(Warning: depress Sans,& childhood trauma)

-02.00 am-
-sans's dream realm (under a bridge)-
*6y/o Sans P.O.V

"Sans, I need you to protect Papyrus and your self, and DON'T go near the house. Promise me you'll do that"

"I..I promise.. but where are you going..?" I asked.

"AHHHH!!!!!!"
*BANG*
*BANG*

I can hear loud gunshots, and screams above the bridge.

"No time to explain Sans, I promise I will be back"

"Can't we come with you..?" I ask with teary eyes.

"NO, it's too dangerous. Pls just protect your self and Papyrus I've prepared some food, clothes and some gold in this backpack. Goodbye for now, Sans"

"W..wait don't leave..." I pleaded

"WAIT... PLS COME BACK, DON'T LEAVE" I cried

"Wait....."

"Come back...."

"Pls....."

*normal Sans's P.O.V

*GASP*

I woke up, gasping for air. I look around I'm on my bed, and Paps is still sleeping peacefully.

'Ughhh that f*cking stupid dream... when will it stop torturing me," I cursed in my thoughts

I look at the clock. Its 02.15 am.

'Well great. because of that stupid dream, I can't sleep now, GODDAMMIT," I was really really upset. 'I need to cool my skull'. I quietly jumped off my bed and left the room.

I roam around the mafia building alone. Everybody is asleep, except for the bodyguards who have night shifts.

Looking at the ground, I remember the time where Me and Papyrus hit rock bottom. Pap was still very young, 4 y/o to be more specific. And I was 6 at that time. I needed to take care of both of us. I can't get a job because I was too young. With that I had to steal money, and food at an early age just to survive. The only word that can describe my feeling that day is...

Betrayed.

The only person that I can rely on, that I feel safe with, the one that I TRUST. Betrayed me, left me to survive on my own in this cruel miserable world. He promised to come back, he lied to me

*Third person P.O.V

Remembering all these awful memories, anger-filled Sans's skull. Sans clenched his fists, he shut his eye sockets tightly, and then he heard whispers...

'Alone'

'Hate'

Sans hold his skull, covering his eyes. "Stop it...."

'Hopeless'

'No one to trust'

His hands started to shake. "St-stop it"

'Weak'

'Fear'

The things that surround him start to shake violently. "E-enough... stop it"

'BETRAYED'

"I said..... STOP IT"

*CRASH*

Sans snapped out of his thoughts and opened his eyes. He broke a giant vase filled with flowers. The vase has been broke to pieces, the soil scattered everywhere, and the beautiful flowers are now covered in dirt. Seeing this reminds Sans of himself. Broken like the vase, and no one can fix him. Broken by his own emotions that he can't control, the voices in his skull that always reminds him of his past. And the only thing that keeps him going is his brother. Papyrus still needs him.

'Pathetic' he thought to himself while stomping on one of the flowers.

-03.30 am-

After Sans cool down his skull, he decided to walk back to his room. When he opened the door slowly, he saw Papyrus sitting on the sofa. This was really weird for Sans because Papyrus is a very heavy sleeper.

"Hey bro," Sans ask Papyrus

"OH... GOOD MORNING BROTHER," Papyrus said a little bit startled by Sans's sudden appearance.

"So.. why are you up so early, Paps?"

"I-ITS..... THERE IS SOMETHING ON MY MIND"

"Well what is it Paps ?"

"UMM... WHEN I WAS ABOUT TO GO TO OUR ROOM, I SAW FRISK IN A VERY BAD CONDITION," said Papyrus with a worried tone

"Oh..? How unfortunate," Sans said with a fake pity tone

"SANS...... DO YOU HAVE ANYTHING TO DID WITH IT...?"

Sans didn't say a word. He's thinking about whether, to tell the truth, or not. If he tells the truth what will Papyrus think of him? So with that, he told a lie

"I have no idea what you're talking about, bro. I didn't see her all day,"

"BROTHER... ARE... YOU... LYING TO ME ?" Said Papyrus sounded a little bit angry

'Shit..' thought Sans. There was a minute of silence between the two of them.

"BROTHER JUST TELL ME THE TRUTH," plead Papyrus.

"Fine..... yes I did"

"BUT...WHY BROTHER...? WHAT DID SHE DO TO YOU TO DESERVE THAT ?"

"She was snooping on me"

"IS THAT THE ONLY REASON...?"

"I-I..... ughh... I don't trust her, Paps. I can feel that she's bad news,"

"YOU ALWAYS SAID THAT ABOUT ALL OF OUR FRIENDS,"

"They're not our friends Paps. Like I said we can't get attached to them,"

"SANS... ISN'T IT TIME TO LET GO OF THE PAST...?"

Sans just looked at the ground. He has been haunted by the memories for years. He can't let go, he won't let go.

Sans just shook his head, eyes still on the ground. Pap look at him with pitiful eyes. Pap knows how much he had suffered alone since Pap can't do anything at that time.

"JUST...TRY AND LET GO... OK BROTHER...?"

"I-I'll try..... but no promises....."

After that conversation, they just sat on the sofa watching tv until the sun rises.

-06.00 am-

"WELL BROTHER, NOW I MUST EXCUSE MYSELF FOR I THE GREAT PAPYRUS HAS A BUSY SCHEDULE TODAY,"

Sans slightly chuckle, even tho his mind is still clouded with those bad memories.

"Sure Paps,"

After that Papyrus left the room leaving Sans alone.

-09.30-
*Sans's P.O.V*

I grew bored and decided it's time for me to go to Grillby's. I got up from the sofa and left the room. On my way to the exit, on my right, I saw the sparing room. Inside I saw the little rat training with Asriel. She doesn't look too good. I can see she's having a hard time breathing. But I don't feel ashamed of what I did yesterday. She DESERVED IT. As I walk pas the sparing room I can hear some of Asriel and Frisk's conversation.

"Are you okay Frisk?" Ask Asriel worried

"I'm fine Azzy, I just.... didn't get enough sleep,"

"We can take a break if you want," Asriel suggested.

"No no I'm fine, didn't u tell me that I need to prepare myself for the big test?"

"Yes... I did... but_"

"I'm fine Azzy, I can do it" said Frisk. Her voice filled with determination.

'Huh.... she's very determined. Guess I'll be seeing her here longer than I expected," I thought to myself.

I exited the mafia building and go straight to Grillby's. I'm craving for my ketchup.

When I got there I Immediately order 1 bottle of ketchup. And as always Grillby knows I'm not okay so he asks.

"What is it this time..?" Ask Grillby

"Oh...nothing just... got a nightmare,"

Grillby is the only living creature in this hell hole that Knows about my past, and I can trust him including Papyrus. The other mafia members also know but that's because Paps told them, even tho I said not to. He just wanted to help me get over it...but to be honest I can't. I'm too weak.

"You know sooner or later you have to let go right?"

"Ughhhhhhhhhh..... Grillby I'm here to take my mind off of those memories," I grumbled.

"A lot of people care about you, you can't just let those memories haunt you for the rest of your life,"

"Whatever..." I responded.

I spent my whole day sitting in Grillby's bar. After that, I left the bar and take a walk to the park before I go back to the mafia building

-21.00 pm-
-the park-

At night, the park is peaceful. The park has a lot of trees, grasses, and benches. I sit on one of the benches looking up at the starry sky.

'It's really is peaceful,' I thought to myself

'I wonder if... Paps and Grillby are right... maybe it's time for me to... let go..?' I thought long and hard.

After a while, I went back to the UMO headquarter.

-00.10 am-
-UMO headquarter-

I yawned. And walked to my room.

There are some questions in my head

'Am I ready to let go of the past'

'Can I trust again..?'

'Can I trust... anyone here..?'

And only one word that can answer all of those questions

'No'

'Im doing this to protect myself and papyrus. I'm doing the right thing," I kept reminding myself that.

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Well thank you guys for reading
And as always see you next week 💙❤️

A/N: today is my Friend's birthday and these are screenshots of how i say happy birthday to my BCFFL (Best Crazy Friend For Life)

(Memes are not mine)

Happy birthday ma dude