This chapter is pretty longer than others so buckle up people!

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Nicolla's POV:

"Tomorrow I want you all to bring me those items, alright? " I asked my class and they sang this cute 'thank you' rhyme that I taught them in the last class.

I smiled at them as they walked out happily after the bell rang. I pack up my stuff from the desk and glanced at the class one last time before leaving.

"Mama, I'm here. " Jordy came running to me and I pinched his cheeks as we started walking our way out of the pre school's building, hand in hand.

We reached the train station in minutes by walking and as soon as I came to my platform, I saw him. Sitting there with his head rested on his cane.

I stood rooted in my spot as I looked at the man, who literally put my feelings in a very questionable way since yesterday night.

"It's him, mama. " Jordy pointed at him and that made James to jerk his head at our direction.

I don't want to be rude and even though, I know that he was telling me the truth, I get to believe that he wants me.

We need to talk, a serious talk for sure. So, I let myself wander in his mystery background.

I walked closer to him with Jordy on my hand, looking us both tentatively as he have this question mark face.

"Nicolla, I'm sorr- "

"James, we need to talk. Yes. But not here, not now. Your coming back home with me. Is that okay? " I asked with that encouragement in me as I was waiting for a compromise like of an answer.

He nodded and we three hopped in the next train. We got out together and straight away made it to my house.

James decided to stay put in the living room and I freshen up myself with Jordan along.

I heated the lunch I cooked today and we had dinner briefly.

James played with Jordy and I decided to clean up the kitchen before settling down to hear the story behind this man.

When I was done, Jordy was already gazing at me with the sleepy doe eyes. I know this cue so I acted upon it and took little Jordy to the bed. Tugging in the sheets as I kissed his cheek, he doze away quickly.

I return back to the living room, which is now remains only me and James. He peered at my direction and I sat beside him on the couch.

Fingers dancing nervously as I clears my throat to began the talking.

"Nicolla, I'm so sorry. I really didn't mean to keep it up from you, it's just I....I don't want to lose you but, then, I don't want to keep up anything either. " James explains, his voice as slow and steady as he inhaled every fresh breath in the living room.

"I'm in love with you, Nicolla. And, that's the main reason for me to keep this is up from you....I was afraid, like now you see....your not even talking to me like usual since yesterday. I-I couldn't bear it to lose both of you in my life. After so long, I felt like I'm living for a reason and that's only because of you both. " he continued, his voice cracking as he bowed his head to the floor.

He's tearing, I can see that and my heart bleeds to evident this. He's already in my mind, heart, soul and everything yet, even though, he didn't uttered the full story, I wanted to still give in.

This man has admitted that he's in love with me and I believe him with all my heart that he might never leave me for anything.

"James, I love you too. " I confessed as a sob passed through me, my body moving itself closer to him and I embraced him tightly.

"We are never leaving you. I believe in you and you should know that I...I really didn't mean to behave that way since yesterday. I was just surprised so I didn't know what to do. " I added as he slides me into his chest. Enveloping me in this warm hug with his arms.

"Everything is new for me, James, literally everything that revolves around me is new. You, Jordy, this motherhood life, this feelings and all....it makes me feel special while, once upon a time, I used to feel as nothing but a piece of waste to live in without no one to love me. " My cries get the best out of me but he kept me composed with his arms, soothing me with head kisses as I wanted to spill every bean in me.

"Later, a miracle happens and I get a baby boy....and when he calls me mama, I felt the real love that I have been eager to seek for. After that, I met you....you give me feelings that I didn't imagine to feel before and I knew that I'm falling way too hard for you. It was amazing. " I recalled the miracles that happened in my life and I'm already smiling with rolling tears from my eyes.

"I wanted to be with you. I really do want us to be together. But, I cant be with a guy who's already engaged to another woman, I can't steal another woman's man. I don't know why your not wearing any kind of ring in your fingers, I can't even comprehend with an answer to clear this confusion. But, it's your choice to explain things and I'm all here to listen till your ready. " I sniffled and pulled away from him. Inhaling a deep breath as I swallowed the lump in my throat.

I couldn't be more insecure of my life right now and I couldn't even push him to talk about this further. I will wait till he opens up fully and I can only hope that it wouldn't change anything in between us.

"Are you staying over? " I asked him as I wiped the tears away.

I was about to stand up, but his firm hand caught onto my lap while cuing me to sit back down.

His back sat straight as he faces me and there's this light of confidence yet determine running over his face. Am I reading his right?

"I need to assure you, Nicolla. I need to assure you that I'm yours but not other woman's. Yes, I'm engaged but it's upon my will. "

Flashback;

"I'm not your mother and stop calling me like that in public. "she sneered and sat beside the tea table.

"Excruciating, why do you have to be such a burden in my life. If only your stupid father hasn't left his will over you, I don't need to bear with you any longer. " she continued and walks around the table to me.

Her fair short height leaning up to me as I stood tall over her, her fingers balling up in fist as she glares me.

"Now, don't you dare deny marrying her. She's our only safe guard to cope the company and your the only bait right now. Won't you do it for your father's property? " she said in that evil filled tone as a mischievous smile played on her lips and she walked away, slamming the door behind.

I love my father more than anything and when he left us with his will onto me, everything changed. My now devil stepmother had took over me since years and I couldn't do any better to stop her cruelty.

I know, she hates me. But she couldn't leave me alone too. I was sixteen when my father died and I didn't even know who's my mother was, I don't really care though because I really didn't get the need to know when there's a man, working hard while sacrificing his whole life for us to survive.

Unfortunately, when I was 14 , he met my stepmother, Katie. She's one of his business partner's daughter and they quickly get married a year after, yet, straight away I know in the first meet itself that she hates me. She hates all my doing but would pretend to be the good wife infront him.

He fell for it and I didn't bother to expose her either, because I knew that's he was happy with her. So, I accepted. I accepted all of her deeds and behaviours.

After my father's absence, Katie took over the company for years till I turned 21, because that's how the will is. Right after I reached the age, I was given the ruined and drenched company, which is in debt by now.

I had to put 4 years of my life, working hard to put the company back in place but there's this disaster again. A crisis of bankruptcy that harden me to put up with my business and there's no one to support me beneficially till my credit report improves.

Katie had done nothing but mocked me everyday that I'm the reason behind this. I know for sure that, it wasn't me but the devil herself and I shoved off her, while paying no time to such an entity.

Suddenly, a proposal came in, which is exactly a golden opportunity to my company but, the only thing is, it's a proposal for my life.

I couldn't even live for myself, live for my happiness, then how am I going to marry another and make her happy?

But, she's the only safe guard for now so I didn't had much choice but to agree for this.

Months later, I got engaged with Silvanna, a famous super model and one of the most top hotel's business man's daughter, who's really keen to marry off his daughter to me. For once, I was really used to her flirty talking and we get along good but I know that's something off between us.

And, I would just calm down myself while reminiscing that it's for the sake of my company and not anything else.

We stayed engaged for years, due to her modelling career that extended the wedding and I really do grew to like her, but then, I caught her cheating on me.

I got devastated as I saw my soon to be bride making love with some other guy on my bedroom.

Everything seems to hurt me and that when I realise that nothing's real around me. I'm not even living the life I wanted to be and I don't have a reason at all.

That night when I found the big truth in me, I made it to my favourite relaxing spot. The spot where I find peace and I sat there all night long, sizing my fingers over those huge buildings which was like a pea right in my hand.

By the time I got out of some grief, I walked to my car and sped it up at the very first picking point yet, that's when I collide into the opposite car.

I wailed in pain for hours, unknown of what had happened to me and every seconds in the pain, my mind was only questioning me the reason to live my life more and there's nothing behind me.

I didn't close my eyes but I could already see darkness as I started to hear the ambulance's siren going on.

Weeks later, the doctor confirmed me that I had survived the accident but end up losing my sight.

What's the use of taking my eyes away? Why doesn't it work on taking my life too? I thought with a sad smile as I began joining the braille and practical classes.

Surprisingly, the accident seems to be happen in mystery and no one knows that I had met with an accident because I saw this news broadcasting going on, saying that I went missing and that sent me a bulb of light in my mind.

I needed some time for myself. I needed some peace from all of this so I decided to leave everything behind. I create on a will to conduct the credit report of my company as usual and secretly make it happen through the lawyers yet they agreed, on one condition that when I got my sights back, I should return to my company.

I agreed straight away and that's the end of the day of my life as a CEO, but a starting point as an ordinary blind man.

I wondered around that new world of darkness but I enjoyed it, because I got to feel the real world behind it. The struggles, the pain, the hard work and all, I felt it through my disability as I felt new.

Soon, I got into a job and began working as everyone does. Going into public transport and bumping into the strangers accidentally everyday had conquered well in me, yet soon after, I smelled the beauty.

I fell for the sweet scent, that I couldn't let go till now.....

"......and I got the greatest reason to live again. Which is only you and our little guy. "he completed and pulled me in a hug.

I was flabbergasted, for sure and he got through so many in his life. No wonder he's this strong after such an accident, that questioned his own living.

"I love you baby. I love you both so much. I know that I should return back to my old self by the time I got my sight, but then, I wouldn't be working like I had nothing behind like before....because I know that I will have you both by my side and that's what matters. " James continued as his arms came up to graze on my face, stroking my cheeks very delicately.

I insisted something for the first time as I connected our lips together and I wrapped my arms around him while he pulled me closer.

"I love you too, James. Remember that we always have your back. " I mumbled as we pulled away and I return back to snuggle onto his chest.

Nothing bothers me anymore. Less insecurity and more love right now.