| Ghost's POV |

"Dev," I faintly heard Ryan. "Devin, wake up."

I groaned a bit. Then I woke up all at once and sat up frantically. "Where's Bella?"

"She's in the kitchen, eating her Fruit Loops." He snickered. Ryan sat down on the couch as I sat up more straight, rubbing my head. "You need a break."

"I'm fine." I replied.

"Why'd you fall asleep on the couch last night?" He asked.

I sighed, lowering my voice. "I've been texting and calling Shiloh ever since we got here. He was completely ignoring my begging. Finally I saw he actually read one of my texts. I know it's stupid but it gave me hope. So after I put Bella to bed, I stayed up hoping he'd call or something."

"Did he?"

I grabbed my phone off the coffee table, seeing texts and missed calls from everyone in my contact book except Shiloh. I sighed as I set my phone back down, and raised my hands to my temples. Then I broke out of depressed husband mode, and back into happy daddy as Bella walked back over to the couch.

"Morning dada." She cheerfully said as she got up on the couch.

I hugged her, faking a smile. "Good morning, Babygirl. Sleep well?"

"Yep!" She replied.

"Good." I told her. "What do you want to do today?"

"Don't answer that!" Ryan quickly interjected. "Because I've already got the answer. Chris and I are going to take her to the state fair. It's in town. You are going to stay here and rest. Ricky is coming over to make sure you do."

"You had this all planned out before I woke up, didn't you?" I asked.

"Duh." Ryan scoffed.

I huffed. "Just, watch her like a hawk. No sugar, and make sure you take her somewhere decent for lunch. None of that terrible fair food. Call me if anything goes wrong."

"C'mon! You know you can trust Chris and I!"

"Ryan." I sighed.

He chuckled, just as there was a knock at the door. "I promise. Come on, munchkin!"

Ryan opened his arms to her, and she jumped at him. He picked her up, carrying her to the door with him. Then he let Ricky and Chris into the apartment. I stood up and watched over to Ryan to say goodbye to Bella.

"I love you, be safe." I kissed the top of her head.

She wiped off my kiss, giggling. "I love you, daddy!"

My little girl is just precious. I loved her more than anything. Even as much as I love Shiloh, my child comes before anything. Chris and Ryan said goodbye, leaving just Ricky and I.

"How are you doing?" He asked, probably reflecting on my breakdown last night.

"I'm trying to hold it together for Bella."

Ricky went to the fridge, grabbing a soda. "Are how is that working out for you?"

"I'm barely getting through. My child is turning five soon, and she's only got one parent!" I stressed. "And she got stuck with the sucky one. Shiloh is the famous artist that makes all the money. I'm just some stupid bassist."

"You're not stupid." Ricky replied. "And Bella loves you. That has to count for something."

"It means the world. She means the world to me, and I'd do anything for her. I just want her life to be as normal as it can be, living with gay parents, one being a touring musician."

"And this isn't helping." He stated obviously. "Okay. New plan. We're going to marathon movies all day in bed like we used to before you had a kid and a husband and I had a boyfriend with an abstinence problem!"

"Abstinence problem?" I questioned.

"Chris is in a bit of a... funk, right now. He doesn't know how to deal with it, but he doesn't want to have sex when he doesn't feel himself. We haven't fucked in almost two months. It's killing me."

I chuckled. "To be honest, I haven't even thought about sex. But now that I do, I don't think Shiloh and I had slept together for like three months before he left. So it's been about four for me."

"How are you not going stir crazy?" Ricky asked. Well obviously he was going insane.

I shrugged. "I've been too busy taking care of Bella."

"I've been too busy taking care of Chris to do anything. We both need a break, and that's what we're doing today!"