as my body slowly grew conscious of the world around me,
eyes slowly opening wanting to shut with the sleepiness that was still within me.
i felt comfortable.
closing my eyes letting the tiredness of my body sweep me away.
with no avail i started thinking, thinking a lot.
pictures showing up in my mind whenever i thought of it.
seeing my mother followed by my sister, the two i felt happy with.

thinking of memories together, thinking of when they met ally, the looks on their faces knowing i had someone to talk to.
turning into memories of ally, ones where she had helped me with bullies.
ones where she had helped me study and control my breakdowns.

one where she met him, Roman.
nothing but his face was in my mind, i felt at ease, i felt the sleepiness of my body slowly drift me away as i imagined his arms around my waist,

slowly opening my eyes to the feeling of uneasiness.
a small creak coming from behind me,

my pupils dilated as my inhales sharpened,
loosing all the strength in my arms and legs
small quiet steps grew closer until they stopped near the mattress.

my vision blurred as tears threatened to spill out, anger building up inside me, eyes furrowing.
the comforting thoughts suddenly disappearing as a priority was set in my mind.
as my fit of anger overtook my body and mind,
something clicked in my brain, the strength of my arms and legs came back to me as my lifeless glossy eyes urged to look back.
pushing myself up and off onto the ground backing up until i saw them.

a box dropped onto the ground with a quiet thud.
i blinked at the small sound some tears slipping out, as a pair of arms surrounded my shoulders,
my eyebrows rested, my eyes then returning to its normal state.
a quiet breath was heard from them.
tears staining their purple shirt,

i parted my lips trying to be as quiet as possible,
"m-mom..?"