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Yeah I said the next update will be on Dec 20, but previous two chapters were in Thooriga's POV and I felt like you all would be happy, knowing Raj's side of story. So a surprise update for you all.

On Dec 20, the updates will be resumed with a fresh set chapters.

Also, Notion nyabagam irukatum 🤪🤪🏃‍♀️🏃‍♀️🏃‍♀️

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Raj

What have I done to deserve Thooriga in my life?

Definitely nothing in this birth, and I'm not sure whether I have done anything in my previous birth life too. Else my life wouldn't have been a hell until Thooriga returned. 

It has not been entirely forty eight hours since she landed here, but she showed entirely a new world for me. She showed how it feels to be loved. She was a kid who had a crush on an older man who never deserved her attraction. But she returned as a strong woman with love to handle the darkness in him.

I pushed her away so that she wouldn't get caught in my darkness. The casual flings ran away seeing my darkness unable to handle it. I stopped showing that side of mine to others and moved on with one night stands not exposing much of me.

I wanted a woman who could stay with me even after knowing me fully. And ever since I sent Thooriga away, I didn't have time and mindset to find such a woman. Or maybe my shity life was waiting for her return.

If she was here all along maybe I wouldn't have found the woman I have always wanted as I could have never seen her the way I saw her after she returned. Still I pushed her knowing she is Thooriga building a guard around my emotions.

Not just my body but my emotions have been in chaos ever since she returned. But within hours she broke the guard brick by brick. Every time I built it back, she broke it with sheer force. I found never seen before solace in her arms.

Almost losing her to the bullet and seeing her dancing with another male caused a fear in me. I have never felt feared for anyone's life or possessive over someone. I have never felt loved by someone until her and I was not ready to lose her.

Though I haven't shown her my entire darkness I wanted to see whether she can withstand this part of me. I was afraid I would hurt her, I was afraid that she would leave me after seeing this side of me. But she not just stayed but also assured me she'll be there for me.

When Thooriga asked me to remove her blindfold to see me, I was afraid that I had hurt her and freed her hands too. But when she held my face and said she is mine with millions of emotions running through her eyes, I lost it. All the guard I built around my emotions crumbled into pieces.

The night started with me wanting her to surrender to my darkness but ended with me surrendering to her love. I wanted her to embrace my darkness but she is pulling me towards her light.

I don't understand why she chose the broken me when there might have been young, good looking, rich boys like Vikranth during her school and college days. Hence, I thanked her for choosing me. I have never had a person to show me love, lost one after the other. I wished if I had given some love from my side and not just taken it, they might have stayed for a little longer in my life keeping me safe without letting me into the darkness.

I'm not sure whether I could love Thooriga as much as she does but I would love her with all my heart with whatever I could. But it's not the right time to tell her.

Being her Guardian and Acting Chairman, there is an invisible power I'm holding over her. I know she wouldn't mind and be the happiest if I tell her what I feel for her, but not others. For them, it'll be the exploitation of power and I don't want our love to be degraded. Once the Main Will with the process of handing over the power to her is unlocked and read, I'll tell her in front of the entire world after signing away my power and before she signs on the power.

The time gap between both of us signing the papers, is the time when we both won't have any power or property in our names. Even saying to her after she signs the papers would make it look as if I'm expressing my love for her for the property she owns.

Until then my love will be a secret to her and I'll express it in all other ways. When she is deep in sleep, I kiss her shoulder and whisper my love against her skin before falling asleep with a peaceful mind after ages.

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I wake up to the sun rays hitting my face and find a beautiful art in front me. Thooriga is sleeping peacefully facing my side. Her eyelashes resting on her cheeks and lips slightly open. The duvet has slid down in the turning and tossing during sleep and it exposes the globe of her breast hunched together with her right hand in front of her covering her tips. I wish I could wake up to this image for eternity.

Her pupils move behind her eyelids and I close my eyes pretending to be sleeping to check what he does. Nothing happens for a while before something blocks the sun rays falling on my face. After a couple of seconds, I feel her move and the light gets completely blocked.

Why do you love me so much, Thooriga?

I was about to open my eyes when I felt her caressing my hair, eyebrows, cheeks and my lips. I open my mouth and press my teeth lightly over her finger.

"Ouch ... Dei Fraud uh," I open my eyes and tickle her stomach.

"Dei Fraud ah? Neethu vaangunathu paathatha?" I sat up next to her. (Isn't that enough of what you got yesterday?)

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"Nee evlo koduthalum pathathu, Mama," She climbs on my lap and kisses me as she rocks her crotch against my morning hood. (I would never get enough of you.)

God, this girl is testing all my limits.

I hold her hair and deepen the kiss, sucking and licking her tongue. She hugs me tight, pressing our bodies together. As much as I want to thrust myself into her and give her what we both want, she needs rest and there is a lot of work to be completed today.

When we come up for air, I roll her down and press a peck on her lips, "Get ready, we have a lot of work today."

I got off the bed and searched for my boxers, "It's only eight in the morning and everyone will be sleeping late after the birthday party."

I find my boxers near the footboard and bend to take it. When I look up I find leaning on the headboard and her legs spread and bent as she rubs herself. Fuck. The boxers slip off my hands, "Ok you go and take care of work, I'll take care of myself."

How can I let my girl take care of herself when I'm there?

I crawl on the bed and she gives a victorious smile. She was right when she said she knows how to get what she wants after our first kiss. I catch her nethers lips with mine and she gasps, "Mama."

I lick and flick her bud as she rocks her hips against my mouth. I lift my hands and find her bosoms squeezing and massaging them. She moans out calling me, "Mama." This gives me more encouragement as I thrust my tongue into her and roll her nipples.

"Mama," she squirmed as she got ready for her release. I increase the pace of my tongue as my one hand squeezes her bosoms while I bring the other to circle her nerve endings until she finally spiraled out in my mouth.

I drink every drop of hers and straighten myself wiping my mouth against my arm. She pants heavy and I caress her cheek, "Relax for a while and get ready soon."

I get off the bed and about to retrieve my clothes but she holds my hand to stop me. "You took care of me, who will take care of you?" She directs her eyes to my arousal.

"It's the usual morning hood. It will automa..." my words get caught in my throat as she slides to the corner of the bed and takes me in her hands.

"Kitty," I groan as she pumps me giving a devilish smile before taking me in her mouth.

This girl would never give up.

She sucks me with her inexperienced mouth and I hold her head to correct her. She looks up and locks her gaze with him. I thrust into her mouth not straining her little lips much until I shot into her mouth. I pull her head back and she mimics my action by wiping her mouth with her arm.

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She stands up and locks her hands around my neck, "Now we are equal." She raises on her tiptoes as she pulls my head down for a kiss. I lock my arms around her and kiss her back, tasting the mixture of our juices.

When did my shitty fate turn lucky for me to have her in my life?

"Seri poi ipovaachum ready aagu." I spank her butt as she walks into her closet bathroom. (At least now go and get ready.)

I wear my boxers, pick her dresses and put them in the laundry basket. I leave her room with my clothes to finish my routine and take a quick shower. I dress up, wear my shoes and leave my room with my coat in my hand. I have left my guarding equipment in her room, thinking I will get them after getting dressed.

I enter her room, check the gun and put on the holster. I insert the dagger in my socks and start wearing my belt with an in-built blade, when Thooriga walks out of her bathroom clad in a towel. She leans on the door frame of her closet and looks at me with an admiring smile on her face.

"What?" I raise my eyebrows as I buckle my belt.

"Simply, No reason," She walks up to the bed, takes my coat that I left on the head board and holds it for me to wear. I turn the other way to insert my hands into the sleeves and wear it.

I understand the reason behind her smile. I'm getting ready in her bedroom as she comes out of the bathroom, it gives me a feel of home. It felt natural and domestic. Very soon the feeling will change into reality.

I turn to her, cup her face and kiss her forehead, "Seekkiram ready agidu. Once your friends are here we will leave after breakfast." (Get ready soon)

I wear my watch, "Namma enga porom? (Where are we going?)

I take my purse and put it in my pants pocket, "Unaku DNA test eduka apuram appadiye Aadhar Card ku apply panna." (To take your DNA test and apply for your Aadhar Card.)

Her face falls, "Yaar kooda en DNA match pannuvanga?" She doesn't cry but her voice breaks. (With whom will my DNA be tested?)

Ohh god, how will I tell her this?

"With your own hair." She gives me a confused look, "Ten years back I gave a strand of your hair from your comb for a DNA match to help in identifying them and that hair is still available with the reports."

"Identifying whom?" She starts but the next second she hugs me burying her face in my chest and I feel her body shuddering. I hug her back, kissing on top of her head.

After the bomb blast, it was worse that we were unable to identify which body parts belongs to who. Only the DNA of an immediate family member helped in identifying.

"You said you want to show yourself strong in front of me?" Slowly she controls herself and tries to pull back from me but I don't let her. I lift her chin up with my fingers, "It's not always necessary that it should be only me who shows all my side, even you can do that."

She smiles and I kiss on her nose before releasing her, "Get ready soon." I walk out of her room, closing the door behind me.