"Someone's sleepy"he said laughing I jumped into a huge hug as tears rolled down my face "what's wrong" he questioned I didn't answer just hugged then when I thought I hugged for long enough I let go and walked up to colbys room I nocked then entered when I herd "COME IN"

"Hi what's up"he asked I still said nothing but gave a bear hug and we watched Netflix together and laughed away the pain until a s€x scene came on he quickly turned it off as I ran out of there and into a bathroom
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I looked at the mirror disgusted at what stared back at me I grabbed a bl@de and scraped against my skin until there was blood oozing out of my ugly and pathetic wrists*nock,nock* "Please let us in,We can help you" I heard Colby say I flushed the toilet to make it sound like I wasn't sh then I reached into the medical bag and got some bandages out wrapped it round my wrist put the medical bag back then washed the bl@de and put it behind a picture frame
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"PLEASE LET US IN" I heard Colby shout through the door I took a deep breath and unlocked the door they -Sam and Colby- both squeezed the air out of me "don't do that please we were worried" Sam said holding back tears "sorry"I whispered tears rolling down my face

"Let's go eat Taco Bell"Colby said Sam agreed and I just nodded we got in the car and I just looked out the window the whole time the thought of last night racing through my mind tears forming I wiped them away quickly to not be seen by anyone

It took me by surprise when we arrived at the mall is Taco Bell in there "we'll be back soon kid" Sam said they both got out the car and left me..all..by..my..self they abandoned me why.Am I that annoying,do I bother them to much or is it the sh or the muteness

They came back a few minutes later "we got outfits and food"Colby said with a big smile I gave a huge smile back they didn't abandon me and I loved the outfits but there was one item I couldn't stop smiling at how did they know,why did they buy it for me

I'm not being ungrateful I'm just so happy it it's a BINDER yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay but that only means one thing they support me???? But why I'm just a freak who was born in the wrong f***ing body and I definitely don't fit in why would I and how would I