Thooriga

What the hell is wrong with my mouth today?

Earlier, I questioned Rudhran Chitha and hit his sour spot and now I questioned Raj and made him go through the traumatic memory. I should have listened to him when he asked me to leave the topic.

~~Traumatic mature content ahead~~

Even though it was his older cousin, I didn't think it would be something traumatic when he started, "She was talented and good at teaching but she was not good with me. I used to sleep along with her but her hands used to end up on my crotch every morning. Also she used to let her half saree fall and show her cleavage. Initially, I used to brush it off thinking it's an accidental touch. But one day when I returned home early as my school announced a half a day leave, I found her naked and fucking her boyfriend. I was about to leave the house, closing the door. But she pulled me into her room and asked me not to say it to my uncle and aunty. I agreed but she and her boyfriend were not convinced. He said that I will not say only if I was involved in it and held me. I struggled hard but I was lean and weak back then and he was stronger than me."

Raj's body shudders and I tighten my hold on him, trying to give him strength to continue. "She unzipped my pants and took me in her hands, stroking me. It hurt as it was a forced arousal and when I was hard she took me in her mouth. Then she lied down and he made me fuck her. That bastard didn't stop with it, he... he fucked me and to stop me from screaming in pain she kissed me," he banged his hand hard against the bed, repeatedly and I covered his hand with mine for him to stop.

I felt a wetness sweeping through my top when he spoke and it broke my heart. No teenager should have gone through with what he had gone through. Tears started flowing through my eyes and I tried not to make a sound or let my body shudder.

I should be his strength not his weakness. He was talking intellectually and making fun but I made him cry by asking questions and making him go through his memory lane. Though Raj looks strong externally, he is very soft and broken internally.

"You didn't say it to anyone?" I tried speaking boldly with him but my voice came out as a broken whisper.

He shook his head, "I was afraid, she said if I tell anyone, she will say that I had raped her. After that I never stayed home alone without my uncle and aunty. Some nights she used to order me to fuck her and I did. When I returned to the Estate during half yearly holidays. I started to hang out with girls of my age to erase that memory. In fact dad saw me once but he thought it was my teenage hormones and advised me to be careful and always use safety. The only good thing my cousin did was she always used condoms. Still I secretly got myself tested for STDs. Thankfully, I didn't get through MBBS entrance but passed Engineering entrance and got a seat in Coimbatore, leaving Ooty. If I had gotten through the medical entrance, my dad would have gotten a seat in the same college as my cousin with Thooran sir's influence and I would have made to live in her house."

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"That's why you never came back for holidays?" I ask him and he nods. I just had a vague memory of playing with him as a little girl. I was eleven when he returned after his MBA and it was an instant crush for me.

But how lonely and scared he must have felt back then? He was unable to share this with anyone. Though I questioned him between his talks, I'm still feeling blank to process it.

I wish I could go back to those days and throw a tantrum as a child to stop his father from sending him away. I wish I was older enough for him to share about it then itself. I wish I could have locked him away in a room safe and kept him away from that darkness.

I feel his body relaxing and his breath gets even. I hug him tight and kiss on his head. I just wish he would feel free after pouring out everything to me. Why god, he had to go through all this? But I'm there for him now and I will give him all the love he deserves without leaving him, ever.

Raj is protecting me with his life without expecting anything from me. He wanted me to forget my crush for him and find some other. If my feelings hadn't been so strong for him, it might have happened too. I might have changed into a different person who could have seen him as a normal employee. Still he spent all his earnings for me to keep my location a secret.

Though I'll somehow make him agree to get reimbursed but the efforts and pressure he had gone through in keeping me safe, can never be repaid by anything but love. Love is not a business to exchange it for anything but Love is a medicine which can heal any wound.

I'll be his medicine.

I cocoon him in my embrace and close my eyes to sleep as we have to be in the court.

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A loud ringing sound followed by a metal clattering sound wakes me up and I open my eyes to find Raj searching for his mobile and turning off the alarm, once he finds it.

"Enna time aguthu?" I ask him as I yawn and stretch my limbs. (What's the time?)

"Nee innum pogalaya?" His question startles me and I sit up. (You didn't go yet?)

"Ennai enna unnoda one night stand nu nenacha ah? Kalila nee ezhuthu kurathuku munnadi odi poga?" I cross my arms against my chest angrily looking somewhere else but him. (Am I your one night stand to leave before you wake up?)

"Nee innum pogala." His hands shiver as he cups my face and understanding dawns on me when I see sheen of water covering his eyes. (You didn't go!)

"Unna vittu poga thaan paatu varusham kazhichu unakkaga thirumbi vanthen ah?" He captures my lips with a deep soulful kiss. (Did I return for you after ten years to just leave you?)

How can he even think that I'll leave him after knowing about his traumatic past?

I wrap my arms around his neck and kiss him back ensuring I would never leave him. He leans his forehead against mine.

"I was afraid that you would leave me," he shared his fear. I climb on his lap straddling him.

"You are crazy, Mama." He snorts looking down and I lift his face up. "Why would I leave you when you haven't made any mistakes? You were the one who got affected. To come over it you started hanging out with women and became a playboy. Though being a Playboy is not a good thing, in the current generation many guys are like that and I guess you didn't hurt or cheat anyone." Raj shakes his head fastly. "Paid services?" He shakes his head even faster.

"Paathu kazhuthu suluku pudichika poguthu," I tease him and he smiles. (Be careful, Don't sprain your neck.) "Good. You didn't cheat, hurt someone, forced yourself on an unwilling girl or chose a paid service. When you became stronger, you didn't go back to take revenge on them. I'm proud of you that you didn't choose any wrong path."

"What am I going to achieve by revenging them?"

"The same, what am I going to achieve by leaving you? Feeling pity for you or leaving you isn't going to change anything. What happened in the past cannot be changed. What you are now is all that matters to me."

He shakes his head, "What are you going to get by staying with me?"

"You," I shrug and move closer to him on his lap.

"The Broken me?" He snorts and looks down.

I tap my finger on my chin, thinking, "Hmmm broken but still mine." I plant a peck on his lips.

He holds my face and his eyes are a river of emotions, "Where have you all these years?"

"Wherever you sent me to keep safe." Finally he laughs out loud which fills my heart. I just wish Rudhran Chitha will also laugh like him after today. "Seri mama vaa poi ready agalam court ku poganum la," but he stopped me. (Let's hurry up, we need to leave for court.)

"Court starts at 10:15 AM, it would be fine if we leave by nine and reach there by ten."

"What's the time now?" I look around his room for the wall clock and it shows 07:15 AM. "Shall we sleep until eight?"

Raj thinks and I push him on the bed, "Hey."

"Let's sleep," I lean my head on his chest but he turns with me in his arms and we lie face to face. "Ithu ennum nalla iruku," I bury my face in his chest and he hugs me tight. (This feels more good.)

"Hey ulla ethuvum podalaiya?" He pulls back. (You were going commando)

"Atha nee night ye kandu pudikalaya?" I ask without opening my eyes and pulling him closer. (Didn't you notice last night?)

"I was drowsy and we both were not in a mood to notice it."

"Then now?" I lean back and open an eye to look at him.

"Thoongu" he pulls me into his embrace for us to sleep in the remaining time.

A feel of emptiness makes me open my eyes to find myself sleeping alone in his bed. I turn to sit up on the bed but the scene in front of me makes my jaw drop.

Raj is shirtless and doing pull ups with the bar connected to above the door frame. His legs are crossed and bent slightly upwards. His back muscles, biceps and triceps flexes as he pulls himself up and down. The sheen of sweat glistened his body and I swallowed hard as my girly parts started reacting.

His phone rings, he hurriedly jumps down and turns to walk towards it but stops and walks strategy towards the bed. I look up from his toned sweat wet torso to his face with tousled wet hair.

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Aathi ithu kama parvaiyala iruku. (Ohh god, his desirous eyes look hungry.)

He kneels on the bed and places his left hand on the bed between my legs just a few inches away from my crotch. I feel his hot breath against my neck as he leans close to my side to take his phone, "I kept an alarm to wake you up at eight."

A drop of sweat from his forehead falls on my collarbone and it drips down the valley of my breast, which really doesn't help my already hard nipples. Raj lets out a manly chuckle and I risk a look at his face. "But it seems like you are entirely wide awake," he says, looking down at my nipples poking my long night shirt.

Kelambura nerathula ipadiya distract pandrathu? Krishna kapathu. (Does he have to distract me when we need to hurry up to leave? Ohh god please help me.)

"We... We need to leave in an hour," I stammer out my words.

"Are you sure?" He moves his hand to my crotch and touches my slit through my shirt. I press my legs to block his movement but his long fingers are already there circling my clit, "You don't want these to be taken care of?" He bends and sucks my nipples over my shirt.

Fuck.

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He lifts his head and looks at my face but I push him away and jump off the bed, "Later tonight."

I open his room door to leave and he calls out, "Tina and Tanya went to the temple. I have sent Sabarish with them. They will meet us directly in the court."

"Shit, It's her mother's birthday and I forgot it." I face palm and Raj nods his head, "I'll be back in thirty," I close his door and run to my bedroom to call Tina. For the past three years, we used to visit the temple on her mother's birthday but this year I forgot. I take my mobile to find ten missed calls from Tina and Tanya between 07:00 to 07:30 AM.

Shit! Shit! Shit! You should really start handling all your relationships equally Thooriga.