I feel like everything is fading,
I feel like something is missing,
I don't know why I feel so,
It looks like life has lost its glow.

I know I have suffered a lot,
Didn't tell anyone to prevent being caught,
I didn't want anyone to know I was depressed,
A little less happy and a lot more stressed.

My childhood was like a pleasant cry,
My teenage was a terrible lie,
No one knew my actual mood,
It's because the true me was dead for good.

Today I feel like I have lost myself,
It's really not good for my mental health,
But I don't have any control over it,
It kills me from inside bit by bit.

My life seems clueless,
I don't even have a bit of confidence,
I am still moving forward,
Reminding myself that I am not a coward.

I feel very lonely sometime,
Negative thoughts running on my mind,
Questioning my own existence,
Waiting to die with a great patience.

Thought that relationship is a good idea,
Watching all stuff on social media,
But since, even I don't love myself,
How could it be done by anyone else.

I don't know how I developed inferiority complex,
Specially infront of my opposite sex,
I don't know why I feel inferior,
Even to myself when I see in the mirror.

Sometimes, I just wish to die,
Die at once without pain or cry,
I wonder if everyone has such painful life,
It feels easier to slit my wrist with a knife.

I can just hope for the best,
I don't know anything about the rest,
I want to get out of this depression,
I really want to live my life with my passion.