~With Aleki~

Well, it's been many months later, and it's past May 23rd, the very same day where everyone lost a star in the sky, and someone many consider their best friend, who happened to be my fiancée, Hana Kimura.

I loved her so much and it's been four years since she's gone.

I was broken. I don't think anyone could ever understand how her death impacted my life, trying to join her in the afterlife, cutting myself, and just wanting to be with her again.

When I was cutting myself, I did it above the wrist, near my elbow, and I wanted to die slowly and just finally be reunited with her, but when Yuria found me in my hotel room, she called an ambulance after bandaging my forearm the best she could.

When the EMTs arrived and took me to the hospital, I didn't want them to fix me. I wanted to reunite with Hana and be with her, but they didn't listen and fixed me up anyway.

I would eventually get talked into not doing it ever again by Kyoko, Arata, and Yuria, as I broke down crying when they begged me not to do the same that Hana had done.

To this day, I have a tattoo to remind myself to not do it again as it's a tribute to Hana and it's to remind myself that she's always with me, no matter where I go and what I do.

And not only that, I wanted to cover it up so people won't see the scar. They may not see the scar underneath the tattoo, but if they look very closely, they'll see a bit of a bump, so that's something I wanted to cover up and not have a bit of a problem.

Luckily, everyone has been blessed with the North Korea of morals and values that I happen to hold dearly to my heart, so I can't exactly show what the scar looked like before I cover it up with the tattoo because I know it'll trigger something within not just me, but with some people who have been in the same shit that I went through.

I can't show off the scar, but I can show off my ink:

At the very bottom, right below the joint was where the scar is and I'm really glad I covered it up. It's barely visible and nobody can see it, even if they have reading glasses.

And with me being stretchered in the hospital with bandages and other stuff that mainly has to do with my suicidal attempt of reuniting with Hana in the afterlife and there are pictures of that.

(A/N: Obviously, I'm not gonna put up a picture of what the cuts look like for Aleki's story because if I did, Wattpad would probably send assassins to my front doorstep.)

Anyway, I asked Hunter if I can take a week off to visit my mom in Tokyo.

Okay, Kyoko really isn't my mom, but she treats me like I'm her son, and I really love her to death.

I managed to get the "okay" from Hunter and I was able to get a flight to Tokyo, and find her and Isao's house.

I knew where it was by heart and I really wanted to see her, especially when it's anniversary of Hana passing away. I know she would want to see me.

~14 Hours Later~

I finally landed and I managed to find a hotel that I can stay for a while until it's time for me to head back.

After I unpacked, I decided to rest for a few hours, just to get some energy.

~2 Hours Later~

After a nap, I got up, showered, dressed, got into my rental car and started driving over to Kyoko and Isao's house.

I heard that Kris was in town, so it worked out great for all of us and I learned she was able to fly over, way before I got over here. It was gonna be great seeing her again as I learn she was gonna be over at Kyoko's house.

When I finally arrived, memories started coming back to me, and all of them good.

I walked up and knocked the door, just out of courtesy.

And who I saw open the door, made me smile...

Yū: あのあいさん？！ (Anoa'i-san?!)

Me: どうしたの？ (What's going on?)

We both hugged as it was great to see Yū again, as he allowed me to enter, I took my shoes off as part of a custom, and walked in.

Yeah, I'm using pronouns up in this bitch, so don't @ me.

Yū: 元気ですか？！ (How are you?!)

Me: とても元気ですね。あなた自身はどうですか? (Doing great, how about yourself?)

Yū: あなたにまた会えてどれほど嬉しいか、想像もつかないでしょうね。本当に長い間会っていませんでした。 (You can't imagine how happy I am to see you again. It's been so long.)

Me: はい、そうです。 (Yeah, it has.)

Yū: 入りましょう。 (Let's go in.)

Me: うん。 (Yeah.)

As I walked in, it was great to walk in the house with Yū.

You see, Yū used to go by Kagetsu in wrestling, and he was one of the best, especially when he was in Oedo Tai with Hana and Kris.

Yū was given the leadership role after Kyoko retired and then he gave the role to Momo when he retired as well.

He did come back to wrestling for the Hana Kimura Memorial show back in 2021, but that was his final match in wrestling before a year later, he came out as a transgender man.

I mean, it's still the same Yū Ishino I know and love as I never had a problem with him, especially when he came out as trans. I will admit that it took a lot to get used to with his transition, but over time, I learned to accept it and not see him any differently.

We talk every now and then, and we still get along to this day as I consider him one of my best friends.

When Hana died, he was the first person to call me and sent prayers to me, personally, and at the funeral, I've never seen him that upset, probably more than me because of how much Hana meant to him as a friend.

And at the memorial show, he, Hazuki, Konami, Kaori Y, and I tagged together in a 10 person tag team match, during their entrance, Yū looked like he wanted to start crying.

I remember it very well, as I was a part of it too.

~May 23rd, 2021~

As I made the save to Yūkari's pinfall, I felt someone behind me as it was Taichi who came up and took me out!

But then, someone came out wearing this:

Commentator 1: ちょっと待って！うわあ！ (Wait a minute! Woah!)

Commentator 2: これは誰ですか？ (Who's this?!)

Commentator 1: 木村新太！ (ARATA KIMURA!)

Commentator 2: 木村新太？ (Arata Kimura?!)

Commentator 1: まだ修行中だよ！アラタ！ (He's still in training! Arata!)

Commentator 2: そしてタイチにハナズスペシャル！ (And a Hana's Special to Taichi!)

Commentator 1: アラタ！アラタ！アラタ！ (ARATA! ARATA! ARATA!)

Commentator 2: ハナの兄がレスラーになるためのトレーニング中であるにもかかわらず、この2人は激しく戦い続けています。 (And those two are just going at it, even if Hana's older brother is in training to be a wrestler!)

Commentator 1: 見てください！後ろの方でも全力で頑張っていますよ！ (Look at them! They're going all out, even in the back!)

Hazuki and Yūkari tag teamed on VENY and Natsumi while Konami and Kaori Y took care of Syuri and I made sure to take care of El Desperado.

After they performed their moves, I did the Tiger Driver '91 on El Desperado, who moved to the ropes.

I covered him, but Mio, Natsumi, Syuri, El Desperado, and VENY's tag team partner, put his foot on the bottom rope before confronting Kyoko, who was at ringside.

It was only after a while she pushed Kyoko's head, until Kyoko turned around and slapped her!

That gave Yūkari the opportunity to come in with a suicide dive on Mio before getting back up and hugging Kyoko, who had a big smile on her face.

After that, Hazuki, Yukari, Konami and Kaori Y were surrounding Suzuki, but I was really feeling it as I had a tear coming down my face.

Then, Yukari, knowing me very well, quickly gestured everyone to get out of the ring so I could do this move, which I deeply appreciated.

Minoru flipped me off, but I kicked him in the gut, put his head between my legs, did the Devil Horns, like Hana would do, folded Suzuki's legs, and performed Hana's Packaged Piledriver.

I then heard Kyoko laughing before breaking down into tears as I covered Suzuki...

Ref: ONE! TWO! THREE!

As soon as the ref hit the three count, I immediately got off of Suzuki, put my face directly on the mat, covered my head with my hands around my head as my theme played and I just started sobbing my eyes out.

Announcer: 15分39秒経過後、東京サイバースクワッド、葉月、花月、そして究極の暗殺者、アレク・ハントのチームが優勝しました！ (Here are your winners, after 15 minutes and 39 seconds, Tokyo Cyber Squad, and the team of Hazuki, Kagetsu, and the Ultimate Assassin, Alek Hunt!)

I felt Yukari, Hazuki, Konami, and Kaori Y check on me with their hands on my back, as my body kept jerking from all the bawling I've been doing since I picked up the win.

Then, I felt a familiar hand on my back as I looked up and it was Arata, he came back out and when I was pulled up, I hugged him as he did the same.

I then told him in his ear,

Me: 指輪の下に何か持ってきてください。 (I got something underneath the ring for you to get.)

Arata: それは何ですか？ (What is it?)

Me: それを取りに行きます。 (Go get it.)

He went out of the ring, pulled up the apron, and pulled out a sign I put together, and when he saw it, he broke into tears.

When he got into the ring, he gave it to me as I held it up for everyone to see...

Commentator 1: 「愛しい人よ、とても会いたい。今夜はあなたのために。」これは、恋人がいなくてひどく寂しい、愛情深い彼氏の涙です。また、今みんなが感じている感情をよく表しています。("I miss you so much, my love. Tonight's about you." Those are tears of a loving boyfriend, who misses his girlfriend so terribly. It also really shows the emotion that everyone's feeling right now.)

Commentator 2: アラタを見て、花月、小波、デス山さん、葉月を見て。彼らは今、感情でいっぱいです。そして、最も感情的になっているのはアレクです。彼を責めることはできません。 (Look at Arata, look at Kagetsu, Konami, Death Yama-San, Hazuki. They are just filled with emotion right now, and Alek the most. I can't say I blame him.)

When I got out of the ring to see Kyoko, she had tears down her face, and looking at her, I just couldn't hold it in anymore.

She then spread her arms and said,

Kyoko: ああ、愛しい人。 (Oh, sweetheart.)

I just wrapped my arms around her and cried as she rocked me back and forth like a baby, shushing me and calming me down.

~Present Day~

Now that it's been four years, it's great that we get to reunite and celebrate Hana's life, but thinking about that now got me fucked up.

I quickly turned around, put on my shoes, and walked out to the car.

Yū: アレクちゃん。アレクちゃん！ (Alek-chan. Alek-chan!)

I got to the car, went inside, closed the door and instead of destroying anything, I just started hitting the steering wheel while screaming...

Me: FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCCCKKKK!!!!!!!!

...as tears were coming out of my eyes.

Me: HANA!!! WHY DID YOU HAVE TO FUCKING DIE?!! YOU WERE MY EVERYTHING!!! I WANT TO SEPND THE REST OF MY LIFE WITH YOU!!! YOU MEANT A LOT TO ME, MORE THAN YOU KNOW!!! PLEASE COME BACK TO ME!!! I FUCKING LOVE YOU!!!

I just then sobbed and cried, not caring if anyone walking by saw me as a weirdo and just wanting to call the nearest fucking mental ward.

It was only a few minutes before I heard gentle knocking on the window, and I heard...

?????: アレクくん？ (Alek-kun?)

I looked over and it was Kyoko.

She looked like she was having a tear in her eye, and I'm pretty sure Yū told her that I was about to go insane and went in the car to let it all out.

She was smiling and wanting me to get out of the car and I can walk up with her back to the house.

Kyoko: 息子よ、お願い、車から降りて。私のためだけに。 (Son, please, come out of the car. Just for me.)

I nodded and got out and when I did, Kyoko gave me a gentle hug and helped me up to the house, where everyone else was.

Kris, as I saw her, she walked over, with a tear, trying to keep her smile, and hugged me as I had to do the same.

Kris Hernandez was better known as Kris Wolf in wrestling, playing an important part of Oedo Tai, who's one of the OG founders of the group. She was a mentor to Hana and always considered her a baby sister like Arata had done.

When I first met Kris, she was an absolute sweetheart of a woman and when she came out in 2019, marrying her partner, in character, I was happy for her. I mean, I'm not a homophobic asshole or whatever the fuck, I love seeing my friends happy.

After Kris, Arata hugged me as well, knowing how much of a shit day it is for us, including me, considering I went insane inside my car.

Yuria was here too as she hugged me tightly, knowing how broken I was. I couldn't thank her enough for being here too.

I was broken when Hana died, and I still am broken, but after ter a while, it became all fun and being with my would be in-laws became all the more lighter after a while, as I talked to everyone about how my career was going.

We all were playing some board games and looking at some old photos of the Kimura family, but a few pics stood out to me, when Hana was very young, way before I met her.

I've never seen these pictures before and there were some I never saw, but there were some I remember seeing.

And when I saw the pictures, I started to laugh by how beautiful she was. I never knew she could be just that, way before she started wrestling, and how beautiful she was while wrestling as well.

(A/N: I recommend playing this, as it's part of the soundtrack and the theme song of the first book.)

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This gathering cheered me up a little as Kyoko kept her eye on me, just in case I needed to be alone for a while. I really couldn't thank her enough for helping me with trying to reflect on the memories, and be happy rather than be sad that Hana's not here anymore, but deep down inside, it's not enough.

I really want Hana back, but there's no way we could. We could dig up her body and perform fucking voodoo in New Orleans or whatever place it is, but it just won't work. We can't bring her back at all, and we just have to sit here and take it.

Anyway, I can't ever thank the Kimuras enough for being the family I never had. Isao is like a father to me, even though he was my would be father-in-law and was very strained on me dating Hana, but he came around and when we started talking a lot more, he supported us, but he personally said to me that I was given permission to date her, but I had to keep in mind that Hana was still his little girl, even though he knew her for three years.

Kyoko, I have to call her mom, only because when I first met her, she was the sweetest woman I've ever met in my life. She was happy about Hana and I dating and got to know me over lunch and checking out clothes.

Anyway, it was after a while and we all decided to visit Hana's grave as it was gonna be very hard for me.

We all arrived and we got together to be together as we started walking around, looking for the grave.

Being in this cemetery really made me feel uncomfortable, only because Hana's remains were buried here. I remember the day we put her to rest. I still get nightmares about it, seeing my remains being buried instead of hers.

It was all the more eerie, knowing that Hana's grave is here.

Anyway, after a while, we found it as I tried to hold it together.

I got closer and closer, but when I saw her name in Kanji, I just got on my knees and started crying.

Yuria, at her quickest, ran over, kneeled next to me, and hugged me as tears just fell down my face.

I thought I could be strong and just try my best to hold it together, but because of my undying love for Hana, I couldn't.

I know I said it many times and I'm probably shoving it down everyone's throats, and I apologize, but I loved her so much. I never fully recovered from Hana dying in front of me and I probably never will.

No one will ever know what it was like to see the love of my life go away, not in a million years.

Yuria: あなたたちは先に行って、私はアレキと一緒にいます。 (You all go on ahead, I'll be with Aleki.)

Kyoko, being a sweetheart, patted my back, and said to me...

Kyoko: ゆっくりしてください、アレクキ君。急ぐ必要はありません。 (Take your time, Aleki-kun. No need to rush.)

...as she went with the others and Yuria hugged me, shushing me, and rubbing my back.

Yuria: Shhh. It okay, Aleki-kun. Let it out. It what we are here for. It what we are here for. It all that matters.

I looked at her, and Yuria, her eyes were redder than mine, almost the color of a red apple.

I immediately hugged her back as we both had tears coming down our faces.

It was only a few minutes before we released and we stood up, and as I looked at Yuria...

Me: Thank you, Yuria.

Yuria (voice cracking): I here for you, Aleki. You my best friend.

We both walked forward as I got to the grave, where everyone was waiting for us.

Everyone paid their respects in their own way and when they were done, I walked up and kneeled down, put my hands together and prayed like everyone had done.

I was surprised by how they were being this quiet and just being that respectful to the grave and just to me, in general. I really needed to be here and just let it all go.

When I was done, I whispered,

Me: Goodbye for now, my love. O le a ou vaai ia te oe i le olaga a sau. (I will see you in the next life.)

I kissed the inside of my hand and set it down on the grave before getting up and walking with them as we left the cemetery.

All in all, it was a good day, regardless of looking back on what happened four years ago.

As I kept walking back with the others, I noticed something on the ground, and it looked like an old piece of paper.

Something about that paper seemed oddly familiar to me, but I picked it up, and what I read made me burst into tears once again.

It said,

"Aleki,

I want you to know that I love you more than life itself. I love you more than you ever know. I love you so deeply I cannot fathom how lucky I was to meet a wonderful man like you.

You make me feel so special, so loved, and so grateful to have you in my life. I want you to know that you're the only one who I will ever call as my best friend, but because of how everyone has been treating me, I cannot let them get to me anymore.

I am about to leave this place, but through all of it, I want you to be happy. If you find someone else to fall in love with, just know that I support you, even in the afterlife because you have my blessing to find another girl to fall in love with.

Happiness matters to the person, as this is the final thing I want you to do for me. It is not to be sad that I am not here anymore, but be happy of the memories we shared and find someone you deserve to live the rest of your life with.

Never forget about me, because you are and always will be my first love.

Hana"

Seeing the second to last part got me wanting to cry again, but I felt a source of comfort. I then looked in the distance and I didn't see anything.

I looked behind me, and when I looked back in front of me again, an apparition of Hana was standing in front of me.

She was smiling with a tear down her face as I wanted to speak, but I couldn't.

Then, she said, walking towards me, and when she got in my face, she put her hand on my cheek...

Hana: 忘れないで、アレキ、私はいつもあなたと一緒にいます。 (Don't forget, Aleki, I will always be with you.)

She then leaned forward, kissed my lips, and faded away in front of me, making me really happy that I finally saw her again, but it was brief in the form of a ghost's apparition.

I smiled as I really became more relaxed than I was just was not too long ago, but...

Yuria: Aleki-kun? Are you coming?

Me: Yeah, I am.

I walked over to Yuria and we went back to Kyoko and Isao's house, where we continued to celebrate Hana's death. I didn't tell them what I just experienced, knowing it would make them feel emotional and start crying again, so I kept it to myself.

I love you, Hana. I always have, and I always will, as you too, are my first love.