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No reading infront of parents namaha 

While traveling and reading this chapter, mask-uh mukkiyam bigil-uh 

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Rudhran

I'm not sure if I am becoming bad by doing this.

Tina's finger tucked my hair, caressed my neck and moved down picking at my shirt and pulling it up. We broke our kiss when she pulled my shirt over my head and threw it away. She kissed my neck and down my chest and ran her hands up my bare torso, passing millions of electric bolts through my body with her fingers and lips.

I jolted out of the spell and pulled back. She let out a low whimper and I made a decision before kissing her again. My body and hands trembled as I made my next move. She is an adult and my wife and I have the rights to do anything with her but only when she is sober and willing.

But to help her you have only one way.

I kissed her cheeks and ran my lips up until her ears and whispered. "Let's play a game. Remove your undergarments without removing your dress."

I placed my hands against the wall behind her and stayed in the same position without moving back. I kept my eyes closed and breathed against her neck, promising her I won't leave her. Her hands left my body and after a couple of seconds I felt two pieces of clothings fall on my feet one after the other.

I held her thighs and lifted her off the floor. She wrapped her hands around my neck and legs around my waist. I carried her to the vanity counter and lowered her on it. She pulled me closer to her trying to kiss me and I kissed her for the last time. I wrapped my hands around her, searched for the zipper of her dress and pulled it down.

Tina held my shoulders tight, digging her nails into my skin. I lowered her hands and slowly removed the straps down her shoulders. My hands trembled and my eyes shut tightly. The dress dropped to her waist and I didn't pull back, afraid that I could see something without her permission.

I searched for the towel on the vanity counter and Tina pulled me hard against her, crushing our bare torsos together. The entire air in my lungs was blown out and my body started to react. Her hard pebbles rubbing against my chest and her lips sucking on my neck were tempting me to give her what she needs but she doesn't deserve this. She deserves to know what's happening to her body and around her.

I finally reached the towel and grabbed it. I wrapped it around her body and tied the edges in a tight knot around her neck. I pulled back, breathing hard and finally opening my eyes to look at her. She was panting hard but her eyes were hooded and laced with shyness. I held her waist and lowered her on the floor.

"Let's take it to the bed." I whispered against her ears and tugged at her dress peeking out the towel. It dropped to the floor and I grabbed the bathrobe, tying it tight around her body. With her body completely covered by the towel and bathrobe, I finally let out a relieved sigh that burned through my chest.

I should never let her drink again in this life.

Tina started playing with the freely hanging sleeves of the bathrobe as I wrapped it from under her shoulder. She looked up at me and opened her mouth to ask me something but her eyes travelled down my bare torso. She turned red with coyness and held the sleeves against her lips. Using the chance, I carried her in my arms and she locked her hand around my neck, looking at me dreamily. I carried her to our bed and lowered her on it.

She yet again tried to pull me down for a kiss but I kissed her cheeks. "I'll be back in a minute." She let out a giggle and I rushed back into the closet, hiding myself from her view. I waited for a while and sneaked a peak at her.

Tina was looking at the ceiling with a pout and slowly her eyes dropped to sleep. I slowly stepped towards her and covered her with the blanket before walking back to the bathroom. I closed the door and leaned against it, sliding down to the floor with my head in my hands.

I shouldn't have dragged it so far. Will she forgive me if she remembers everything in the morning?

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Thooriga

He hasn't returned all night.

I sat up on the bed struggling as my limbs hurt from lying in the same position. I rubbed my arms and looked at the cold side of the bed. After I literally kicked Raj out of the room he didn't return back. It wasn't intentional, I kicked in the air but my feet contacted his calf. His face was in complete shock and hurt but I knew that my words hurt him more than my kick.

When Raj introduced Akshya, the name immediately clicked in my mind and I recognised that she was Rudhran Chitha and Raj's ex. She betrayed Chitha and Raj had no other way to prove her to Chitha than by using himself. I hated her for both and now she proudly introduced them to her husband as college buddies.

I wanted to pull her hair and punch her face but controlled myself in front of her husband. But I lost it when Raj introduced me to her as the Heiress and Rudhran chitha's niece and when she kissed him on his cheeks. I knew it was just a peck but he should have stopped her before her lips touched his cheeks. I wanted to vent out my anger but controlled myself and left the nightclub.

I knew that he cannot be mistaken. He turned into a playboy by situation and for what he had gone through, staying as a man who never hurts a woman was the greatest thing. I knew that his past might haunt us forever but I accepted it. I accepted everything only because he is incomplete without his past and flaws.

All I wanted was some alone time to calm down but he didn't give that to me. He kept nagging me to listen and without any other way to vent out the anger, I started throwing things at him and confronted him. There is a fucking eternity for him to explain but he wants to explain then. I tried to cry out my anger but he didn't leave me alone.

Why can't he just understand that he deserves love?

Whenever he asks me to rethink whether I want him, it hurts me. I have decided that I want him way long back. But he is still unsure and insecure of my love. I really don't know whether I'm giving him the love he needs or what I should do to gain his trust that I love him on whole despite the small hurts.

There is no relationship without getting hurt. Unless the person we love hurt us, one can face any type of hurt with the loved one by our side. But here Raj always feels insecure about our relationship and fears that I might leave him for a single hurt caused by someone else or his past.

I won't get tired of expressing my love or assuring him but he should understand the pain that I go through whenever he asks me to rethink our relationship. That's why, I said that I made a mistake of not thinking about our relationship to show him how it hurts but regretted immediately. But I wasn't expecting the accidental kick and I don't know why I stopped myself from checking on him.

I got up from the bed and went to check on him in the living room. But he was nowhere in the suite. I returned to mine not wanting to disturb Saby and Tanya. I checked our bathroom but he was not there either. I closed the door and finished my morning routine. I wanted to take a shower but the big Jacuzzi bathtub facing the balcony looked calm and pleasing.

Though the bathroom is compact, it looked luxurious with a vanity counter and a toilet stall on one side, shower stall on the other side and a Jacuzzi bathtub which can accommodate two at a time in the end of the bathroom. There is a one way mirror opposite the bathtub, looking out at the balcony view while relaxing in the bathtub and there is a door from the bedroom to open into the balcony.

I stripped out of my dress and went and sat in the bathtub. I leaned back and rested my head against the headrest. The water was warm and soothing as if prepared for a bath. I opened my eyes to look out at the balcony and the great view behind it but found Raj in the private swimming pool.

Shit! I didn't check for him on the balcony.

(Besharam Rang from Pathaan)

(En Esta Noche

La Vida Es Completa

En Este Segundo

La Vida Es Muy Rica)

Raj stopped swimming and stood in the middle of the pool. For his height and the shallowness of the pool, his swim trunks clad body above his thighs were visible. He shook the water off his hair and the droplets flew everywhere around him. He raised his hands from the water and pushed his hair back, letting the water cascade down his body.

(En Esta Noche

La Vida Es Completa

En Este Segundo

La Vida Es Muy Rica)

I swallowed hard and bit my lips as my girly parts woke up for him. But I tried to calm them down as he was doing it unintentionally without realising that I'm here and watching him. The droplets slid down the ridges of his pectoral muscles and abs, shining as the sunlight fell on him.

(Humein Toh Loot Liya Milke

Ishq Walon Ne

Bahut Hi Tang Kiya Ab Tak

Inn Khayalon Ne)

I curled my toes and balled my fist, controlling my nerve endings. Raj swam towards the balcony door and I moved to the opposite corner of the bathtub to watch him. He held the edges of the pool and pushed himself up the pool. He placed his left leg on the floor but visibly winced when he raised his right leg.

(Nasha Chadha Jo Shareefi Ka

Utaar Phenka Hai

Besharam Rang Kahan Dekha

Duniya Walon Ne)

I pouted looking down as he was in pain because of me. I peeked again but couldn't see him from the angle. I heard the balcony door open and leaned back to my side. A while later he knocked on the bathroom door.

(Humein Toh Loot Liya Milke

Ishq Walon Ne

Bahut Hi Tang Kiya Ab Tak

Inn Khayalon Ne)

I debated whether to reply or not but he opened the door. I almost jumped and covered my body as if he hadn't seen me naked before. He rolled his eyes and entered the bathroom, sliding the door behind him.

(Nasha Chadha Jo Shareefi Ka

Utaar Phenka Hai

Besharam Rang Kahan Dekha

Duniya Walon Ne)

He took the towel around his neck and placed it on the vanity counter before dropping his swim trunks and throwing it in the wet basket. He walked towards me with a slight limp but his magnificent body hid the limping. I pulled my legs against my chest covering my hard nipples.

I sat blank, unable to decide what to do next. Since I returned, I have paraded naked in front of him but this seemed more edgy. He entered the shower stall and turned the knob, letting the water cascade down his body. He didn't stop by that but turned away from the wall and towards me and rinsed the chlorine out his body and hair.

(Mujhmein Nayi Baat Hai

Nayi Aadaton Ke Saath Hai

Mujhmein Nayi Baat Hai

Nayi Aadaton Ke Saath Hai)

He is doing it on purpose and it's very hard... to maintain a straight face.

I collected all my courage and looked up at his face. Locking my eyes with him, I gave him an annoyed smirk before looking away and resting my left cheek on my knees.

(Hai Jo Sahi

Woh Karda Nahi

Galat Hone Ki

Yahi Toh Shuruaat Hai)

He wore a blazer without shirt, he flirted with the waitress calling her Kitty, he introduced as if I have no connection to him, he let that woman kiss his cheeks and above all he made a comment about asking me to rethink our relationship.

(En Esta Noche

La Vida Es Completa

En Este Segundo

La Vida Es Muy Rica)

Unless he apologises to me, I'm not apologising to him for saying it's a mistake that I didn't rethink and kicking him.

I heard the shower stop and the stall door open. A couple of seconds later he got into the tub and I looked at him.

(Nasha Chadha Jo Shareefi Ka

Utaar Phenka Hai

Besharam Rang Kahan Dekha

Duniya Walon Ne)

Raj sat opposite me, resting his head on the headrest and leaning behind. He spread his hand around the edges of the tub and looked at me like a regal king. He beckoned me towards him but I glared at him.

(Humein Toh Loot Liya Milke

Ishq Walon Ne

Bahut Hi Tang Kiya Ab Tak

Inn Khayalon Ne)

I stood up to leave but stopped hearing him. "One of our convoys was blown up last afternoon."

"What?" I sat back but kept my knees close towards me.

"When we were on air, around 1330 hours one of your convoys was blown up and I received the tip yesterday morning when you went to take a bath. But I changed the plans on Monday night and the arrangements were the one of the reasons for me returning late." He kept his eyes locked at me and my anger boiled up inside me.

(En Esta Noche

La Vida

Ishq Walon Ne

Es Completa)

"So, because of this you were worried throughout the flight journey and later?" He nodded and I hit the water in anger. "But you didn't tell me."

"I received a morse code with words CAR and BOMB in it. So, I thought it was only the bomb in the car but..." He paused and looked at me taking a deep breath.

(Humein Toh Loot Liya Milke

Ishq Walon Ne)

"Akshaya whispered the word BOOM mimicking the sound of the bomb blast before ki..." I raised my hand and he stopped immediately.

(En Esta Noche

La Vida

Ishq Walon Ne

Es Completa)

"Was this all done by the conspirator?" He nodded. "But you won't tell me who it is?"

"I'm not sure the motive and everyone included in it." I stood up to leave but he held my hand and pulled me down against him.

(...)

I fell on his lap and in anger I started hitting him. He tried to hold my hands and stop me but a cry broke out from me.

I stopped hitting him and moved back from him, sitting on the floor of the tub. "Papa." He moved closer to me and hugged me but I pushed him away.

"Did you know how worried I was for you since hearing you punching something in your flight cabin yesterday?"

"Papa, I'm sorry. I wanted to protect you. This is almost like a Dharma Yud and we don't know who all are on the other side." He pulled me against his lap and rocked me like he always does.

"One day, this keeping-things-away-from-me habit of yours is going to blow up big." I tried to push his hands away but he held me tight.

"I know that you would trust me even then."

"It's better for you to not talk about trust." He pulled back and looked confused at me. "You never trusted me."

"Papa, I trust you."

"If you trust me then why are you always insecure about me thinking that I will run away from you the moment someone from your past steps in." I turned in his lap and straddled him.

He dropped his head. "I'm sorry." He hugged me, burying his face in my chest. "Did you know how hurtful it was when you said that you made a mistake by not rethinking?"

"I'm sorry." I hugged his head. "But I said that to show you how much it hurts me whenever you say that you don't deserve my love."

"Because it hurts when you look at me with disappointment in your eyes." He pulled back and looked at my face. "I rejoice the happiness in your eyes. I cherish the love in your eyes. And I can handle anger in your eyes. But I can never live with disappointment and hurt in your eyes. Our relatives have seen me with disappointment in their eyes but it never bothered me. But if you look at me with those emotions, it feels like thousands of knives are stalking my heart." His voice strained and I hugged him tight against my chest.

"I'm so sorry, Mama." I kissed the top of his head. "I didn't know that it seemed like disappointment to you but it was purely anger. Maybe some hurt but I can never look at you with disappointment. If I ever look at you with disappointment that would be my last..." He kissed me without letting me complete my words.

I kissed him back and it felt like the soul that left my body returned to me.

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