KIM SUNOO

What am I even thinking?

How can he casually come to me and tell me it was Ni-ki’s fault all along? No way. Hell, it’s not him. That kid likes me and he will never do that to.

Should I tell Jungwon about this? Fuck. Here we go again feeling like a shit.

I frustratedly close my eyes and then grab a pillow, shoved it on my face then I scream so loud. It’s really annoying. You know it’s fucked up when everything is going alright then shit will happen and everything will get ruined.

Damn it. Park Sunghon!

I didn’t have any good sleep after that. I called Ni-ki right away and he agreed to see me at home. I am actually nervous but I need to confirm things right away. I am thorn between defending Ni-ki and believing Sunghoon hyung.

“Hey, you okay? You had nightmares again?” he immediately asks the moment he saw me and held my arm.

I smile at how concerned he is but I’m more pleased when I see his other hand holding a small bouquet of flower. “I’m good. Just… had some things to think of,” I replied.

“No you are not fine,” he said. “Should we go to the hospital?” he suggested.

I shake my head and giggles. “No, I told you I’m good,” I repeated.

“O-okay then,” he smiles and lends me the flowers. “Here, for you.”

I gladly receive it with a smile. “Thank you,” I expressed and stare at it for a second that put it aside. “Thank you as well for coming, I know you have students to teach,” I apologized.

“You know I’m always one call away, hyung,” he laughs. “So, what do you wanna talk about? It seems so important.”

“Yeah…” I agreed and release a deep breathes first to prepare myself. “I don’t really want to tell this but… about the scandal five years ago…” I started and I saw how his smiles fades and he frown a little.

Please, Ni-ki…

“What about it? Are you still worried about those? Hyung, there’s nothing to worry—” I cut him off.

“No, no,” I shook my head. “I don’t worry about those already,” I pause. “What I’m trying to say is… those videos were kept inside my house, in a drawer. No one knows about those aside from hyung and I and the only one who went inside my house weeks before the incident… was you… so what I’m saying is—”

“Wait,” he interrupted and he scoffs. “Are you accusing me of playing those videos, hyung?”

“N-no Ni-ki, of course I don’t. That’s why I’m asking… because I left you the night that you visited and… maybe you did something?” I asked in hesitant because I don’t really know how to deliver it.

He sighs and leans. I can see that he’s mad and just trying to suppress it. “Hyung, who told you about these, huh? Why are you suddenly bringing this up?”

“Ni-ki,” I called him. Actually I’m scared. I haven’t seen Ni-ki getting mad and this is the first time. I don’t know what will gonna happen. “T-that’s why I’m asking… What did you do when I left you that night?”

“None of course!” his voice suddenly raised. “What am I even gonna do in a place that isn’t mine?” he answered.

“O-okay… That’s why I asked,” I answered and pursed my lips. “You know about Sunghoon hyung and me since then?”

He frowns even more. “Why are we suddenly talking about Sunghoon when you don’t even want to mention his name for five years?” he asked.

“Just answer me, please,” I pleaded at him.

He sighs first and purses his lips. “Yeah… It’s just pretty obvious. I can see it the way he looks at you,” he answered. “That’s why I can’t understand what’s happening between you two,” he added.

I nod at him. “And you still like me despite of those?”

He scratches his neck near his jaw. “I just thought that… you let Sunghoon likes you despite of having a partner so…”

“Huh!?” I frown.

“Okay… at first it was just fun and all but you know? It develops?” he clarified.

I gasped, “Have you ever talked to SUnghon hyung—”

“Wait a minute, hyung,” he interrupted again. “Why are we getting into these? Why are we talking about him?”

“He came back… Sunghoon hyung. And I’m asking you if you were the one who publicized the videos so we’ll get separated,” I honestly asked.

“What the…” he reacted. “Hyung,” he called me in disbelief. “I will never do that,” he defended. “I don’t even know what’s happening back there,” he added.

My attention directed to the front when the door suddenly opens and I saw Sunghoon hyung enters. Wait how did he? Gosh this jerk is really everywhere!

“Goodness!” he reacted. “Am I interrupting something? Sorry for the intrusion,” he apologized and smirks then I saw Ni-ki frowns at him.

“Hyung, what are you doing in here?” I asked him in concern. “I-I’m still talking to Ni-ki.”

I heard Ni-ki scoffs. “So you’re asking me those questions is because this scumbag came back?” he asked me. “Hyung, don’t tell me you’re trusting him again?”

“N-no…” I answered, hesitantly. “I-I just want to know if he’s saying the truth,” I defended.

“Of course he isn’t! Hyung, please! Why are you being like this?” Ni-ki frustratedly yelled at me.

“Hey,” Sunghoon hyung butts in and walk almost beside me and face Ni-ki. “Are you still going to lie?” he asked.

“Lie about what?” Ni-ki aks.

Sunghoon hyung sighs and pulled out something from his inside pocket of his jacket and throw printed pictures on the table. He started talking while I pick up those pictures that made me shakes.

“Do you really think you can get away with this, Ni-ki?” Sunghoon hyung started. “You were the one who took the drives and how did I know? I have secret cameras all over Sunoo’s place. I monitor him from time to time.”

I gasped when hyung said that. So that’s why it feels like someone’s actually staring at me but that doesn’t the issue here. It’s the fact that Ni-ki was really the one who stole it and I can clearly see it in these pictures.

“You really want Sunoo that bad?” hyung smirks. “That it’s okay for you to ruin him first so you can comfort him and show him you’re the one who’s been with him all this time? Such an asshole,” he laughs.

“Those aren’t—” Ni-ki got cut off.

“You’re still going to lie?” Hyung asks. “I got the CCTV footage of you in the event too and this isn’t the only crime you committed, jackass. You do drugs too, right?” he smirks.

“Ni-ki?” I called him in shock and my jaw really drops. He looks at me in wary.

“Hyung,” he tried to reach out for my hand but I take a step backwards. “Hyung, this is not true,” he convinced me.

“W-why?” that’s the only thing that came out from my mouth.

“Hyung…”

“Ni-ki, I trusted you. W-why did you do this?” my tears started to fall. “Why!? Why did you make me trust you and betrayed me too!? Why!? You were so nice to me but what have you done!?”

“Hyung, I-I…” he lost of words. “I’m sorry… I’m really sorry. Please? I-I just did it because… because I like you so much and Sunghoon’s just gonna hurt you and I don’t want that,” he explained.

“And you think what you did didn’t hurt the hell out of me!? I was ashamed for myself! I even lost myself, Ni-ki! You are fucking comforting me without me knowing that it was you who did it!? I hate you so much! I hate you!” I bawled while I keep on pointing finger at him.

“Hyung… P-please,” he begged on his knees, he’s even crying.

No, I can’t. He’s evil. He’s so pure evil. How can he do that to me? How can he afford to betray me like that?

“You messed up, kid. I told you not to touch him,” Sunghoon hyung stated.

Once again, I got traumatized trusting people. When would I ever learn?