“Sunghoon hyung isn’t here? What a cozy place.”

I shook my head at Ni-ki as he enters the room. “He’s with Jake hyung, probably doing their thing,” I chuckles after. “Feel at home,” I added and guided him towards the living and he takes a seat.

“Probably doing shits,” he replied and laughs.

I just fake a laugh on that and purse my lips. “So, what are we gonna do tonight? I have cards in here if you wanna play or movie since you bought snacks,” I suggested.

“Netflix will do,” he replied and I nod. I went near the TV to get the remote and open it then he speaks again. “How’s you and Keith noona?”

“We’re good,” I casually replied while busy pressing buttons. “Why’d you ask?”

“Nothing,” he replies. “I’m thinking that marriage is already in your mind, hyung. And I guess noona’s really a hard-working woman,” he stated.

I just nod at him. “Yeah,” I replied blandly at him. “So what do you wanna watch?” I asked instead because I don’t really want to talk about her.

Keith and I are good, we’re back to normal; late replies, work, late replies, late updates, work, and we barely see each other. I don’t know, it feels like a routine already.

I’m already used to it.

We decided to watch this thriller movie. I didn’t know Ni-ki’s also this kind of genre. We we’re quiet while we’re so invested in watching the movie and we’re both eating some snacks and soju. I accidentally look at the wall clock and it’s already eleven in the evening and Sunghoon hyung isn’t here yet.

I open my phone and check my message but he hasn’t reply yet. I blow some air on my cheeks, contemplating if I should message him again or what. Suddenly, I felt a poke on my left cheek and I look at Ni-ki.

He smiles at me and pulled his index finger from my skin. “Watch it with me, please? It’s getting interesting now,” he said, acting like a kid.

I chuckles and put my phone away. “Okay, okay, sorry about that,” I apologized and we watched together.

I lean my back on the seat but I’m a bit comfy then I just felt a shoulder beside me. I smiled a bit and lean my head on Ni-ki’s shoulder as we watched and gave comments about it.

“I’m suddenly curious,” I said and he hums. “Why don’t you get a girl or something?” I asked, really out of the topic.

He laughs for a second. “I don’t know? Busy?”

“Not as busy as most of the employee’s tho?” I shoot back. “Anyway, you’re still young. You gotta have all the fun,” I said.

“You talk as if you’re really that older to me,” he laughs. “I like someone but it’s a bit complicated,” he said.

I got shock and look at him. “Really!? Who? No, sorry about that. I mean, you should try your best!” I cheered him up while smiling widely.

“Should I?” he shyly reacts and scratches the back of his head. “I will then. I should give it a shot, right?”

“Of course!” I quickly agreed and he smiles at me.

“Soon,” he said and looks at the TV again.

We run out of soju so I decided to buy a canned beer instead. I left Ni-ki in the room first as I buy. The movie ended at around past midnight already and by that time as well I’m a bit dizzy. I’m really alight drinker, I hate myself. “Are you still going to drive?” I ask him.

“Yeah, why? Do you want me to stay over?” he laughs. “Sunghoon hyung might get mad,” he said.

“Why would he get mad?” I asked and pouted and look at my lockscreen. “It’s already 12:34, he isn’t here yet. He’s supposed to be here already,” I sulk.

I felt Ni-ki move closer to me. “You look so cute when you’re pouting,” he reacted.

I giggled on that. “Am I cute?” I smiles even widely. “I should take a selfie,” I said and open my camera.

Whoa! My cheeks are so red. I take a picture and happily open my inbox when Ni-ki speaks. “Are you going to send it to noona?”

I shook my head. “No, she won’t even probably see it right away,” I reply and laugh. “I’ll send it to Sunghoon hyung,” I said. “He’ll read it right away.”

“Sunghoon hyung will?” he repeated. “He must really adore you a lot,” he commented.

“Yeah, of course,” I replied mindlessly while busy tapping my screen. “Sent!” I reacted.

I think I’m already drunk.

“Did you know that Sunghoon see me as the prettiest?” I said.

“Really?” he reacted in surprise. “Well, you really are hyung.”

“Right?” I giggled.

“I like seeing you smile as well. You’re so adorable right now,” he said and I even smile at it then I feel his hand on my cheek that made me pause. “Did you message Sunghoon hyung that I’m here?”

I slowly nod and he laughs lowly. “W-why?”

“I’m dead then,” he answered and I frown. “I should go home now before he arrives,” he said but his hand is still on my cheek and his thumb is still caressing it. “You’re so fucking adorable.”

I got surprised. I’m looking at his eyes and I can see that his sincere by that but it feels like there’s also unknown motive behind it. I don’t know.

“N-Ni-ki…” I called him.

He started leaning closer to me. A bit more close. My hands are about to push him but he stops me and then my eyes widen when I felt his lips on me. It stayed like that for seconds; I don’t know what to react. Suddenly I felt him looking for access but I stayed still.

No, why am I letting him? Sunghoon hyung will get mad. I shouldn’t do this! If I’ll be a bad girl… he’ll expose all my pictures!

“Stop!” I pushed him away. “G-go away— go home!” I shouted and walk out then went inside the restroom.

I can feel my hands trembling. My whole body is shaking in fear. I started washing my face with cold water to bring me back to my senses. As I close my eyes I can see hyung’s darken eyes and how mad he’ll be.

I’m going to die.

Ni-ki should go home now. I quickly went out and I saw him standing and waiting for me. “Go home now, Ni-ki,” I stated, acting tough.

“Hyung, are you okay? I’m sorry. I’m sorry about what I did,” he apologized and approaches me then held my arm.

I pulled myself from him. “It’s okay. Just go now, please. Go, let’s just pretend that nothing happened,” I said and look away.

“Hyung, you’re shaking—”

“Just fucking get out!”

“Sunoo hyung…” he called then I heard the door’s passcode getting tap.

I bit my lowerlip. “Fuck,” I cursed and the door open.

“Hyung, I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to kiss you,” Ni-ki stated that made my eyes wide open and gasps.

Why does he need to say it the moment the door opened? Why? Ni-ki why?

I feel like my knees weakened. My throat dries. My whole system is about to bug down. I couldn’t take my eyes off Ni-ki who’s looking so concern to me. I can’t afford to meet Sunghoon hyung’s eyes. I can’t.

“Ni-ki, right?” Sunghoon hyung asked and I didn’t bother to look.

“Yes, hyung. We’ve meet—”

“Go home,” hyung cut him off. His voice is cold as ice.

Yet Ni-ki insisted, “Sunoo hyung and I need to talk first—”

“I said go home,” the voice used is even colder and deeper than the first one.

Ni-ki look at me and I know he’s seeing how tears are already forming in the corner of my eyes. “Go,” I mouthed. “Please,” I added.

“O-okay hyung… Sorry about it again,” he apologized and get his things as he headout.

I remained standing and looking at my toes. I felt Sunghoon hyung walk passed by me and went to the kitchen. I hear the sound of glass meeting the table.

“Go inside the room, Sunoo. Wait for me,” he instructed. His voice is full of authority.

“Y-yes, hyung,” I answered and head inside the room.

I take a seat on the bed and hug my knees. I’m now praying hyung won’t hit me or anything. Please. Please I’m begging to all Saints right now that Sunghoon hyung won’t kill me tonight.

The door suddenly opens. I didn’t move and my eyes didn’t look at his direction but I saw through my peripheral vision that he’s taking off his shirt.

“You know I hate that Japanese, right?” he asks.

“I’m sorry, hyung,” I apologized at him.

“He said he kissed you?” he asks again.

That’s my cue to look at him and I slowly nod. “B-but I pushed him! I pushed him away! I don’t know! I swear hyung I didn’t respond!” I defended myself and felt my tears streaming down.

He went on the bed and move closer to me. I didn’t move an inch and just wait for him. He held my chin and I can see how cold his eyes but I can also sense anger on it.

“Sunghoon h-hyung…” I cry his name.

“If I’ll see you near that guy, you’ll know what will happen. You get that?”

I nod at him. “Y-yes hyung… I’m sorry,” I apologized and sob.

He let go of me and went to his sleeping position. I gasp. That’s it? “Hyung, d-do you want me to blow you?” I asked.

“Forget it. Just sleep,” he said and didn’t even turn around to see me.

I move closer to him, almost hugging. “Hyung, are you okay?” I ask and he didn’t answer. “Sunghoon hyung…”

I heard him released a deep sigh and he move to look at me. “Can you give hyung a kiss?”

I quickly did it. “Do you feel sick?” I ask.

He takes a seat and brushes some tears on the corner of my eyes. Then he pulled me for a hug. I hug him back. He’s resting his chin on my shoulders.

“Shouldn’t you be mad—”

“Shh,” he hushed. “I don’t want to hear about it,” he said. “Let’s just stay like this for a minute.”

I keep quiet and just hug him; gently rubbing his broad and muscular back. “It’ll be fine, hyung…” I whispered.

After a minute he pulled out and kisses me. I kiss him back. This is the kiss that I want. That kisses that I can’t resist. It’s Sunghoon hyung’s lips that I love.

“Let’s sleep,” he said with a small smile and laid his back. I stared at him for a second. We’re really going to sleep? Right away!? “Why are you staring at me like that?”

“H-huh? N-no, me? Where?” I stuttered and laid back as well, leaving a gap between us but then he pulled me close to him and hugs me.

“Why? Expecting to get fuck, baby?” he asks, now his voice is surely teasing me.

“N-no!” I am clearly… denying it.

He chuckles. “I’m sorry, vixen. No dick for tonight. Your hyung’s not really in a mood,” he apologized.

I turn sideways and look at him. “I really thought you’re going to get mad. You don’t know how nervous I am,” I stated.

“I am mad,” he smiles a bit. “But I’m not just really in the shape to get mad and punish you right now for allowing someone to kiss you aside from me,” he said. “So let’s just take this as a warning, okay?”

I nod at him. “I’m sorry again, hyung…”

I know Sunghoon hyung is having a hard time right now. I can see how sadden his eyes are. I can see how fake his smiles are. I can see how tired he is as well. I hope… I hope time will come that he’ll open up things to me.

“Good night, vixen. I’ll fuck you tomorrow, okay? So don’t sulk there and sleep.”