'm trying to get you wet but if you're fighting me… I swear, I'll fuck you even if you're not ready!"

"Please, stop, it hurts so much." I cry out in pain, my tears stream down and wet the pillow much more.

"That's why I told you to fucking relax!" Jungkook is screaming at me and scares me. "Look at me!" again he yells but I don't dare to look at him. "Fucking look at me!" He is getting angrier but I'm afraid. Jungkook grabs my face and turns me in his direction. "Open your Goddamn eyes, see what you did to yourself!" I'm curious and open my eyes slowly to see the dark and furious expression on his face. Then he lifts his hand just to show me that I'm bleeding. His fingers are covered in my blood.

Of course, I'm bleeding. I'm very sensitive and when my body is not ready it would react. "Please, Jungkook, just stop it here, I don't want this."

"Shut the fuck up, you fucked Jimin and Tae, WHY won't you fuck me? I know you want it. You're a dick-loving bitch. It doesn't matter WHO it is, you're a whore!" He slams my legs open but I punch his chest as hard as I can and with my other hand I cover my vagina. Jungkook tries to take my hand away so he could penetrate me. But I collect all the left energy I have to protect myself.

"Stop it!" I shout at him. This evil man makes a fist…

"You fucking little whore_"

"JEON JUNGKOOK!!!"  This voice is sent from heaven. Taehyung stands at the doorframe of my entrance. His eyes are burning and blood red I never saw him this enraged. With quick steps, he approaches us and I squeeze my eyes together. All I hear is someone being punched and I feel the weight of Jungkook being dragged away from me. It sounds like a fight on the ground but the boxing and punching sound comes soon to an end.

"LEAVE!" That's Tae's shout.

"You idiot she's a_"

"JUST FUCKING LEAVE JEON!"

"You will regret this Kim Taehyung, just wait!"

"GET OUT, before I kill you."

I hear footsteps and things being pushed into a bag. Naomi is whispering something but I can't hear it. Then the door closed and suddenly, silence. The whole time I was hiding under the blanket. Why? It's because of Tae, I'm ashamed to look at him as if I cheated on him. I'm scared that he'll turn his back away from me after the scene he saw.

The apartment is too quiet. They left all, they left me alone. All the emotions are gushing into me and I cry a silent cry under my blanket. I feel lonely, why is my friend not with me? Shouldn't she be on my side and console me? Naomi is probably upset and feels betrayed by me. I have no right to be angry at her, she just saw a short snapshot and maybe that made her believe I tried to seduce Jungkook.

That's right I'm alone in my fight, I was always a loner why should it be any different now? I have nobody to lean on, this isn't a topic to chat with my little sis. It's okay I will get better, someday, somehow, and hopefully. I take a deep breath and push the blanket away but as soon as I uncover myself my heart stops thumping for a few seconds at the view before me.

"Crystal…" His voice is thin and in his eyes is so much despair.

"Tae…" What should I say to him? I can't find any fitting words for this situation. "...I'm so sorry." is all I can say right now, my tears won't stop flowing.

"No!" Taehyung comes closer but eventually stops right in front of me. "Hey, what are you apologizing for? It's not your fault!" What did he say?

"It's not my fault?" I ask him again.

"Of course not. I shouldn't have left you alone with him. I thought he was sleeping and we would be back before he's up but… I should've stayed by your side, your condition was not stable…" he can't look at me, he is disgusted and thinks I'm dirty. He stares at the ground.

"Crystal, I'm sorry!" This was sudden and the eye contact startled me. His stare is honest and it breaks my heart to look at him so I lower my gaze to the ground. I'm still crying, I want to stop but my tears are flowing on their own

"Tae, I…he just…I…I..."

"Shhh, it's ok…" Taehyung sits next to me with his eyes on me, "is it ok for me to hug you?" His soothing sound is calming and I can't believe his question. When I look at him he already has his arms wide open and I sink into his warm hug. I inhale his scent. Funny, I feel safe in his arms, I close my arms tight around him and cry the pain out. "I'm so sorry sugar." he caresses my head slowly while holding me tight in his embrace, "I'm sorry." Again and again, Tae whispers I'm sorry over and over again into my ears.

The way he makes me feel is very different from anything I've ever felt. It's not my fault, he said. I thought he left and would never call me back but he is here with me, hugging me and comforting me. It makes no sense. Why is he still here? 

We stay this way till I calm down and my tears are dry. I let go of him and he does the same. Our eyes meet eventually, and he has a little smile on his face that makes me grin back at him. Tae takes a deep breath and asks, "Should I leave you alone, do you want me to leave?"

I immediately take his hand and without a thought about the result, I say, "Stay with me, please don't go!"

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