The beginning of this journey is going to be with my long pending introduction.

So i am Stela Bloom aka Stela which is my pen name and my real name is Baban. So i don't know if it is clear with my name but i am an Asian, so English is my second or you can say my third language but i have always liked English very much. I don't know, i have always been comfortable writing in english to express than my mother tongue. Its just always been something soothing or like i belong to this language more. It doesn't mean i don't respect my mother tongue because i really, really do and i want everyone to respect it but today's generation doesn't respect it much as it has been deeply engraved in our minds that without speaking and writing english, you are an illiterate person which is a ridiculous notion all in itself.

So it was a long rant. Moving on, i don't know if anyone is interesting in my story or sob story or i don't know but truth be told, its not been a very great 11 years of my life. Everything has gone downhill since my 7th grade.

Another day i was thinking, in these 11 years nothing particularly good has happened except meeting my best friend. Other than that, things had just gone down like if anything bad thing happened then next time something more bad than that happened like we see a graph going downwards but gradually. Everything has happened gradually and i can't complain but its sad in its own sense.

Life has not been kind. I know for most, life hasn't been the kindest being but still sometimes it feels like what's the purpose of all of this. Life has taught me so many things and i try to learn things each time so that i don't have to go through the same thing again for the lesson that life has been trying to teach me.

One thing i have learnt for sure that if we try to open our eyes and see nature and every day happenings, there will be so many things we can learn and not just repeatedly making same mistakes again and again but not many people understand that.

I think i am boring you all with my philosophies but i had always wanted to help people whenever they are in need of a advice or just want to confide in somebody so that they can finally talk and there is somebody to listen and i am all ears.

Sometimes i think life has shown me so many things in just a short period of time that a bone-aching tiredness wash over me but its the part of journey, isn't it?

But i hope someday it's all worth it but other than all this depressive thoughts i am trying to see which journey will lead me to pursue my dreams of books and my strange wishes of opening a cafe or a brunch place or something like that; i just want to do a business following those lines.

God, i feel like what i am writing is so boring and depressing. Sorry guys, i guess this rant or personal introduction has gone a bit long but other than that, live your life the way you want and decide what you want to do because your life can only be shaped and moulded the way you decide and nobody else's.

So on this note, good luck and see you soon on the legitimately first post of this blog.

P.s.: what do you think the first post of blog will be about? Tell me your guesses.

P.p.s: the song above is a new one by Passengers, just a few months old but its a lovely one and the message in the song is the one want fo give everybody which is that you all are perfect just the way you are. Always remember that. ❤️

~Stela