*****WinK wOnK *****

y/n-

Days passed and Jungkook and I continued with the whole touchy feely thing. Only thing was, it never led to sex.

Jungkook claimed that I wasn't ready but I couldn't help but think maybe he was the one who wasn't ready.

I wasn't sure why he was acting this like but he still never let me touch him like he did to me.

In a way, It hurt my feelings. I didn't know why he was being like this and I thought maybe it was me...

"What are you thinking about to be zone out like that?" Jungkook asked, waving his hand in front of my face.

I looked up, my eyes meeting his. I knew I would need to confront him if I wanted answers.

"Why don't you let me touch you too? You always give but when I want to give back you don't let me. Why? Do you not think I'll be good? Do you not feel attracted to me like that?" I ask, my jaw clenching and unclenching.

Jungkook's expression seemed to soften. "You're thinking too much about this, y/n." He says.

"Then tell me why. It's driving me crazy." I sigh, my voice slightly whiny.

Jungkook grabs ahold of my hands, holding them in his. "It's not because I'm not attracted to you, y/n. I'm very attracted to you, you know that." He starts.

"Then how come you don't let me return the favor?" I ask. Jungkook looks up, his eyes meeting mine.

"I don't want you to feel pressured. Before, you told me we were moving too fast and I don't want to make you feel uncomfortable." Jungkook says.

"I don't feel uncomfortable though. I want to do this." I say. "I'm worried once we start, my old ways will come out. I don't want to scare you away." Jungkook says and I knew he was talking about when he slept around.

"I'm not them, okay? Don't compare us to that." I say, my eyes on his. "I don't. I know you're not them, trust me."

"Then please, Jungkook. You trust me, don't you?" I ask, hoping he would say he did.

"Of course I trust you." Jungkook says without a second to spare. "Then trust that it will be okay. I'm not going anywhere, I promise."

Jungkook's eyes soften as he studies my face. "Okay." Jungkook says, his words soft.

"So what does this mean?" I ask, already having a slight idea. "It means that if you're ready, I'm ready." Jungkook says.

I smiled softly, my eyes on his. "I would love that." I say. Jungkook's eyes smile for him as he leans forward and presses his lips to mine.

...

3rd person~

Y/n kissed back instantly, loving the feeling. Every kiss made another butterfly erupt in her stomach, making her brain feel fuzzy.

Jungkook carefully scooped y/n up bridal style, carrying her towards his bedroom.

Once they got inside, he gently laid her down on his bed, her back hitting the sheets.

Jungkook broke the kiss to look down at the fragile girl in his arms. This was it, the moment he had never truly had.

This wasn't just a meaningless hook up, it was so much more than that. Jungkook nearly wished it were his first time too.

"Ready?" Jungkook asked as he played with the hem of y/n's shirt. Y/n nodded, her eyes meeting Jungkook's brown ones.

Jungkook pecked y/n's lips before slowly slipping the shirt from over her head.

Jungkook too yanked his shirt off, making sure y/n wasn't the only one left to be exposed.

Y/n's eyes scanned his body, falling onto the scar left behind from the bad mission just months prior.

Y/n slowly raised her hand, gently tracing the long scar down the side of Jungkook's chest.

Jungkook shivered under y/n's touch, her small hands running effortlessly over his warm skin.

"Your job is to dangerous..." Y/n whispered, her eyes counting the multiple other scars littering Jungkook's chest.

Jungkook didn't speak as y/n's eyes jumped from one scar to another. "I'm so sorry." Y/n says as she lays her hand flat on his chest.

Jungkook's eyes met hers then. "Sorry for what? You haven't done anything wrong." Jungkook says seriously.

"I'm just sorry you were born into this horrible life." Y/n says, her eyes burning slightly.

"Don't be. If it wasn't for this life I wouldn't have you. That's worth a million more scars if it means I can have you for the rest of my life." Jungkook says, his eyes soft as he stared down at the woman who meant more to him then life itself.

Y/n felt her heart beat quicken. Her feelings for Jungkook only grew stronger and they would continue to every single day.

"I like you Jungkook, a lot." Y/n whispers, her eyes closing. Jungkook smiled as he stared down at the beautiful girl below him.

"I like you a lot too, y/n." Jungkook smiled.

Y/n pulled Jungkook to her, wrapping her arms around his back as she kissed him.

Jungkook kissed back and began to make the first move, until they were both completely naked.

"You're so beautiful." Jungkook breathes as he admires y/n's naked body, loving every inch and curve.

He leaned down, burying his face in her neck where he left gentle kisses, causing y/n to shiver as she tangled her fingers into his hair.

When Jungkook pulled back, he reached over for a condom. Y/n could feel her nerves rise and yet she felt safe knowing it was Jungkook who would be doing this.

Jungkook slipped the condom on while y/n watched, blushing furiously.

"If you ever feel uncomfortable at any time just tell me to stop and I will." Jungkook says, his words serious.

Y/n swallowed and nodded. Jungkook leaned forward, pressing his lips to y/n's gently.

"It's gonna hurt." Jungkook says, moving back to look y/n in the eyes.

Y/n had known it would all along and she was nervous as hell but everyone did this eventually so how bad could it be really?

"It's okay." Y/n says, pulling Jungkook back in for a kiss. Jungkook was eager to kiss back.

Jungkook broke the kiss and readied himself. He waited for y/n to stop him but instead, she nodded, signaling him to continue.

Slowly, Jungkook placed himself between y/n's legs, spreading them apart.

Y/n's breathing hitched as she watched Jungkook. She could feel her nerves rising. Then came the slight pain.

"Ow-" y/n gasped as Jungkook slowly pushed into her. Jungkook stopped instantly.

"I'm sorry." Jungkook says. "I-it's okay. Keep going." Y/n says, knowing it would only hurt worse the longer they dragged it out.

Jungkook nodded slowly before moving his hips, trying to push all the way in.

Y/n choked back tears as she gripped onto Jungkook's bicep tightly. The pain she felt was awful. A stretching, burning pain.

"Are you okay?" Jungkook asked, brushing the hair gently out of y/n's eyes.

"It hurts." Is all y/n can manage out. "I know, I'm sorry." Jungkook says as he leans down to kiss her.

Y/n wrapped her arms around his neck, bringing him closer.

Jungkook kissed her deeper as he pushed himself all the way in, causing y/n to whimper against his lips.

Once Jungkook was fully in, he groaned, getting use to the feeling of y/n around him.

"Ah-" y/n hissed as Jungkook moved his hips. "Can I move fully?" Jungkook asked, his hips wanting to move naturally.

He wasn't use to being with someone he cared about, someone he wanted to be extra gentle with.

"Please." Y/n managed out, clinging to Jungkook's bicep. Jungkook intertwined his other hand with y/n's as he began to thrust.

Y/n moaned, squeezing his hand tighter. Right now that was the only thing bringing her no amount of pain.

Jungkook groaned as he rolled his hips, rocking further into y/n, causing her to whimper.

Right now Jungkook's mind was cloudy, filled with the feeling of pleasure and worry about y/n in this state.

As Jungkook looked down, he took in y/n's appearance. Her cheeks were flushed, her eyes squeezed shut as she clung him.

Leaning down, Jungkook brushed the hair out of y/n's face. All of the emotions would spill out without warning.

"Y/n, I love- fuck-." Jungkook says, his hips rolling into hers.

Jungkook was met with a cried moan as y/n pushed back against him, the pain fading away and turning into pleasure.

Jungkook groaned, the feeling in the pit of his stomach becoming stronger.

"Y/n, I'm-" But by then both of them were coming together, holding on to one another.

Both Y/n and Jungkook laid there, trying to catch their breaths. Y/n's head spun as she tried to recall what they had just done.

She was trying to wrap her head around what Jungkook had almost said...

"Are you feeling okay?" Jungkook asks, turning his head to look at y/n. Y/n didn't look over as she stared up at the ceiling.

"Y/n?" Jungkook questioned, concerned. "I-" Y/n stutters, still not looking over at him.

As Jungkook went to speak again, Y/n stood, hurrying towards the door. "Y/n, wait!" But y/n had already grabbed her things and ran out of the room, her emotions and thoughts becoming too much to handle.

"Fuck!" Jungkook groaned, slamming his fist down onto the bed. His heart hammered against his chest, fearing he had scared y/n off or ruined everything.

Jungkook was only thinking the worst and all he could think about was how scared he was to lose y/n, his everything.

...

Jungkook ~

Around a week or so had passed since what had happened and the vibe between y/n and I felt awkward.

The night everything happened, I lied awake thinking the absolute worst. I didn't want to imagine losing y/n, not over this.

I was beginning to regret everything. Was y/n really not ready and she was just trying to please me?

Before I could worry myself further, a faint sound of crying caught my attention.

I stood up quickly, making my way towards the sound. It was coming from inside the bathroom.

"Y/n? Are you okay?" I ask, knocking on the door. The crying stopped as if y/n had muffled it.

I wait for a moment before the door handle jiggles then the door opens, revealing a pale y/n, her eyes tired.

I noticed a certain smell right away. It reeked of vomit.

"What's wrong?" I ask, looking down at y/n with wide eyes. She looked up at me, her eyes filling with tears.

"Jungkook...I think I might be pregnant."

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