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i hate him

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i hate him so fucking much

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god

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jimin?

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i dont know what im doing anymore hyung

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i dont know why im doing it

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i want out i want out i want out

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i hate him i hate him so much

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jiminie are you okay?

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just fantastic

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jimin

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are you crying?

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youre a goddamn psychic hyung you know that

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what happened?

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he just

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im in some deep deep shit because of him

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and he doesnt even c a r e

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are you crying because of the shit you're in?

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or because he doesn't care?

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he doesnt care

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jeongguk, right?

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the one and fucking only

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it's okay

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take a breather for a sec

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now just talk to me about it, okay? it always feels good to vent

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i dont want to talk about it

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i want to eat ice cream and bawl my goddamn eyes out about it

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well get your box of tissues and ice cream

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because you can do that too

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i love you hyung

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i love you too

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now tell me

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where do i even start like theres so muc h and

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it's okay, just go ahead

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god ok jeongguk wants to do something fucking stupid and he wont listen to any reason whatsoever and he's desperate hyung hes so desperate and i can relate to that but hes just being really. freaking. dumb. but i do want to help him, i just dont want him to leave me yet ok? but he's making this so goddamn difficult for me and and i dont know how much longer im going to last but if i end this it'll just be OVER, just like that, and a month from now ill be blaming this all on myself but itll be too late by then bc he wont come back EVER, and ill never be able to forgive myself if that happens so i have to hang on but it's just getting so. fucking. difficult i just

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is he giving you trouble?

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oh you have no idea

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its like just when he starts being vaguely nice, i say something and he just changes so fucking drastically? and then we're suddenly fighting again and im eating ice cream again and my nose is running again and wow im gross

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maybe it's my fault? like i say the dumbest things sometimes, oh my god this is all my fault i

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jimin no stop

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eat a spoonful of ice cream...

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yeah

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how does it taste?

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its nice

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that's good

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how do you feel?

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better

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now breathe...

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im breathing

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there we go!

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now jimin,

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nothing is your fault.

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alright?

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yeah

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when you talk with jeongguk, you must always remember to be the calm, composed person in the conversation

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if you lose your composure, he's either going to lose his too or just ignore your messages

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those are certain things you just have to deal with

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i cant

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im tired

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then why do you deal with it?

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just don't, your heart knows he's not worth it

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no hyung, my heart is in fucking love with him

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what

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wh

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IM DONE IM SO DONE IM NEVER TEXTING AGAIN WHY DO I KE E P DOINGTHI S

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jimin i'm sorry did you just say

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love

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hyung i just

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i dont know okay?

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i dont know what this feeling is anymore

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are people this obsessed with their crushes to the extent that whatever the hell the person they like says or does to them, they just keep blaming the whole thing on themselves and crawling right back?

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is this a crush hyung?

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please let this just be a crush

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i don't know what to say

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thats

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not a good sign

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but it's jeongguk

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you can't possibly

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i mean he's just so....s o

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please dont tell him?

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but like it's barely been a week since you

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and

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how

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???????

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i dont know

SEOKJINX
let me rephrase

SEOKJINX
let's assume this is a crush, just to make things easier

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now what exactly is it that you like about him?

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honestly not that much lol

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go ahead

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well

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when we were in the dark, as in before i SAW him, he was just really nice yk? whatever the hell i did he managed to say something that made my heart flutter, hyung my heart DEADASS FLUTTERED ITS NEVER DONE THAT BEFORE. and im horrible at making conversation with ppl but he just dragged it out of me in a really pleasant way? like things were never remotely awkward and im even awkward with my own reflection ok. i was so nervous and scared and jittery but he just put me completely at ease with his beautiful, god such a beautiful laugh. and hyung....he was. a. child. such a child oHMYGOSHKXMKJ it was so endearing i wanted to die on the spot but then he suddenly changed into this mature guy spouting romantic shit and i almost screAMEd bc he was holding my hand and he has a really...nice....hand.....so warm and soft and comforting and ive needed it in my life, i have needed. jeongguk's hand. all my life. i need jeongguks hand fuck

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woah jimin that's

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but then i did see him and oh boy i knew i was fucked bc. he was. ethereal. he had the most beautiful doe eyes hyung they were so deep and brown and large and they were looking straight at me and i couldnt think at all,,,, and his smile, GOD. i thought his laugh would kill me but its the goddamn smile hyung, that's how im going to die right there. his features were so soft yet his jawline looked like it could kill ok also his hair was so goddamn FLUFFY i just wanted to run my fingers through it why didnt i run my fingers through it uGHDJXMNKJDN not to mention he was super tall and fit but at the same time he looked like he was the kind of guy who'd wrap you in blankets and hug you till you fell asleep while singing into your ear, idk i just get the feeling that he can sing ????

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ok yeah i get the idea

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hello??????

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and sure our exchange in daylight wasnt very pleasant but that was partly my fault bc i was being pretty rude myself but hyung thats the thing, i didnt MIND the way he was being. i didnt MIND arguing with him. bc even when he was mad at me i just kept dying a little inside at every goddamn thing he did. and get thiS when things got a little better he started smiling again and joking around and fuck i even saw him BLUSH. and i didnt mind that EITHER. i didnt mind anything at all, not ONE THING he did, apart from the fact that he was killing me, slowly but surely, in the most amazing way possible but hey you know what? i didnt even mind that bc i enjoyed every. fucking. second. and i would do it all over again. i WANT to do it all over again. i want jeongguk to call me cute and try to make me laugh all over again, i want to crane my neck back to look up at him and see him looking right back down all over again, god hyung i want jeongguk to be in love with me, just for that stupid half an hour in the dark, all. over. again.

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so yeah thats about it ?? ig

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jimin

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you're so

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freaking

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IN LOVE

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it's not L O V E GROSS

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i just

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wow i really like him huh?

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YOU DON'T SAY

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JESUS CHRIST JIMIN

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but you know what

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it doesn't matter

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ive pretty much ruined it anyway

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i kinda exploded on him and said some really horrible things,,, that i DID mean wholeheartedly but just, i shouldnt have said them yknow

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hey he had it coming tbh

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yeah well

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i doubt he even wants my help anymore so i can just..forget about it

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no

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no way

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be rational hyung cmon

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ok so even if he somehow miraculously forgives me, whats the point of it all?

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jeongguk does that

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does what

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asking for a goddamn point for everything. it's annoying as hell

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maybe he's got a

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point

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like consider the scenario right,, he is with SOMEONE ELSE

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(that he's never met before in his life)

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A GIRL

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(pretty sure he's not straight?)

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THAT HE'S IN LOVE WITH

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(*that he thinks he's in love with)

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hyung stop

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(you know i'm right though)

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look i dont need any false hope right now okay?

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you need all the hope you can get jimin, and i'm telling you it's not false

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i

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hyung i do care about him

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im not going to sabotage their relationship

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nobody's asking you to

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just bear through it and help jeongguk as much as you can, right?

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because i honestly doubt jeongguk and that girl are going to last long

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they lasted six months

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yes, but through chat

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face to face jeongguk is a bit

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how do i put this

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shy

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jEONGGUK SHY ARE YOU SERIO U S THATS SUCHA CUTE CONCEPT

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which is why the fact that the two of you didn't have a single awkward moment is....NOTABLY odd for him

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what ??? are u suggesting

SEOKJINX
nothing

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okay..

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but what do i do now ??

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should i message him and apologize or something ???

SEOKJINX
no need

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he'll apologize himself

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jeongguk's honestly a softie jimin, trust me i know

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you've only seen his worst

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THATS his worst?

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well damn

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i'm in for a ride arent i?

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you sure as hell are kid