“Let go of me!”

“Just listen first, will you!?”

“No! You shut up Park Sunghoon!” I pushed him away when he tried to get inside my house. “Get lost! Just get out!”

“Sunoo listen to me, I did not—”

“You’re a fucking liar! I don’t want to see you! Get the hell out of here!” I yelled at him in anger while my tears continuously flow down.

He tried to hold my hand but I once again pushed him away from me. “I hate you so much, hyung. You made me believe about it. J-just get lost, please…”

I finally closed the door and I couldn’t even take another step, I just fall off my feet. I cried so hard. I don’t know what I’m crying for. Is it because people have seen me naked and getting fucked by a guy and that guy turns out to be my girlfriend’s older brother or is it because Sunghoon hyung lied and betrayed me.

It fucking hurts. I trusted him despite of the possibility that he’ll turn the tables. I trusted him because he said I should. I trusted him because he looks so sincere.

Why?

What did I do to deserve such pain? It’s because I cheated? But is this too much for this? I don’t know—I don’t understand where this pain is coming from.

Seeing again how their eyes stares at me— Keith’s eyes in disgust and concern. I don’t know how am I gonna face everyone from now on. I’m so ashamed. I feel so trash.

My phone keeps on vibrating and it’s Keith that’s calling me. I throw my phone away and just keep on crying. I don’t know how much I cried behind that door but then I see myself drinking a lot of alcoholic drink and then passed out.

For weeks, I just stayed inside my room. I don’t even have the appetite to eat. There’s also no message from Sunghoon hyung but there are a lot from Keith. She also keeps on coming back in here but I don’t let her inside.

I’m ashamed.

I’m sitting on the rug while blankly looking at the screen of the TV when there’s another doorbell. I didn’t bother looking at it and then I received a message from Jungwon, begging to open the door. Despite of feeling weak, I stood up and open the door.

“Oh my goodness, Kim Sunoo!” he exclaimed and quickly hugged him.

I breakdown right away after feeling his hug. “Everything will be alright, okay? Everything will get sorted out. Don’t worry about it,” he rubs my back.

“I’m so idiot, right?” I asked him.

He nods and then wipes my tears. “Of course you are, babe,” he smiles a bit. “But the good thing is you’re gonna learn from that starting from now on… Look at you, you look like a total mess which is you shouldn’t be! There’s nothing to worry about, okay?”

I don’t know what to feel, if I should feel insulted or be grateful. “H-how about the videos?”

“They already took it down since that night. I kept on calling you and messaging you but you don’t reply. Thank goodness and you’re still alive!” he exclaimed and hugs me again. “Stop crying now, okay? Don’t worry about those videos. It won’t harm you, okay?”

“Thank you so much,” I cried again and I keep on saying thank you at him. I am so lucky to have him as my bestfriend. “B-but what should I do now, Wonie?”

He sighs and hold my hand then we walk towards the sofa and he made me sit. He squeezes my hand. “Talk to Keith, formally. Tell her everything and end your relationship properly. Apologize to her,” he advised.

“How about Sunghoon hyung?”

“Jeez Kim Sunoo! Look at the mess he did and you’re still thinking of him?” he frowns. “Leave him alone! He doesn’t even care. Look, where is he right now? And he’s the reason why all of these happened! If he didn’t just acted like an asshole!”

“I-I know…” I muttered and bit my lower lip. “I hate him so much…”

“Stop thinking about him for now. Fix yourself, okay?”

Jungwon stayed with me for the whole day to accompany me. The next day I prepared myself to go and meet Keith. I finally messaged her that I’m going to their house but I didn’t receive any reply from her.

I am by the door and when I opened the door; the first thing I heard is Keith’s voice, she’s yelling, “Stop it Sunghoon oppa! Please!” she’s begging.

“Why!? Are you afraid, huh? Why Keith? Why are you doing this to yourself!?” Sunghoon hyung’s voice is in rage as well.

“What are you trying to say, Sunghoon? Huh? W-what is happening?” Eommonim’s voice is also in crack and confused. “Sunoo?” she saw me standing by the door.

“W-why are you here? Sunoo please get out,” Keith run towards me and pushed me away.

“Don’t go Sunoo,” Sunghoon hyung’s voice made me stop from moving and I stared at him. “Wanna know the truth why I used you?” he asks.

My jaw clenched as well as my fist. “Right, tell me. Why?” I replied and pushed Keith away.

“Sunoo! Please! Please get out in here,” she cries aloud.

“What is happening in here!?” Mr. Park’s voice echoed inside the house. He came from outside, he’s frowning.

I saw Sunghoon hyung smirks when he saw his dad. “Oh, it’s my great dad,” he said and even grins more. “Mom, you’re curious why I hate him so much, right?”

“Son, w-what are you trying to say?” Eommonim asks in worried.

“Sunoo, listen well,” he started and just glanced at me then glared at Mr. Park. “While I was five, this old man started molesting me—” we heard eommonim’s gasp and even my jaw dropped. “Keith isn’t mom’s real daughter, right? I saw how my mom lost my sister because of stress and depression from this old man. Keith, you are your dad’s kid from other woman and my mom accepted you to make up with what she lost.”

What kind of drama is this? Their parents’ eyes are shaking. Hyung’s telling the truth. Keith began to keep quiet, processing what is happening. Sunghoon hyung continued.

“After five years, this old man stooped playing with my dick and making me suck him because he started fucking our maids. You know that too mom, right? But you keep a blind eye. Why? Are you afraid he’ll beat you? What a bullshit. I started staying in dorms just to avoid this fucked up family but I didn’t know that the moment I left,” he pauses and look at Keith. “That’s when also he’ll start doing things Keith.”

“O-Oppa,” Keith called her who’s already shaking.

Sunghoon smirks. “Why? Don’t tell me I’m wrong,” he scoffs. “Even mom knows it, Keith,” he laughs in maniac.

“Stop blabbering nonsense right now, Park Sunghoon!” Mr. Park raved.

“Nonsense?” Sunghoon hyung smirks. “Kim Sunoo, Keith used you as her boyfriend so she can ran away from this man,” he added that made me gasps and look at Keith who cannot even look at me anymore. “And I used you in order for this family to end the bullshit that’s happening.”

“No! Sunoo that’s not true. T-that’s not—” I pushed Keith away when she tried to hold my hand. I… I just feel so disgusted.

“I-I… W-what…” I don’t know what to say.

“How’s the feeling Keith?” Sunghoon asked. “I fucked your boyfriend too just how your dad fucked you while fucking my mom too. Fucked up, right?”

“Shut up now Park Sunghoon!” Mr. Park yelled.

“No you fucking shut up dirty asshole! I tried everything to take away Keith from you! Mom! You know how much I tried to take Keith to US with me but you didn’t let me because you’re so afraid with this jerk!” Sunghoon hyung shouted and glared at his mom— no, actually, I can see some tears at the corner of his eyes. “Mom! You ruined us! You can’t even protect us from him!”

Sunghoon hyung is crying as he point his fingers to Mr. Park. “I told you if you can’t protect Keith then I will! I’m going to take her with me so we can get away from here but you didn’t let us! You didn’t let us go, mom! Why!? Why do we need to ruin our family like this!? And now I’m making you realize that what you did is what causes us to be like this!”

He continues, “I told you not to let Keith go in Japan because Sunoo won’t be there! I told you not to let her go because her dad will follow her there! Mom! Why did you still let her!? Why!? I’m fine getting molested, I’m fine getting cursed at! I will be fine but I can’t tolerate you and Keith getting this treatment!”

“S-Sunghoon… I’m sorry—” Eommonim tried to hold his son’s hand but Sunghoon pushed it away.

“Taste your own medicine,” Sunghoon hyung stated and look at Mr. Park. “You’re going to jail. I’ll make sure that you’re going to rot in there.”

The doors suddenly open then I just witness Mr. Park getting handcuffs. The whole place is a mess but there’s a hand that wrapped around my wrist and took me out of the house.

I’m still lost.

“Get out in here and don’t ever come back. Forget me and Keith. Forget everything, Kim Sunoo. You said you can pretend that we never meet, right? Do it.”

It’s Sunghoon hyung. He’s looking at with tears in his eyes. I wanted to wipe it.

“Was it hard…” I muttered, my lips are shaking.

“I can handle it,” he said and gently smile.

“H-hyung…” I called him and he just pulled me for a hug and kissed the top of my head.

“I’m sorry. I’m so sorry… Please just go on with your life and don’t think about me. I’m sorry for dragging you into this mess. Please, live a good life ahead, Vixen… without me.”