"If I could turn back time, I want to be the best guy in the world."-Jin
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Autophile: a person who loves solitude, being alone

As soon as I arrived home, I've been feeling this kind of sensational heat, I started to sweat as nervousness takes over.

The girl... jeez...this is going to be a tough year for me then...crap.

*kring* *kring*

My phone rung... it was Joon, I quickly answered it and he told me that he saw the girl that she was eating alone at lunch time. Literally I don't care about her... if I just went to the right room, I wouldn't even met her in an unexpected way.

Sighing, throwing my phone across the bed as I flopped on my bed closing my eyes. Taking a deep breath... I feel calmer and more refreshed.

Pervert...Pervert...it's you huh. The Pervert one.

Her voice was stuck in my mind-blowing chills under my spine. Her voice was so annoying that I have to cover my ears in nuisance, but it's no use since the voice didn't actually come from her mouth, it's basically in my mind. And it's hard to control these feels, ever since I got blinded.

It was my fault anyways... I've always blamed myself for being blind, it's actually my fault though, even though my Auntie have told me that it was the girl's fault not mine.

I promised her... and yet that night she died, and I am the only one that survived that leaves scars in my memory.

It was midnight when Soon-hae's friends invited her to join a party that Soon-hae brag about me coming with her and have some fun. After getting drunk, a little hour of sleep we decided to come home as soon as possible. She's still drunk as she continuously drank the whole bottle of wine that she brought from the club. She started bickering and saying inappropriate things that distracted me that made me lose concentration on the road. She was yelling words, like the way she always felt towards me, every time I'm with her, that she always feels sick whenever she's with me. She told me I'm disgusting that she said yes because of money, because my family is rich. And our parents want to join their company together. That totally broke my heart and she happened to yell at me to stop the car. In which I didn't obeyed, her rage took over... she tried to take the steering wheel, when all of a sudden, we happened to crashed into a goddamn tree...

I didn't saw her flew out the windshield because the glass already hurt my eyes, the rescuers was the one who told me that she flew out due to force and for breaking the law by not locking her seat belts on. They told me, that I was lucky that only my sight was damaged, if worse, I could have severe injuries and broken bones or worse I could've died.

Ever since my sight was taken... I still do blame myself, cause of driving the road not fully sober. And it was my fault too that she died, because of not reminding her to buckle her seat belt on. I loved her...I still do after what she said... she was drunk, she doesn't intend to say it... right?

However, my other relatives disagree and told to Soon-hae's parents that it was their daughters' fault. They kept arguing about it, until I had to stop it.

I never got to tell my aunt that she told me awful and terrible things. I don't want them to know anything about the arrange marriage that our parents did.

It was an awful memory... that I don't want to remember ever again.

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Wearing my pink sweater with my black ripped jeans and high-top converse, I roam the streets with the guide of my walk stick and my black shades. I really don't bother of others judge me. They don't know the real story anyways. However, People have asked me how in the world I can be fashionable if I don't see anything? I am an organized man and I do know where to choose since I love organizing things myself ever since I got blinded.

But my aunt wanted my eyes to get fixed as soon as I'm ready... guess I'm still not ready to face reality itself.

Walking pass some coffee shops, one coffee shop caught my attention, the smell of aroma mixed with dark and strong fragment of coffee scent caught my attention. I took the opportunity to visit the coffee shops and order some.
"What is your order sir?" The familiar voice asked, I kept my head down. Not wanting to make eye contact, cuz I'm blind...

"Could you tell me your best and tastiest coffee around here. With the strong scent of aroma." I said, while fidgeting. The girl handed me a hard disk that is probably the menu.

"Um, sir we have a native coffee with cream and sugar and without cream, Espresso, Late, Cappuccino with and without whipped cream. What would you like to order sir?." The girl said. I handed the menu back. Nodding once.

"I'd like Espresso. it sounds nice." I said pulling out my billfold out to pay.

"That would be fifty-five dollars sir." The girl said, I handed my credit card.

"What's your name sir?"

"Jin." I said faking my name since I really don't want to call out my real name.

I sat on the nearest table by the counter and waited for my name to be called.

After a few moments. My name got called and I held my head up high, took off my shades and smelled the coffee... then I heard this familiar gasped. My eyes widen ad it was similar to the classroom scenery.

I heard a couple of footsteps and I can sense she was in front of me. I can feel her leaning in as her breath touches my cheek.

"Pervert." She whispered and she scooted away after that.

I had a terrible experience in that coffee shop. I'd like to go back there, but because of her...

I will never go there to buy their amazing coffee again. I left out a loud sighed as I walked home finishing up the coffee.

As soon as I entered my house... I feel more comfortable and calmer.

And a clung of pans was heard in the kitchen. I held my stick up in the air, slowly walking to my kitchen sightless.

"H-hello? Who's there!?" I shouted dumbfounded and sightless to see who was inside my house. If it was an intruder than I might just die right now and then...

Waiting for the intruder to finish me... instead of stabbing or punching... someone hopped on my back and hugged my head tightly causing me to stumble backwards cuz of lack of oxygen he was giving me.

"Ji!" I yelled out his name as his scent and toned biceps wraps around my head.

"How did you know?"

"First of all, I have a high security on my door lock and only you and Joon are the only one who knows my passcode, secondly you're almost weightless, and thirdly I could feel your toned biceps that was still wrapped against my head." I explained he laughed, while patting my back and mess my hair.

"Gwenchana?" I heard Ji asked. A hint of worried rung in my ears.

"Yeah... why?" I asked indeed I feel fine but it keeps me questioning why would he asked something that is obvious. I'm healthy and I'm feeling quite great yet scared of what I encountered earlier in the shop.

"You look paler... have you been doing drugs lately?" He noticed. But I ain't taking drugs. Why would he think of that!? Is it because im blind?

"No! I'm not a drug addict." I asserted, stating the fact that i don't do drugs.

"Then what's wrong with your black eye bags, and chapped lips?" Ji asked as if worried but not surprised.

"I had a lifetime nightmare." I replied telling my best friend that I encountered the worst nightmare of my life that beseech me. Probably hunt my entire life.

"Why?" Ji asked he had already sat on the couch.

"Remember the girl who called me Pervert once, she was there in the coffee shop working, where I bought my coffee. I was so nervous and scared of her." I let out a sighed as the younger did so.

"I bet she had a crush on you hyung." Ji said teasing me.

"Yah! Why are you calling me hyung!? It makes me feel old when you call me hyung." I whined, I heard him laugh. I just rolled my eyes and we talked for the rest of the night.

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Done!!! Ill update Tom! If I have free time!! Cause I'm watching the Teen wolf season one again. And this is there tenth time watching the whole series again. Hehehehehe