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This story contains depressing actions and thoughts, if you do not associate with this kind of content please exit now. If this is triggering in any way, shape, or form, please exit now. This was a warning.

Deku's POV
My boyfriend "Bakugou" and I have been dating for almost a year now, it's been hard dating someone and keeping up with my depression. I'm always treated like a child and it's not fair to him. He takes off of work for me, and does chores around the house while I just sit and whine.

He shouldn't have to go through this stuff just for me. Before me and him started dating I would tell him my feelings and I could see how angered this made him. After I confessed, which was a huge mistake, we started dating and I stopped sharing my feelings, acting as if I was ok. I can't say anything has changed but, I can say I've gone back to bad habits...such as cutting.

He doesn't really notice anything out of the ordinary about me cutting or feeling down since we barely talk. Our routine is the same everyday. Wake up, eat, he goes to work, I stay home, he comes home, I'm already asleep. I sometimes wake up to the sound of him vacuuming or watching the TV.

Sometimes he'll bring other people over and I'll hear them laughing and giggling. I would love to join but I would be too weak to even stand. I just have to except the fact that I'm a bother, a burden, I can't even do anything to provide or help anymore. ~You never could Izuku, you're a just failure at life itself ..~  'Stop...' I can't take care of us, nor can I even stop him from running away and doing unsavory things with others. 

~Izuku-Kun..., he only wants your body. Hell, he can't even get much from that~

I can't even help myself. The voices get louder and louder everyday but I can't silence them. In a way, they're soothing. They let me know that my existence is futile, but sometimes they get too loud.

I finally got the strength to actually get out of bed without assistance and started looking around the room. I see pictures of me and him together. My eyes look dead. ~Poor unhappy Izuku...Why even bother, you know he doesn't love you...~ Heh, the voices are whispering sweet nothings to me. I smile.

   I go into one of his drawers and pull out a box of condoms and lube, we don't use this stuff. He knows I'm Asexual. Just then everything clicked and I put the pieces together, of course he's cheating on me! I feel my eyes go blank and dry, the tears never formed. I knew this would happen. 

~Izukuuu~ Shit, I don't like this..they're getting louder.

   My head went all fuzzy, I started squeezing my arm. My head started aching as I gripped  the sides chanting for the voices to end. 'Please stop...' Over and over again. I hear footsteps coming towards the room. As I freak out, I tumble down onto the floor, bringing the drawer with me. He sees me and dashes over.

He looks at the sight of me and the condoms spilled onto the floor. He was about to ask me a question, "Are you ok?" but immediately stopped as his eyes normally ruby, "love" filled eyes clouded with lust. "I see what's going on."

He said this in a seductive tone. I back up onto the bed, putting my back against the bed frame. He crawls onto the bed with me, taking off his tie he had trouble tying this morning. I was about to say something like. "Stop..." or "Get away..." but that would only anger him.

He started sucking on my neck as my eyes went droopy. I didn't want to cry, he goes through so much protecting me, if this is what he wants, so be it. He started speaking again.

"Y'know I thought you were all 'I'm Asexual, I can't do anything because I'm useless and depressed.' never knew you actually wanted to have sex. And to think, you were going to do something dirty without me in our room~" He began sucking again.

My blank expression never came to life and I never spoke. I felt dirty, gross. I was disgusted. My body was tense and cold while his was warm and relaxed. I just put my head in the crook of his neck and let it all happen. There was no "Wait a minute... ", or "Slow down..." I just let it go. I let myself go.

Useless

Worthless

Helpless

Heartless

Lifeless

Ugly

Dumb

Fat

Weak

Deku...

After hours of me fake enjoying this and him screaming "Midoriya" it was finally over. He took a shower and let me sit there empty.
He came out of the bathroom with a towel around his waist, picking out some new clothes."Something the matter Deku?" He asked sitting next to me after he finished getting dressed. I shook my head and pulled the blanket over my naked body, He smiled. "We can do this again another time, promise." My eyes widened, don't let him see you cry. "O-ok..." I said smiling.

He left the room putting the lube and condoms in a bag. After I heard the front door close, I broke down. I screamed scratching my arms and biting my wrist. Things were supposed to be better. There was no going back. Kacchan...

I'm sorry...

Welp this sucked...I'll try making a part 2 later...Hope this made sense.