#DAY 5

Every morning when i wake up i say to myself...Should i open my eyes?? What difference will it make even if i will!!

Then i feel...My life is not worth. I should die. I am just a burden on my family.

These were my thoughts when i was a child, my thoughts are still the same but now i dont think that i should die. God has given me life, so i should respect it and live. What if i cant see?? I am sure that one day i will see this world for sure.

But one thing still stings me,

Whose fault it was when my mother died?? MINE

Whose fault it was when my father died? MINE

Whose fault it is that my brother is so stressed?? MINE

Jia unnie is stuck with me everytime, whose fault it is?? MINE

Every bad thing that happens? Whose fault it is?? MINE

That person bumped into me, even if he had two eyes, i think, but still whose fault it was?? MINE

WHERE DO YOU THINK YOU WERE LOOKING?? ARE YOU BLIND OR WHAT!!

ARE YOU BLIND OR WHAT!!

ARE YOU BLIND!

ARE YOU BLIND!

ARE YOU BLIND!

Meera throwed the stuff toy in her hand on ground aggressively when Jungkook's word rang in her mind again and again.

From last three days, she was the same. Crying, not eating, depressed and what not!!

"Its my fault, its my fault, its my fa-"

"Its not your fault meera, how many times should i tell you. Stop thinking these nonsense things" jia said when she entered her room.

Meera can easily notice the familiar irritation in her voice that she is hearing from last so many years, count of those years, even she don't know or better don't want to know.

Poor soul didn't even notice when her unnie got inside. She shuffled on her bad a little to give jia some space to sit. "Unnie you back, are you okay, you safe?"

"I am safe, but they followed me again today" jia spoke with a sigh.

"Is this what happens when you help someone?? You helped her from those boys and now the gang of boys is following you! Shouldn't you complain to police?? Should i talk to orabeoni (older brother) about this?" Meera asked with a questioning look on her face.

"No no meera, don't tell him, i will do something about this!"

"You will?? For sure??"

Jia tried her best to not let that hesitation in her voice lend in meera's ears. "I will"

"Okay unnie"

A smile formed on jia's face when she noticed the food plate kept empty on nightstand, which she left for meera to eat.

Will she agree?? "You ate??"

"Hmm" she nodded with a small smile.

Will she agree?? "Now you feeling better??"

"Hmm"

Will she agree?? "Will you forgive him??"

The third question sounded so low voiced and a careful one, meera who was caught in the flow, hmm-ed at first but then looked with a confused expression. "What? Who?"

Jia couldn't find out whether meera clearly not know whom she was talking about or she is not trying to know.

"M-meera, what if that person who bumped into you, come to you and apologises for what he said that day?? What will you do?? Will you forgive him??" Jia asked carefully, remembering about the promise she made to jimin.

Meera thought for a while and asked "why do you feel so??"

Calming down herself jia told everything that happened with her today. How she met jimin, how he asked her politely a favour, how she rejected angrily, how then he narrated his brother Jungkook's pathetic state, how he mentioned his blind sister, how he begged on his knees, and finally how she partially agreed.

The thing she did not mention was taehyung, his cold and angry gaze, his raged and rude words, the fact that he mentioned...know your limits, his claims that she put up an act?, but the truth he mentioned...i am not her mother.

Oh how she felt a little happy that meera cannot notice her tear, that slipped out the moment she remembered his cold words.

The thought bothering her...are they even brothers? One so humble and other...leave it!! Actually who are these brothers?? He said 'you dont know who we are?' Exactly who they are??

Jimin-ssi was so polite all the time, his smile when he helped me, his happy introduction, his expression when i didn't accepted his handshake, his carefulness while he asked for favour, his pure tears flowing for his brother, his glowing eyes when i agreed, speaking the truth, it made my heart flutter. No one ever treated me like this. I am a servant and this kind of politeness, i was touched. it's just that i didn't show it on my face at that time.

Seeing that Taehyung's behaviour i would have never agreed, but jimin-ssi, i think i can trust him. Little did she know, the moment she started to think about jimin, she was smiling.

On the other hand meera's mind was fighting inside,

Should i meet him?

Will he really apologise?

What if he hurt you?

What if he don't?

What if he insults you more?

What if he don't?

What if orabeoni get to know about him? He will surely kill him.

If you be careful, he will not. Remember the guy, jungkook didn't complete his words.

But what he said was enough to shatter you.

He is also crying like you...

May be its fake.

He is also depressed like you...

Maybe his brother is lying.

He feels the same as you because he has a sister too who cannot see...

Maybe his brother made up a story.

He must not be that bad...

What if he is bad.

Maybe he had some reasons to say that.

Their can be no reasons to say someone such rude words.

Remember what father used to say...Everyone gets one chance in their life...why dont you give him a chance...

"Unnie, although i was hurt at first, infact i am hurt right now too but still i will meet him...i will give him a chance....
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I agree"

...To be continued

I met some really lovely people here on wattpad.
taehyungloveforever
She is a writer too.
And is writing a taehyung fanfiction. I hope you read it.

More lovely peoples i will introduce in next chapters😊😊

I mentioned the thought of killing yourself in this chapter and in one previous chapter too...i want to share an incident:

When i reached college i noticed one of my friend was covering her left hand with a hankerchief. When asked about it she said "aise hi, fashion hai (just like it, its a fashion)"
My other friends didn't notice and believed her but i noticed some little blood marks on her hand. When i finally exposed her, she got slapped by my other friend for lying.

We opened her hankerchief and found 10 deep, fresh cut on her wrist, which she made last night only with a blade.

And the reason to do so shook me: "her boyfriend didn't contact her for complete one day".

I was like seriously...thats your reason. You didn't think about anyone else, not your parents and not your family...even not about yourself.

She said "yahi pyar hai, tum nai samjhogi, qyunki tumne kabhi pyar nai kiya (this is only love, you will not understand, because you never loved anyone)"

I didn't say anything to her but one thing was sure.

#1 her boyfriend was definitely not loyal...cause when we called him and told him about cuts...he didn't show up to comfort her.

#2 even if i fall in love...i will still care about myself...and more than that about my parents.

Thats it.😊