Ok so this is an au where Deku never got All Mights quirk But he still goes to UA high just in the general studies course instead. Bee tea dubs this is edgy deku fic. Depression and uh disturbing thing of sorts.. I'm just incorporating all of the depression Deku related things I've read so that I don't pull out anything like this again.

I get it I get it I get it! I'll try to see what I can do for fluffy happiness instead!
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I don't even want to watch it last)

     I stared at the glistening liquid dripping down into the shower drain as I stood practically dead as the shower water ran over me. "Izukun! Breakfast is almost ready!" My mom yelled from down the hall. "I'm almost done showering! I'll be out in a sec!" I yelled back snapping out of my thoughts.

I just wanna bask in shattered glass)
Pick each fragment up one at a time)
Shards inside my skin...)

     I quickly washed off the rest of my body as the soap stung my upper arms and some small areas on my legs. Getting out of the shower and patting myself dry with a dark green towel I got changed into my school blazer and stepped out of the bathroom.

Feeling a cold shiver down my spine as I walked down the quiet and unusually long hall. Looking into the bathroom I got a glimpse of the mirror that knows everything that goes down in there happen. Before fully out of view, I see the last of the glistening liquid slip down the drain with the rest of the water.

Want you to tell me that I'm broken)
That I'm finally choking)

"Good morning Izu!" My mother beamed as I stepped into the room. "How did you sleep?" She asked staring at my makeup covered face.

"I had a good sleep last night, yours?" I said sitting down in my usual seat at the other end of the table across my mothers usual seat.

I'm not worth the rhyme)

"Great! Here you go, pancakes to start the day." My mom placed a plate of three amazing looking pancakes with some butter and a neat drizzle of syrup.

"Thankyouforthemeal!" Me and my mother said in unison as we both then proceeded to dig into our own breakfasts.

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I'm just a dime, a rusty token)

"Hello Midoriya." Shinso muttered as he then proceeded to walk next to me as we walked through the gates and onto the school grounds. "Did you have a good weekend?"

"I didn't really do anything this weekend other than read and do homework, otherwise it was fine." I replied subconsciously dodging the rock I tripped on during the first day of school.

Tell me that I'm fucked up)
Mentally unstable)

"Then that's good. Mine was pretty boring, I did essentially the same thing." Shinso said.

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Tell me that I care too much about my whole damn fable)

"Hello Midoriya." Monoma stated bluntly walking up to the lone table him and Shinso were sitting at on the far end of the cafeteria. "I heard that you are aiming for hero course class 1-A. How pathetic to aim for such an excuse of a course, especially since as far as any of us know, your quirkless."

"I just want your body")
"I don't want your mind")

"E-Excuse me Monoma, c-could you please leave?" A girl with long purple hair and the occasional yellow or blue streak asked. Without a moments hesitation Monoma turned away and left the three at the table.

"H-Here." The girl said handing a letter with little hearts drawn in one corner to Midoriya. "P-Please read it." The girl murmured rushing towards the direction with a table of other girls.

"Meet at the cherry blossom tree behind the school after classes are over." Midoriya muttered to Shinso. "Looks like a confession, can you get a rope for me?"

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I just want a noose around my neck to pass my time)
I just want a god, please, rather roll my dice)

Humming as I tied the noose to the tree, I turned around to see if the girl was anywhere nearby. Seeing that the girl and her friends from the full table start to accumulate near the edge of the roof and looking in this general direction I sat down and begun writing on the back of her note.

I hear a few faint shrieks where the girls were and the one who wrote the letter got down to the ground quickly with the help of one of the other girls quirks. As she starts running to the tree, I tape the letter to the tree trunk and begin walking away.

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I don't wanna watch the light)
Extinguish from your eyes)

     "G-Guys!" The girl yelled running back to the building making it to the top with ease because of her quirk. "He didn't do it! He just left a note!"

     "Thank goodness! What if his parents tried to sue our parents?!" Another girl yelled. Most of the other girls nodded in agreement. "Anyways~ what's the note say?" The group of girls began chatting and crowing the girl.

     "Okay okay! The note says- Wait.." "What?" "Yeah what's the deal?" "It can't be that bad!" "Tell us!"

     "Okay chill out! It's just written on the back of the note I wrote him!" The girl yelled. "It says, ahem, 'If you did it to anybody else like me guess what that rope would be doing right now?'" She said slowly getting more and more worried noticing the little splats of a shining liquid near the edge of the paper.

(Music solo)

Midoriya: Thanks for the rope
Shinso: No problem
Shinso: but what was up with the rope?
Midoriya: The note was fake
Midoriya: she and her friends were up on the roof laughing about tricking me or something
Shinso: Okay cool
Shinso: Gtg see you tomorrow
Midoriya: bye

(End music solo)

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Bones are laced with oil)
I'll just burn my name, no toil)

     A few small burns and many bruises laced the young teens body, most being hidden and off his face to prevent suspicion. As the boy walked down the street he noticed a small convenience store having a big sale before it closes down for renovations.

     Shining metallic objects, small white bottles, and large cork plugs caught the eyes of this boy as he turned directly towards the small shop. Slipping into the store quietly and stepping to the back to grab the objects that caught his interest, he started to play some music on his phone and checked his wallet.

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I just want my way, so spoiled)

      "Mom, I'm home! Sorry I got back a little later!" Izuku yelled quietly shutting the door to the house. "Huh?" Izuku said staring at a note sitting on to of the table.

     'Sorry Izu! I'll be out for a couple of hours to cover a friends shift at the store. I made some fried rice and left it in the fridge for you. -mom'

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How are you today?)

     Opening the packages of things Midoriya bought, he threw away the plastic bag and packages. -BZZZ BZZZ- -BZZZ BZZZ- "Hello?" He said bringing the phone up to his ear to hear the callers reply.

     "Hey it's me Shinso. I was wondering if I could stop by in a few." Shinso asked, his request sounding more like a statement than a question but he still complied to manners in some form of way.

I'll tell you that I'm broken)

     "Okay then, see you in an hour?" Midoriya replied combing out a messy strand of hair he had. "Sure." Shinso muttered before the sound of an ended call rang in his ears.

That I'm finally choking)
I'm not worth the rhyme)

     -BING- -BING-
Mom: Don't forget to eat dinner and take a shower
Mom: I love you!
Izuku: I love you too mom, thanks!

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I'm just a dime, a rusty token)
Flooded wishing wells are where I like to spend my days)

     Rushing hot water filled the tub as Izuku took off his school blazer and threw it into the hamper in his room as he walked into the bathroom. Sliding a line down on one of his arms as the clearly recognizable liquid from the earlier morning dropped into the hot water.

I'd bathe in pools to dwell)
But wish I could just wash away)

     Stepping into the tub full of hot water as the last bits of water dropped from the spout, Izuku hissed in pain when his arms met the hot water. Downing a handful of small pills, Midoriya tossed the empty bottle into the small trash can at the other end of the bathroom.

     -BING- -BING- -BING- -BING- -BING- The rate the messages from presumably Shinso had slowly started getting faster and more frequent as the shaking of a doorknob could be heard from another area if you were absolutely quiet. -CRACK- The doorknob finally gave in as the door opened after repeated shaking.

"Midoriya?! Where are you!" Shinso yelled rushing through the home to find a semi-closed bathroom door. "Midoriya this better be a prank!"

Now tell me that I'm-)

The long slow creak coming from the door was all Shinso could hear as everything around him became muffled and unnoticed. "Oh please no.."

(Music solo END OF REMIX

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Ok so I'm not gonna say anything about this chapter but the rest of the lyrics is cut out in the remix I linked at the top of the chapter.

So here's the rest of the lyrics-
I don't want to watch it last)
I won't recycle the past)
The way you smile, cannot ever beat that)
The space between our laughter always felt sad)
Jam a stick between my spokes)
I will never feel at home)
The way you cry, they cannot ever beat that)
The space between our tears had always felt mad)
I don't really want to learn)
I just want to watch you squirm)
In my palm, relax)
Hiding in the walls)
Don't let go)
Takes a certain personality, to drive me to thin sanity)
I know my place)
Tastes like blood)
But I won't let go)

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