Worthlessness

Hey guys, new chapter! This takes place when Flora takes Lana into her room in order to talk to her, and I'm really sorry it took so long, but hey, it's not 6 whole months, so there's that, right? Anyways, I hope you enjoy

~~Flora's Pov~~

I sat on my bed as Lana ploped down beside me. She looked at me, confused. What am I doing? This is going to break her heart... but she deserves to know. I took a deep breath as I prepared myself for the inevitable. "I should start by saying that I know about your crush on Noah." That certainly got a reaction out of her, as she jumped a bit and a slight red tint could be seen under her fur.

"Y-You d-do?" She spoke nervously, which was expected. I simply nodded, which caused her to look away, embarrassed. "That obvious, huh?" She asked, glancing up at me, earning another nod. Now for the hard part. "I've got some possibly bad news for you. Thing is, he's been hanging around with this Espeon girl. They seemed close, and the espeon especially seemed rather... interested. In several ways. I think he's already got a girlfriend, hun..." The word "girlfriend" caused her to jolt and then freeze. She didn't move a muscle for a good minute or so, and when she finally spoke up her voice was shaky, like she was trying to hold back her tears, "W-What?"

"I'm sorry, Lana. I just... thought you should know. It hurts me to have to tell you something like this, but I just don't think it'll work between you two." I tried to pat her back in an effort to comfort her but she shoved my paw away, looking at me with a furious glare. "You're wrong! H-He and I are destined to be together! I-I need him, Flora!" She bit her lip, clearly holding back tears. She sounded like she was trying to convince herself as much as she was trying to convince me.

I tried again to comfort her, but she swatted my paw away before burying her face in her pillow. I just decided to leave her be. It's not like I could do much to help right now anyways. "I want to believe the same, and I could be wrong..." I let out a defeated sigh, "Look, if you ever decide to let me help you, I'll be here." I then got up and left her room, seeing a concerned Noah waiting outside. "Is she... Is she alright? I heard yelling, but didn't hear what it was about..." I just nodded and walked off. I wasn't talking to him right now.

~~Noah's Pov~~

Flora leaves, leaving me utterly confused. She said Lana was okay, but I could hear her still crying in Flora's room. I decided to check on Lana while Robin went after Flora to see what happened. I couldn't really say I was confident in my ability to help if not even her sister could console her, but dammit, I'm going to try. I took a deep breath and mustered all of the confidence within me in preparation for what lay beyond the bedroom door but as I reached to open the door I heard her... singing? Is that something she does to calm down or something? Her voice was beautiful, definitely talented, but also somewhat shaky, as if trying to not weep as she did so. I could hear clear as day, and it was a song I had never heard before.

Reach for my paw

I'll soar away

Into the dawn

Oh, I wish I could stay

Here in cherished halls

In peaceful days

I fear the edge of dawn

Knowing time betrays

What is this about? I think to myself as I stop to listen. If this is about her, then this could possibly help me understand her a bit better. I should wait until she's finished before going in.

Daylights pass through colored glass

In this beloved place

Silver shines, the world dines

A smile on each face

As joy surrounds, comfort abounds

And I can feel I'm breaking free

For just this moment lost in time

I am finally me

Yet still I hide

Behind this mask that I have become

My blackened heart scorched by flames

Of a force I can't run from

Wait, mask? What does she mean? Is she faking something? What is she faking? And what is this "force?"

As I live out

Each peaceful day

Deep in my soul

Oh, I know I can't stay

So I wish I

Could hide away

Hold tight to what I love

Keep cruel fate at bay

Was I right in the suicidal thing? I-Is that what this is about? I'm here for you, Lana, as are Flora and Robin. You're not alone.

As the rain falls on the path

I chase your shadow

I don't feel a single drop

Or the ground below

Then you turn to me

And I stop before I know

And the lie upon my lips

I let it go

Cross my heart

Making vows I know will be betrayed

A sad girl's pleas

Live only for a breath and then they fade

I feel bad for her, all alone with nobody to share her true feelings to… But she has Flora and her brother, right? Even Inigo, as much as I hate to admit it.

Don't ever take

Back your kind paw 

Lest precious love

Slip away like time's sand

Who is she talking about? "Precious love?" I don't understand, is she talking about me? Or maybe Inigo, or even someone I don't know…

Only we will know

All that was lost

Scars that we can't erase

Show us life's true cost

The blue moonlight

Cuts across our sight

As pure and clear as a ringing bell

Reaching for us in the night

As the wind calms my thoughts

I have strung on this terrace

I feel at peace

Carried away by the wind's song

Wait, does this mean she is really okay? Or there is someone or something that makes her better? This girl is a mystery, that's for sure, but I'm not gonna let that deter me from helping her.

Open the door

And walk away

Never give in

To the call of yesterday

Memories that made

Those days sublime

These ruined halls entomb

Stolen time

Reach for my paw

I'll soar away

Into the dawn

Oh, I wish I could stay

Here in cherished halls

In peaceful days

I fear the edge of dawn

Knowing time betrays

It was beautiful, and like nothing I have ever heard. I never knew Lana was such a good singer. Early on in the song, she seemed to calm down, and I didn't hear any more crying when she was done, so I guess it worked. Turns out she didn't need me to help her, so I should give her some privacy. On the other hand though...

~~Lana's Pov~~

I finished singing and felt a lot better. It was a song I had written myself that's about Noah and I. I just wish I could be with him. She's wrong, I thought to myself. Noah would never do something like that, he's mine, I need him. He's the only thing keeping me here... Arceus caused us to meet for a reason, he can't just go and get another girl. Though, if that's how he feels towards her, that's fine. I won't stop him. If he's not happy with a waste of space like me, I shouldn't force him, I'll just do it, and he'd probably never even notice. I frown, my thoughts going negative. I can't even keep these thoughts away. I really am useless... It was right then when my door opened and I jumped, seeing Noah enter. W-Why is he here!? D-Did he hear my song!?

He sees I'm freaking out and frowns. "What's wrong, Lana? Wait, I forgot to knock, s-sorry... Look, if you don't want me in here, I'm sorry, I-I can leave." He said, embarrassed. This mon never fails to put a smile on my face. "It's fine, in fact, please stay." He nodded, "O-Okay, sure." He sits down next to me, his embarrassment fading away. "I heard crying coming from your room once Flora left. I wanted to come and help but decided to give you some privacy for a bit. Are you okay?" He asked. He heard, of course he heard. 

I just smiled. A fake but believable smile that I used every day. The mask that I have become. "Yeah, I'm fine, just... some memories that I don't want to talk about. I'm fine now though." This made him sigh in relief and smile. "Well, that's good at least. And don't worry, I won't pry," He uses a gentle paw to rub my back, "But I'm always here if you need to talk." This earned a real smile from me.

He was so kind to me, despite how little I deserved it. He then looks at the clock and frowns. "Damn, I didn't know how late it was. Shall we talk tomorrow?" He asked, hopeful. I laughed internally. Like I would turn down that offer. "Of course!" I said, looking as excited as I could. I wanted to ask him to stay and sleep in my bed so much. To cuddle up to him and let his warm fur lull me to sleep, but I couldn't bring myself to speak. He left and I laid down, immediately falling into a restless sleep.

Well, that's it. Sorry if the chapter is kinda short. I felt the song really fit Lana and I wanted to add it, so I'm also sorry if the inclusion feels a bit random. Anyways, this took me, like, a week to do since I had Christmas preparations and whatnot, but I managed to get it done.

Anyways, as always I hope you enjoyed

~The fluffiest of Eevees,

Calvee

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