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Nicolla's POV :

It's been a month since James had visited and he's been doing it occasionally. He did also stay overnight on some days if the wheather is bad, which that will leads him to suffer out in lack of senses while walking.

Being unsighted is hard and as I know, James is pretty used of it while being just months away from being blind.

He explained me stories of how he became blind and how hurtful that it could be, knowing that he lost his sight after a mere accident. I sympathize him but I knew that he hated it.

I'm used to his visit right now and that's why I'm making this favourite dish of his.

Little Jordy, on the other side, was the most calmest and a helping hand for me. Being just a 3 year old, never stops him to be such a handful little man who insisted to join me in any things around the house.

He would be always like, "Mama, let me help you. ", that would be his statement everytime when he sees me working around the house. At the preschool, everyone had this roughly thoughts about us being together all the time and I even advised Jordy's teachers to let me know any update about Jordy that they usually do to the parents.

He's my son, thats what I would tell them if they questioned me pointedly. Of course, they were surprised to see this black woman with a white boy while claiming each other to be mother and son, but who gives damn about it?

I wouldn't even like it to add the word 'adopted' while claiming him as mine and let that be as it is. Legally, he's my baby boy and I'm his mama.

There's this single gentle knock on the door that took me out of my trance as I was finishing the dining table. I knew it for sure that it's James by the way he knocks, he did it that way all the time so that's noticable.

"Mama, uncle James is here. " Little Jordy yelled in excitement as he ran up to me.

Jordan loves this man so much and I wonder what would they talk all the time secretly. They are like this father and son that never gives anything to the surrounding. Little Jordy get to know well about James's condition and he's so proud to be James special tour guider around everywhere we go.

We would visit the park together all the weekend and Jordan had never failed to be alike the sight for James. My little boy is the sweetest, most gold hearted ever.

"Can you help mama to open the door, Jordy? " I said softly and there comes his, "Alright, mama. "

I was still settling the dining table for dinner and there comes this two, holding hands while chuckling onto something.

"Good evening, my lady. " James greeted me in that accent as he bowed a little. I giggled at his usual way to greet me and yes, he started to greet me that way since two weeks before.

"Good evening James...urmm...I had already prepared the food, so if you want to have dinner now...then we could dig in straight away. " After all this days mingling with James, I still found this coyness around him. He would rather stand closer to me, like super close, whenever we speak and it's an usual routine for him to kiss me goodbye. I mean, on the forehead of course.

But, still....I would have this shivers and lump of electricity running through my spine if he ever came closer. He, on the other hand, seems to be every casual about it but only I know of what's he doing to me.

I could finally say that after spending almost a month with this man, I like him. I have never known things of how it feels to like someone, but I could say roughly that I really want this man around me. Around us, actually.

Although, I would never stop thinking of how come a guy like him would like someone which is like me? What if when he got the sight, he would later disgust me?

I can't risk myself to get broken and the baby with me is very obvious to be close with him. Again, what if he know that I'm just this big chubby black woman who used to never feel loved?

"Hey, you zoned out again. " My hair behind my neck raised up as someone whispered this to me and I was brought back to my senses when I notice him right behind me. His cane placed on the side of the table as his hands now trailing up on mine.

Not in sexual way but comforting one actually.

My breath choked on my throat as I felt him leaning in from the side of my neck and as I turned to face him, he placed this soft kiss on my forehead.

Why are you even doing this now?

"You okay? " James questioned with concern flashing over his face.

"Y-Yes....I'm just...thinking something else. I'm sorry, but can you repeat it to me again? " I asked softly as I pulled away a little from him. I saw this look of pain running through his face as I moved away and he quickly masked it.

Could he ever want me too?

"Mama, uncle James said that he would be eating now with us. " Jordy chimed as he stared up at me.

"Oh, so let's have dinner then. " I cheered as I moved away completely to the other side, so that I could have some distance between us. Remember, I can't risk my heart.

He's just a friend who I likes to get used to be around, I thought to myself and I picked Jordy to settle him in the chair next to me.

James had sat down on the one which is right beside him and he was only giving this small smile all the time when we were eating. It's never been this silence while eating before, as both the boys would be interacting anything incoherently towards each other.

But today, it seems to be only Jordy who initiated to talk while James would smile or chuckle along. I didn't compliment or response over the food that I cooked either and that's pretty awkward for me to go on like that.

Did I hurt his feelings? I know, thats rude of me to move away like that and I have never done that before. I would just wait till he moves voluntarily as I will be enjoying our proximity but today, I didn't. I just jerked off so that I could get a distance from him.

"Jordy, I have something to ask you buddy. " James sudden confession startled me as we were munching our dinner.

"Yes, uncle James. " Jordy yelled through with his mouth filled with food and I giggled at my boy.

"Would you go on a birthday party with me? I don't want to be alone there and I really wanted to introduce you with others. " James explains as if I wasn't needed with him and that hurt me. He is still eating and his head was directed to Jordy only.

"Yeah! A party. I never went for a party before. " Jordy jolted in joy as he placed his spoon down on his plate.

I decided to stay quiet as I don't want to bother their conversation and it's pretty clear that James ignoring me, since he's been doing everything without even calling out for me. Which is usual of him, but now, he seems to avoid my existence.

Even after the dinner when we were grouped in the living room, he was only pouring attention to Jordy. No closeness, no flirting, no smiling and no calling my name either.

Soon, the time flies and it was his time to leave. He was on the door, as he opens the door knob and he gave a peck on Jordy's cheek before putting him down.

"Be ready, this Saturday at 7 little guy. We will take a cab from here alright. " James informed in his unusual tone and it was hurting really badly.

"Mama, why don't you say anything? We can go, right? " Jordy, who's now in my arm, started to poke on my face as he questions me worriedly.

Oh, my poor baby.

"Of course, your going baby. " I cooed him and Jordy, flashed me a look of confusion. This little man is getting something now. I know that smart little brain.

"Mama not going with us? " Jordy questioned and I stood there, out of word about what to reply. Well, I wasn't needed for James and my baby boy clearly won't leave me like that so what should I reply?

In a quick act, James who's been next to the door, was right close to us. I can't read his emotions because I couldn't get to read his eyes yet his face, but I could say that he's serious. Like, really serious about what's he going to do.

"Little Jordy, surely Mama's coming. She's my date, after all. " James said in that kiddy tone to Jordy as he strokes his hair and there came his gesture, directed to me. I was stunned to be feelings everything around me.

I'm...going to be his date?

His arm trailed in a motion from my wrist to my arm, then super slowly from my shoulder to my neck and he placed his gentle fingers beneath my chin. Pulling my face closer to his, he leaned in and my breath choked on my throat.

Is he going to kiss me? Am I going to get my first kiss? My fantasy like thoughts, stopped as I felt his smooth lips on my forehead.

"I will be coming for you both. " James whispered as he pulled away and just disappeared behind that door while stretching out his cane.