Lost
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"I still believe even though it's unbelievable
to lose your path
Is the way to find that path."

"Damn it, Taehyung, we need to finish those apartments in the next two weeks. The workers there are too slow. Could you please help them? They lack in working fast and qualitatively!" My boss walks up and down in front of the huge window in his office as he begs me to take on another project. 

"No prob, boss. Give me the place and I'll see what I can do." It's always the same thing. I'm known as the fastest and one of the best construction workers in this company. This isn't new or special for me anymore.

"God bless you Tae. I don't know what to do without you. You're saving my ass again and a few million dollars. We have to finish that building as soon as possible." With a sweaty clap on my shoulder, my boss hands me the information inside an envelope.

A grin appears on my face as I leave his office, knowing that if I finish this project on time I'll get a bonus paycheck. As I focus on the script for the new building, a message chimes in, it's from Crystal. She always writes a little note during her lunch break, to let me know that she's now free for about an hour. I don't know where this is going but I'm enjoying the phone calls with her.

Especially the ones at night, we would talk until we fall asleep or the other one is too tired. I have to admit that my insomnia is gone since the regular phone calls. I'm not missing the struggle to fall asleep but I ask myself why it's so easy for Crystal to distract me from the dark places I've been running from. Jennie, she hasn't been on my mind nor did I have the urge to call her in the middle of the night.

"Hey, what's up?" 

"Hi, just having my lunch.
What are you doing? Did you
 already had your meal?"

I can't remember the last time someone asked me this question. It sounds good and it makes me happy to know she's concerned about my well-being. The beautiful woman who has a dimple on her left cheek would ask me this whenever we talk on the phone.

"No, not yet, sugar. But I will
later, I promise."

"I will ask you later again!
Don't skip your meals, Sir."

A chuckle leaves my chest when I hear her cute scolding. She's different. I never had this kind of call with another woman, usually, they called for sex. I don't blame it cause I called them for the same reason. Crystal and I spent one night together and since that day we start talking every day on the phone. It's weird, but it feels so natural with her.

"Ok ok, don't worry. Crystal,
is it ok to call you later?
I'm in the middle of
a meeting for the new project."

"Oh, my_ I'm so sorry, of course.
We can talk later. I don't want
to disturb your concentration."

"Sugar, I was the one who called you,
so you're not disturbing at all.
Just wanted to hear your voice
and wish you 'bon appetite'."

"Thank you. Ok take care,
hear you later. Bye Bye."

This woman is just too adorable. Her reactions are so funny that they always make me smile from ear to ear. It's been four days since I saw her for the last time and I want to meet her again. Maybe I can meet her at the weekend. Crystal managed to make me break all the rules I had in one day.

First of all, I brought her into my apartment, which I was always against. The memories with my first love were too precious but they also lingered painfully in every corner of my home. Jennie and I spent a lot of time in my apartment. My wish was to live with her together in my home and to have kids of our own. That's all in the past.

Secondly, the interaction without using a condom. Everyone who knows me knows how I rigorously stick to my rules. My friends would mock me the whole time and laugh at me, saying it would not feel half as good without. They're right, but, when I started to have sex for fun with different women I had to set this rule for myself, for my safety. And lastly, I call her every day. I used to call someone just for sex and not to chat about how their day was.

But my mysterious girl from the tram and my sexy red-dressed woman in the club, Crystal, wrecked all my rules in a blink, and I didn't fight against it. I let it all happen. Maybe this is what I need at the moment, her presence and company. The weight I was dragging with me is getting lighter with her energy. I know, whatever is going on between Crystal and me, won't have a future but I don't want to think about something that is still distant from today. I want to enjoy the here and now.

°♡°

Today was the only day I did not have to work at the pizzeria to deliver the orders till late in the night. I currently have two jobs besides my main work as a construction worker. After I finish my tasks at my main job I usually have to hush to the next workplace as an industrial cleaner. My grandfather taught me to pay my bills on my own and learn how to live a life with my earned money. I could've asked my parents for support but that's not what my grandfather taught me. He wanted to raise me as an independent man.

I'm forever thankful that my grandparents taught me so many things. The name Kim is very well known, especially my family. My grandfather hired the business which his father created and made it big in Korea. After my father was old enough, he started to expand their business to other countries, like Japan and China. The tradition needs to go on and my big brother, Namjoon, is already working with my father and has gathered a partnership with Germany, France, and Italy.

Our business is to buy old and cheap buildings, modernize them to luxury hotels or shopping malls and sell them very expensively. That's why I decided to work as a construction worker. To perfect my know-how so I could manage all the renovation parts in our business. My little sister, Jisoo, is an interior designer and will start this year to work in Japan in our family business. Mom and my big sister, Taeyeon, are our architects. Everyone in my family is already working in Kim's estate, except for me.

My father is pressuring me and asking me whenever we talk, but I'm not ready yet. 

The steamy bathroom makes it hard to see my reflection in the mirror. A hot shower is always relaxing after a hard workday no matter if the weather is hot or cold, I need my hot shower. My last conversation with my father was more than a month ago, but that ended not too well. Our relationship is not easy, as I was raised by my grandparents. We're not like father and son, not close at all. He didn't see me growing up and doesn't know anything about me. What I like, my hobbies nor what my dreams are. Nothing.

I don't care.

A loud banging on my door jolts me up, and I cover myself with a towel while I rush to look through the loophole. I should've known that this person is the one who would knock that way on my door. What the hell does he want? 

"Did you check the time? We have 11 pm, JK!" I open the door to see my friend with a few boxes in his hands and my face changes from angry to confused.

"Chill man. My mom made too much and she wanted to send you some homemade cooked traditional Korean food." Jungkook enters and walks straight into the living room, places the plastic boxes on the couch table, and relaxes on the armchair. "It's still warm. If you're hungry you should eat it now!"

The smell of homemade food is something I can't refuse. After grabbing my shorts I sit down and start to enjoy the delicious meals. "Your mother is an angel. Thank you for sharing bro."

"Slow down, Tae." My friend says laughing "Are you in touch with Pocahontas?" His eyes don't meet mine, his focus is on the TV instead. This question is sudden and caught me off guard, to be honest. Why does he care?

"We are, yes. Why?" My stare stays on my friend, searching for answers in his facial expressions but Jungkook doesn't notice my attempt.

"Just asking." 

"JK, don't you dare to fucking kidding me. You're not just asking for no reason. Spit the case, what do you want?" I know this man too well, something is fishy, and I'll find out.

"Well, Naomi was asking if we could meet this Saturday night?" Finally, his eyes meet mine.

"And what does that have to do with me or Crystal?"

"I thought we could make a date of four? You know what I mean, right?" Jungkook's grin is not to my liking for some reason. We used to enjoy having fun with two or more girls at the same time. That was the wildest stage of my single life at the beginning where I tried to erase the pain with sex. A lot of sex. Almost every weekend my friends, mostly Jungkook, Jimin, and I hooked up with different women, we also shared them and would change partners. 

Watching others have sex while having sex at the same time was exciting and a very huge turn-on.

"Crystal is kinda hot and it would be interesting to switch partners. We didn't do that for a while." Jungkook adds.

Him, mentioning her name wakes a weird feeling inside me. I'm not pleased, almost pissed but I don't understand why. "JK, I don't know? What if she doesn't want to? Or did you ask Naomi if she's ok with this?"

"I'm sure Nao will like it. She's a vamp, she's wild and hungry for experiments like this. Trust me, you will enjoy her too." A shiver of disgust crawls through my veins. Why am I like this? I would've liked the idea of it a year ago but I stopped a while ago to do that. The women we slept with and had this adventure were all open-minded and enjoyed just having sex. But as for Crystal, she's different. That woman is hurt and I don't think she's ready for things like a foursome, maybe she is?

But something inside me is screaming, NO.

"Just let me lead the mood and everything will be just fine. You'll see, Naomi will be screaming your name, and Pocahontas, my." 

 Oh boy...
I'm excited to release the next chapter. I would love you see your faces 😳🤭

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