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"Why did he grab you like that?" Harry finally ask. He hoped at Louis will tell him the truth at all costs.

Louis takes in a deep breath, fidgeting a lot, before speaking. "Jake and I met when I was eight, and he was thirteen. We were friends since, elementary school. Then I realized I had a crush on him when I was ten years old, he was fifteen." Louis explains.

"I didn't really have the best childhood growing up. My parents were divorced, and um, my dad- he um," Louis pauses to keep himself from stuttering further.

Harry had a feeling what Louis was going to say next, but he did he want to interrupt the older man.

"He wasn't the best. He was abusive, and the friends he had with him, weren't the best either." Louis confesses.

Harry is stunned at what Louis is telling him. He wanted Louis to stop speaking so he can hug the boy tightly and protect him with everything he has.

"One night, Jake was over at my house and we were talking about life and what the plans in the future will be. My dad walked in and gave me a glass of juice, I drank the juice, and I blacked out after a few minutes. He drugged me. When I woke up, I was in bed, it was early in the morning. So I got up from my bed, but I couldn't move, there was a really bad pain in my lower back and bum." Louis explains.

Harry's heart thumps against his rib cage erratically, not wanting to hear what Louis has to say next. He couldn't take this, but the most he can do is listen.

"I didn't know what it was, but my mom came and picked me up from his house. A few days later I finally told her about the pain. It hurt really badly. So she went to the doctors to go get me checked up. I-" Louis' voice cracks.

"He raped you.." Harry finish the sentence for Louis. He felt disgusted as soon as those words flew out of his mouth.

"He didn't. Jake's dad did." Louis corrects him. Harry frowns, confused at Louis' answer.

"Wait, what?"

"It was Jake's dad. I told my mom about how my dad drugged me, and when I woke up in pain. My mom went to the police and wrote a report. Maybe a week or two later, the cops found out what happened and both my dad and Jake's dad went to jail for a while." Louis continues.

"Wait, how did you find out it was Jake's dad then?" Harry was already getting lost, and his head felt fuzzy. He didn't want to talk about rape, it was a touchy subject. He wasn't being dramatic, but it's a scary topic to have a discussion on.

"He told me. He and I met up at the park after a few weeks after our dads went to jail. We were talking about the situation, and he told me on that night he didn't know what was going on and he tried to keep me awake, but Jake's dad hit him, threatened him and forced him to go downstairs. While I was drugged," Louis huffs.

"Jake's dad raped me, but he got Jake to cum inside of me. I-I don't know.." Louis whispers. "I still don't even know the fully story. Jake did tell the cops and my mom that he, you know, yeah." Louis says.

Harry nods understanding. "Oh Lou.." He reaches out to grab his hand.

"Jake didn't know, he didn't know at that time. He cried and told me he's sorry and after that, we became stronger than ever as best friends." Louis held in tears, telling his story.

"T-That's good that you both were there for even other." Harry exclaims unsure of what to say.

"A few weeks later, I got sick every morning. My mom took me to the doctors, and we all found out that I was pregnant. My told mom me about carriers when I was little, so I was well aware of me being one. She was disgusted that I was pregnant, because I would be having a baby at such a young age. Harry.." Louis' vision becomes blurry with tears.

Harry couldn't believe what he was hearing, so he squeezes Louis hands, caressing it to soothe the older man.

"I was only ten. I was ten, and I was going to have a fucking baby. It's weird to say, and I'm so ashamed of it." Louis explains. Louis heard stories of young parents, girls and boys getting pregnant at the ages of eleven and up. Possibly even younger nowadays.

"Why didn't you get an abortion?" Harry questions. He felt terrible asking that, but Louis didn't have to deal with a baby if he got an abortion

"Because I wanted to keep it. It was my first child, and I felt so bad for thinking about killing it." Louis answers his question. Louis has thought about an abortion before, but guilt would eat him alive for the rest of his life if he'd ever had done that.

"I told Jake about my pregnancy, he was upset that he would have a kid at fifteen, but he had to deal with it. We stayed best friends, and my feelings for him only grew. He was there throughout the pregnancy, supporting me. He ended up getting a job, working with a family member of his and made money. My mom somewhat helped out too, she made more money than Jake did, and only gave us twenty dollars every two weeks."

"I'm assuming the first kid is Darcy?" Harry asked raising his eyebrows. The younger man still didn't know the ages of Louis' kids, and now he was curios to know.

"Nope. Noah. After I gave birth to him, I went back to school and Niall's grandma offered to watch Noah while I went to school. After school, I took the bus home and walked to Niall's house, and I stayed there during the night sometimes." Louis says.

"So you stayed at Niall's house, where his grandma lives, and stayed the night to take care of Noah?" Harry shortens the story, Louis nods. "How did you do in school? With your pregnancy?" Harry asked curiously.

"Big hoodies! And it worked, no one really ever paid attention to me in school anyway. Niall was always by my side, making sure no one caught on. But when I was nine or eight months pregnant, I stayed home, my mom told the school I was very sick. And it worked." He smiles.

"After a while, it was time to get Noah into daycare. Jake got his permit, and then his license when he turned sixteen, he drove Noah to daycare everyday during the summer and Niall's mom paid the daycare, which helped me out so much." Louis spoke.

Harry smiles, mentally thanking Niall's grandma and his mother for helping the beautiful blue eyed man out. What Harry didn't understand was, why didn't Louis mention his mom?

"One night Jake stayed at Niall's house with me, and we ended up having sex." Louis says bluntly. "I was eleven at this time, and I thought I was so grown. And I'm sure you could guess what happened." He chuckles. Louis didn't feel comfortable saying that out loud, but it was true.

"You got pregnant with Darcy?" Harry chuckles with him.

"Yes."

"What did your mom have to say to that?" Harry smiled. Louis was quite young to have kids, but he managed, and that amazed Harry so much.

"She was mad that "we" would have to take care of another kid, because during all of this my mom was taking care of my sisters. She also told me if I were to have sex again, she'd send me away, I didn't want that so I stopped having sex for a while." Louis informs.

"Yeah I remember you told me about your sisters, but oh my god Louis," Harry shakes his head. "Did you at least use a condom with him?"

"Nope! Anyways, I was hiding my pregnancy and no one noticed that much. I made friends, and they were shocked, but kept my secret. Another year goes by, at this time Noah was one and Darcy was a few months old." Louis says.

"When are their birthdays?" Harry's stomach grumbles, feeling hungry, but he also felt sick hearing what Louis had said earlier about the rape.

"Noah is June twentieth, Darcy is March tenth. We'll get to Joseph in a bit." Louis declares. Harry smiles at the mention of Joesph.

"During the summer, Jake and I spent time with our kids, and he asked me to be his boyfriend. I was twelve, and he was seventeen." Louis whispers, looking down at the ground in shame.

"Louis," Harry lifts up Louis' chin up with his finger, making him look at Harry. "Don't be ashamed, okay? You made mistakes, that's normal. I'm sure that there's worse out there in the world than what you're telling me, okay? I'm here to listen, not judge." Harry reassured him, planting a kiss on his cheek.

Louis smiles, nodding his head. "Okay.."

"Continue please." Harry demands.

"Um, we dated, and everything went well. We didn't really need Niall's grandma to help us out anymore. The kids were in daycare, and everything was hard, but in the end it worked out. Jake and Niall's mom bought toys, and Niall would sometimes help me out with Noah and Darcy." Louis explains. "Jake and I stayed together for the next three years. I was fifteen, and Jake was twenty." He cringes.

Harry laughs at Louis' facial expression, finding it adorable. "Haz, it's not funny, I dated a pedophile." He hits Harry's arm. The two laugh together, finally getting out the food in the basket.

"High school was pretty chill, I made good grades, came to my house, did homework, and Jake dropped off the kids, he stayed for a while and left when it was late at night. And that was my routine for the next two years of my life. When Jake turned twenty two, I was seventeen, he asked for me to move in with him. At this time Darcy was six, and Noah was seven years old." Louis smiled when he mentioned his kids.

Harry pulls out a peanut butter and jelly sandwich from the basket, surprised. He wasn't expecting that, but it was something, and as he always says, something is better than nothing!

"Aww.." Harry cooed, thinking about a six year old Darcy running around, playing with her dolls, doing what kids usually do.

"We all moved into a apartment, and spent a lot of time together. It was fun. Jake and I were the perfect couple. We were so happy. But everyday, after I picked the kids up from school, I came home and he just became so mean. It got worse everyday. First, it started off with him yelling about every small thing, second, it was when I got home a little late from picking up the kids, and then it was when I always hung out with Niall during school." Louis explains.

"One night, we were arguing, and he hit me. The next day he promised me he would never do it again. Then from there, he kept doing it. He did it everyday, over the smallest things. One day, Niall took our kids to spend time with him, and he raped me. I tried to get him off of me, but he hit me, and punched me, and he just went in," Louis huffs. "And raped me."

"So for the next two years, I worked with Niall at a bar, I was a bartender, and I was also in college. I needed money so, I worked. At this time Noah was nine and Darcy was eight, Jake was twenty four and I was nineteen. My life was miserable, I tried spending most of my nights in the bar so Jake wouldn't have to hit me or anything, and he stayed at home with our kids. One night after I came home from work, I walked into the apartment, and I heard Darcy screaming. I saw Jake slap her across the face, and Noah was hitting him to stop, but he kept slapping her. So I ended up punching Jake,
and he got really angry with me. Next thing you know, he knocked me out." Louis shrugs.

"I woke up the next day, Darcy and Noah weren't anywhere to be found. Jake came into the room and told me that they're with Niall for the day. So Jake and I spent the day together, he raped me twice and he hit me for the majority of the day. Then I found he was cheating on me, and it didn't go too well for me." Louis explains, a tear rolling down his cheek.

Harry frowns at the information Louis was giving. Harry couldn't find such a dark place in his heart to do that to someone, hell, he'd be damned if someone ever did that to him.

"Why didn't you leave him Lou?"

A/N
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updating two chapters todaaaay

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