CHAPTER 20

Great. No sleep for two nights in a row! Yay me!

I hadn't slept a wink last night either. Blake just had to invade my mind with all the sweet memories we had, which I thought were going to stay forever. But to my luck, it didn't.

I sighed and stumbled of my bed and padded my way to the bathroom before I get a knock at the door or something. We wouldn't want what happened yesterday to happen again, now do we?

After 30 minutes or so, I walked out of my room all prepped up, with Blake still disturbing my thoughts.

What if he comes to school today? What if he talks to me? Does he actually still love me?

I sighed frustrated and shook my head. I need to stop thinking about him.

I grabbed an apple from the huge fruit basket that had been neatly placed on the carved teak table and ran to outside to get to school. Even though that's the last thing I wanted to do.

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I arched my brow at the collective gasps and whispers that were growing each second I entered the campus.

Most of the kids were either staring at me like creeps, gave me sympathetic looks or look away once I caught their eyes.

I frowned. What the matter now?

I examined my looks and saw nothing wrong with it. No torn clothes. No mascara running. Then why?

I sighed irritated and glared at everyone who looked my way and walked straight to my homeroom.

The way along was not sunshine and rainbows either. I even got horrified expressions to add to the list.

Eh...

I plopped on my seat and pinched the bridge of my nose with my thumb and index finger.

"Heyyy Blaire" A voice greeted, which I immediately recognized. That's when my frown deepened.

"Jessie" I stated and meet her elevated turquoise pair that had a tint of amusement and mischief that swirled around her orbs. She made herself comfortable on top of my table and crossed her legs over the other and smirked.

"Looks like lover boy is back in town" she sang as she twirled her thick hair in between my fingers.

I scrunched my forehead in confusion. My eyes traveled to the ones of her minions that were standing behind her back, with their arms folded over their chest with a similar expression plastered on their face. I bit my lip.

You don't mean....

"Yes, Blaire. Blake is back in town. For me. He said that he couldn't stay away from me anymore and wanted to make our relationship official. We even kissed before I came here" she bit her lip and smiled.

I swallowed the bile that rose up and turned my head away. She laughed bitterly.

"Did you really think he loved you?" she rose her perfectly trimmed eyebrow which made me think of mine which resembled a bush. "You are so easy to play with, Blaire. No wonder he accepted the dare" she said as she put a lock of her hair behind, over her shoulder.

I scoffed.

"You know, he even-"

"THAT'S ENOUGH!" a voice roared across the room. my eyes that had welled up without my knowledge blinded my vision to meet the source of the noise. I closed my eyes tightly and shook my head to try again as I cast my eyes towards the direction of the voice.

I soft gasp left me as I saw the possessor of the voice. The man who I once tremendously loved. The man who I hadn't seen for over two years, stood in fronts of me with an infuriated expression that stood out from the crowd.

Blake.

I stayed rooted in my place as my eyes refused to twitch and my mind declined to acknowledge his presence.

He took a step forwards. "That's enough Jessie! Get away from her." he said. Jessie frowned.

"But baby, I was just telling her that you came back!" she whined as she hopped off my table and took a step towards his direction.

"DO NOT come near me. Get out of the class." He yelled once again. Jessie's face resembled Dorothy's shoes now. She scampered out of the door with a displeased expression as her minions mimicked her actions.

Blake face softened when he met my eyes. I scoffed.

"Iri..." he trailed off as he took a small step towards me but stopped when I put my palm out to his face indicating him to stop.

"What do you want, Blake?" I asked as I crossed my arms over my chest and dared to look at his pleading eyes.

He sighed. "You" he said as he meets my eyes back. "I want you, Blaire." he pleaded with his eyes.

I frowned. "Why now?" I asked as my voice wavered. He shook his head.

"I always loved you, Blaire. And I always will. Yes. I did start with a dare. But I did eventually fell for you. I just couldn't admit it to myself. But I finally did! How can I not love those beautiful grey orbs of yours? That always was the window to your expression. How can I not like your optimistic thoughts even when life was shit in your house? How can I not love the person who loved me with all their heart?" he said softly and looked down. He closed his eyes and looked up at me with teary eyes and bit his lip.

I scoffed

"I realized that I can't live without you Blaire! I realized that I truly love you. I know, I had done something in the past-"

"Done something?" I interrupted him, now with full rage that dripped out of my voice. "Done something? My ass! You broke my heart, You bastard! You ruined my life! You made me immune to any feelings after you left. You broke my trust on you, you sick man-whore. After all, I faced in my house, I came back to you whatsoever. I would want your comforting arms around me when I felt grief. I would want to share my happiness with you when I was on cloud nine. I even wanted to spend time with YOU when I came to know that I would never see my sister again! And YOU! Is that what you do to me? Fuck another whore behind my back just because I felt the need to save my innocence to the man I wed?!" I yelled at the top of my lungs as my eyes started to well up. I turned my head to the side.

"Thanks to you, I will never know how love will ever feel." I scoffed and looked back at him with pure hatred. "But I sure do know, it won't be like what I felt for you!" 

 He flinched

"Please, Iri..." he pleaded with his eyes for the millionth time today.

I scoffed for the millionth time today. Iri... That's what he called me when we were in 'love'.

I always adored the name. It was different and unique like it was especially for me. My face used to light up when I heard him calling that name. But now, I flinch just thinking about it.

I shook my head and walked past him to the girl bathroom.

I slid down the wall and held back my tears from falling as I thought about what just happened.

I never in my right mind thought that I will ever see him again after what happened. And to what he said today. Does he actually love me? Even if he did, there is no way I would ever welcome him with open arms. But I don't think I would ever forget him. He just ripped a part of my heart and claimed it as his possession. I would never get it back.

I shook my head as the traitorous tears fell down my checks.

I inhaled sharply as I tried to muffle my cries.

"Blaire?" came a soft voice out from the door.

"Go away" I managed to croak out.

I heard few shuffles of movement before the door banged open. My eyes widen as I saw Zayn with a concerned expression looking at me.

I turned my head away.

"Go away, Zayn. I can't do this right now" I said. He shook his head and came near me.

When my emotions overwhelmed again, he just shushed me and hugged me tightly.

I hiccupped and buried my face in his chest as he just stayed there holding me tight without uttering a word and not caring that his shirt was probably going to be ruined by the end of this.

I never could ever really repay him for that. 

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