"Good morning sunshine. I hope you slept well and dreamed about me. If you ask me, I had a very hot dream about you."

A huge smile appears on my face when I see the message from Yoongi after a shower to cool myself down. Indeed I dreamed about him.

It's been a month since we started writing to each other daily, we even call every night to talk about how our day was. Although I already know Yoongi, somehow it's different. We're learning new things from each other and it's very fresh and I get a tingling feeling whenever we talk or write.

The butterflies in my stomach are slowly awakening again. Yoongi showed me another side of him. A side I never knew he had, and I like this Yoongi. He takes more attention to what I say or do. They're little things but have a huge effect on me and it leaves a positive impact.

Spring is nearing its end, announced by the temperature that summer is arriving but the trees are newly blooming for our old love and awakening all that had been in hibernation for a long period, longer than winter would usually take.

We're not together yet. I still need time but I want to approach him step by step. But I was thinking of giving us another chance. The way he behaves shows me that he is willing to make things right.

"I'm now on my way to work, are you at the restaurant later?"

Sitting in the tram I finally reply to his message, expecting no response but I'm surprised when my phone vibrates not even a minute after I sent the text.

"Answer me first, did you dream about me?" This man...really?

"Why is that important? But to answer your question, yes I dreamed about you! Happy?"

"Very happy. I bet I did you hard that you screamed in your sleep."

The heat on my face should be visible to everyone in this tram by now, even the one sitting on the farthest seat away from me can see how flustered I am from Yoongi's text. This man manages to get me excited about him just by a naughty message.

"No comment, a lady enjoys and is quiet."

"Oh baby, you know I love it when you're loud and by the way, you can't handle being quiet when I'm inside of you. When I fuck you senseless in all possible positions."

I must've bitten my lips so hard that I didn't recognize the pain until I tasted my own blood while reading this. He's killing me.

"Yoongi, please stop! I'm on the tram!"

"I swear the time when we're going to be one again, I'll make sure you'll scream at me begging to stop fucking you, believe me, I won't! But to answer your question, I'm not at the restaurant today. I have research to do at the library for my project. I'll be home late but I'll immediately call you."

The imagination in my head is taking over me but I manage to shake them off when I finally reach the station where I have to get off for work.

"Ok, call me later. Have a nice day. Don't be too dirty-minded."

"I'll call you. What am I supposed to do? You're in my head 24/7 so it's dirty, sweet, and sexy. How about facetime later? You know I loved that tiny little black lingerie on your tender skin. ;p "

A smirk decorates my face. The thought of a dirty call through facetime is very arousing and has been on my want to try list.

I love this, I like how we can talk to each other freely without filter. The excitement of seeing him tonight is tickling parts of my body. I need to stay calm.

~•~

"Stop it! I'll get a wrong impression of you if you'll grin that way the whole day." Unique windshield laughter sounds right behind me and that's when I noticed that I already entered the office of Jin-Fashion.

"Why, Mr. Kim? What's wrong with my grin?"

"Well, I think you're an innocent baby deer, my Bambi, but when I see that grin on your face, it makes me believe that I had no idea about you and you're indeed a mysterious human being." My boss watches me preparing myself for work with confusion on his ethereal face.

"A baby deer ? That's so cute Mr. Kim. I'm honored if you see me that way."

"Oh come on Crystal, quit that Mr. Kim. I told you to feel comfortable and call me just Jin! I guess I need to think about punishments for the next time you call me Mr. Kim!" He hands me the to-do list for today's schedule with a playful grin on his juicy plump lips.

"What punishment do you have in your mind? I may like it, Jin." I softly whisper in his ear while standing right behind his stool and leaning my face as close to his ear as possible, making sure every breath I blow hits him. The urgency to prank him took over me and his facial expression is worth it.

His flustered face is something I never saw on a man. I didn't know that my act had this effect on someone. Never thought I would manage such a result but I'm liking it. It boosts my self-esteem although it was a joke.

"You are definitely NOT as innocent as I thought you were!" The flustered man says with a shaky voice when I exit his office giggling as if I'm a little girl but before I'm completely off his room I couldn't hold myself back. I stop at the door, looking back at him and our eyes meet. My boss is waiting patiently for actions but I stay still and just gaze deeply into his dark globes.

When I sense he's getting more and more confused, a dirty smirk on my lips appears "I never said that I'm innocent." His eyes double in size and I close the door, winking at him. I'm happy about the result of my actions.

It's not usual for me to be flirty. Being shy and quiet would describe my character more but the time as a single showed me that I should crawl out of my shell and be more confident about myself and my appearance. Now that I've taken more and more notice of how I affect the other sex, just by passing them by, made me realize that I certainly attract a few I never thought I would.

There is no need to hide, I'm beautiful to some humans out there and they make me feel even more beautiful when they look at me with those eyes I'd look at someone I find gorgeous.

We got a new delivery, quite a lot. Summer is nearing and the new collection is all about colorful and thin material. My colleague, Naomi, and I have to apply them to the stands, moreover, I have to create the presentation of the outfits. Jin gave me the position of his right hand which I take very seriously.

Yes, I have fun working here with my handsome boss and Naomi, who is turning into a friend outside of work as well. But everything at Jin-Fashion is work and I take it as very important to stay professional to not disappoint or to embarrass Jin, my fairy prince, in any way.

"Hey, Ris, there is a grand opening for a new nightclub this weekend, how about having fun?" Naomi asks me as we change the mannequins. She knows my story with Yoongi, not in detail but she knows we're getting closer again. Her slogan is once broken, always broken, and, a cheater will always be a cheater, my friend doesn't believe that a person can change.

But I do. And I'm willing to give him another chance. I want a new chapter.

"Naomi, I'm not sure. I want to surprise Yoongi tonight, and I don't know how far we'll go..." The shock is painted on her face when I confess my feelings. Her emerald big eyes don't lose focus on me. She's blinking a few times with her enormous long lashes, which I'm very envious of.

"Ris, nooo! Don't tell me you want him back? Do you really want a dick that was almost inside every woman's pussy?" I gulp my saliva at her statement, it hurts to hear the fact but she just said the naked truth.

"Don't say it like that. I was and still am a believer in positivity in humans. Everyone is able to change if they want to." Even though it sounded untrue, I truly think that a person can change if they work hard on themselves. And Yoongi is one of them.

I believe in you Min Yoongi.

"Eew, Nao, don't you think almost every woman is an exaggeration? I mean he must've dug his dingeling in billions of different ladies! That's impossible."

Naomi and I shriek up at the sudden comment from Jin, our boss, who's standing right behind us. He definitely heard our conversation and I want the floor to crack open and bury myself deep inside, that's how embarrassed I am.

My colleague, Naomi, starts to giggle about Jin's statement. "Oh boss, I didn't mean that literally, it's just a saying for a male whore." She shrugs her shoulders at Jin while walking away to take the equipment.

The last sentence makes me angry and I don't like how she called Yoongi a whore. My jaw is tense, that's what happens when I want to say something but swallow it to prevent an argument.

How can she call him that? She doesn't even know Yoongi! I told her that he cheated on me but I didn't tell her how many women he slept with, even though I don't know, so why does she have the guts to insult him? I want to clear this but it's unnecessary to start a discussion about this, so I'll stay quiet.

"It's nothing wrong to believe in positivity, my not-so-innocent bambi!" The gentle touch on my right shoulder relaxed my tense body instantly and I let a sigh out. He is indeed a fairy prince. Jin gives me a sincere smile and melts my heart with the warmth in his voice and touch. I dearly try to hold a tear from crawling out of my eyes and immediately tilt my head to the other side so Jin can't see how much his sentence meant to me.

"Thank you." I simply respond.

~•~

Workdays like today are the best. The time went by very fast because we got the new summer collection, so we had a handful to do. After I finished work I went to the supermarket to buy a few things for tonight. I want to surprise Yoongi with dinner and hope I'm able to cook properly bust most the important, it to be tasty. I'm not the best cook but I'll try.

Yoongi never asked me for the key to his apartment to give it back to him. I wanted to return the key as soon as I moved out but forgot it and he never pressured me and would always tell me to keep them for emergencies. So I think this is kind of an emergency. I hope he'll like it.

The first step inside his apartment felt weird and woke memories which I immediately shook off, I don't want negative vibes tonight. It smells like Yoongi and nothing has changed after I left, besides my stuff isn't here anymore but everything stayed the same as it was.

A chuckle escaped my mouth when I entered the kitchen, it's too clean. Showed me that Yoongi rarely cooked, knowing him, he must've eaten outside. It's like I was never away and a part inside of me is happy about the fact that he never replaced the things we bought together. After I prepared dinner and set the table with decorations and a few candles I decided to take a quick shower.

The shower was short and now I'm getting nervous. How would he react? I'm excited to see him and I even bought lingerie. This man teased me enough the last few weeks and the attraction grew bigger and bigger. It's a miracle that we manage to keep our pants on whenever we meet.

Well, that's why I always decided to meet up at a public place just to prevent our hormones from taking over the situation. That's not what I wanted even if my pants were soaked after the dates and my libido scolded me for not giving in. Thank God for the person who made sex toys.

I'm wearing a short red dress which shows a little of my cleavage. The fabric is smooth and hugs my curves perfectly. My red high heels are the cherry on top and looking at myself in the mirror lights my eyes up. I never wore these kinds of clothes, I didn't have the confidence thinking I was too fat.

I don't care anymore, as long as I'm comfortable. And I feel sexy in this short dress with my wavy long black hair down and red lipstick.

I'm ready.

It's 8 pm by now and I'm still waiting for the man I'm so excited about. My imaginations play crazy scenes in my head, I'm horny and I need to calm down! The anticipation for the man I crave for grows by every minute. This feels like a first date, I can't wait any longer.

The more minutes past the more insecure I get. Am I doing the right thing? No, I know I can trust Yoongi now, he changed! He did right? I hate this feeling, my heart and mind are at war again, fighting for the truth. I can't stop myself from getting more and more nervous.

The sound of the door being opened is audible and I feel my heartbeat in my throat. I'm sitting in the dark kitchen only lit by the candles and waiting for Yoongi to appear. He probably is in his bedroom to change clothes first, that's what he always does. I wait five minutes and there is no stepping sound.

Should I surprise him in the bedroom? But that would be too dangerous, it could be too fast to give him myself. Crystal, just wait another five minutes! A strange sound is to hear, and I slowly step out from the kitchen. As I walk through the tiny corridor to reach Yoongi's bedroom, the weird sound is more present, and then it hits me.

I'm still in a situation where my heart says something else than my brain. Deep inside I'm praying that my mind is wrong but the more I approach the bedroom the clearer is the sound of something I'm afraid of seeing. The lights are on and the door is half-open. I'm just one step away from standing in front of the room to have a vision of the current situation.

My heart cracks from the scene I'm confronted with. Yoongi sits on the edge of his bed and is ball deep in a woman's mouth. He's holding her hair in a ponytail and is roughly mouth-fucking her. The woman struggles to keep her pace as Yoongi pushes her head at an animalistic speed. The sound of her gagging fills the room and heavy breathing from the man who broke me, again.

I didn't wish for this scene. My body feels numb. Why did I ever think he changed? Again, he's breaking my heart in thousands of pieces. Naomi was right, a cheater always a cheater!

"Ah fuck, Crys, yes" Yoongi puffs out and releases the woman to let her breathe for a second.

She wipes her mouth clean and looks at him confused, "Who is Crys? I'm Carla!"

"I am Crys!"

The shock is painted on Yoongi's face when he pushes his dick back in his pants. "Crys, what_" His eyes are apologetic when he approaches me but I turn around walking to the kitchen to grab my bag to leave this damned place but before I can leave the kitchen he grabs my elbow and turns me around to face him.

I feel nothing looking at him. He killed all emotions inside of me and truthfully, he is not worth it to see me broken again. I was already there, i won't repeat that!

His eyes are teary and the guilt inside them is killing him, I can tell by his looks. "Crys, did you do__ all this?" He points to the table with the candles and my homemade cooked dinner. I just simply nod emotionless. I was there, in the darkest place of this abyss he pushed me in, I'm not willing to crash that deep again.

"You..you look so stunning and sexy, and I..." His voice is hoarse and it breaks whenever he says a word. Yoongi's mind is blank because he can't defend himself, the scene minutes ago was enough proof. Enough to teach me that he didn't change a bit and that I'm still not good enough for him to give all those sex adventures with other women up.

"Yeah, you fucked up Yoongi!" I pull the key out of my bag and throw it onto the floor. His eyes follow the crashing sound. "Don't ever contact me again, delete my number and live your life!"

The pleading look in his eyes disgusts me and I want to punch his face. How could I think he changed? I almost made the wrong turn, again. This Min Yoongi will never change! It's sad but I need to close this book and move on. Somewhere out there is my future and not here.

Yoongi falls on his knees and holds my hand tight in his grip. The defeated man's sobbing and begging sounds muffled "C..Crys please...I_I love you..." He doesn't even dare to look at me, that's how broken he is but he is nothing to me now. This man in front of me is not the man I deserve.

I deserve much better! I need to save myself. I'm the one who should love myself the most cause I'm worthy!

"Thank you for taking my place in makin the decision! I was already unsure if I should give us another chance but you just showed me the right way. Farewell Min Yoongi!" With that said I wiggle my hand out of his grip and walk to exit my past, my first love, leaving all behind with an ending I never wanted or wished for but it's my destiny.

The fresh air hits me and I inhale the freedom I gained from this experience. My heart is aching and bleeding but it will heal someday. I will be stronger, for sure. Now it's time for Crystal, it's time to explore new things to see and learn new people. I'm excited about what the future holds for me. Taking my phone out I type a message to begin my new book into the unknown.

"Where did you say the grand opening was again?"

The End.

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