“Oh… he’s still sleeping… I guess so? He got tired of work maybe… okay….”

I can hear hyung’s voice inside the room. I slowly open my eyes and saw him standing near the window, shirtless. I can also smell his usual vape scent inside the room. I tried to move and that’s when I felt that my body is aching.

What the fuck happened?

I move a bit and I felt cold. I look at myself and my eyes widen when I look under the blanket and I’m naked. “Ah!” I screamed.

Sunghoon hyung turns around and look at me. “Good morning, vixen,” he greeted.

“W-what happened— argh! My head!” I screamed again when my head started throbbing.

“Aigoo,” hyung reacted and chuckles then inhales some as he walk closer to me. He blow smokes in front of me and that made me cough a bit. “Congratulations. You’re not virgin anymore,” he smirks. “Well, you aren't since then.”

“A-ah—”

I’m out of words.

Memories from last night started flashing and my hands started to shake. My head started to ache even more. “W-we had sex?” I asked to confirm.

“Bingo!”

I takes a seat and pulled my hair a bit while trying to remember everything and my eyes widen. “Right! You filmed it, right!? Where is it!? Delete it Sunghoon hyung!” I raved.

He frowns. “Huh? What are you talking about?”

“Stop lying!”

He fingerflicked my forehead that made me flinch in slight pain. “Stop yelling at me. Whether I filmed it or not, you don’t need to care.”

“But that was me! Hey! Hyung!” I throw tantrums and I just felt my tears running on my cheeks. “Delete it please? Please!” I begged at him, hands are clasped. “H-hyung,” I sob hard.

But he’s just plainly looking at me with his usual blunt face. He inhaled again and blow some smokes. He then shake his head and say, “I won’t,” and he walks out of the room.

“S-Sunghoon hyung! Hyung! Hyung! Delete it please! Please!” I yelled as I sob so hard but I didn’t get any response at him.

I hug my knees and buried my face in there as I cry so hard. I cry really hard that’s enough for him to hear outside since the door isn’t closed.

I forced myself to wash up and went back to the room again and lock it even if I know he’s outside. I get on the bed and started silently crying again, regretting everything that I did.

My phone vibrates and Keith’s calling. It’s within my reach but I just lost all my energy that only blinking and breathing is the only thing I can do.

What will he gonna do with that video? Is he going to share it with his friends and brag about it? N-no, will he gonna upload it? What if they are already watching it while laughing at me?

What the fuck I’m going to lose my mind!

What will people going to say about me when they found out about the video? Especially Keith? Damn it! I shouldn’t really have involved myself with him!

I’m so fucked up! I’m fucking doomed!

“Sunoo,” I heard hyung’s voice and he knocks on the door. “Get out now and eat.”

I didn’t reply at him and decided to cover myself with blanket. I suddenly don’t want to be seen by anyone. It feels like I’m even alone, there’s some staring at me. I’m shaking.

“Hey, Kim Sunoo…” he repeated but I forced my eyes to shut. “Kim Sunoo! I’m really going to wreck this door! Get out!” he yelled but I bit my lower lip to not to sound anything.

I didn’t know how long I shut my eyes until I fall asleep again. I wake up by a long sound of vibrations and when I open my eyes, it’s already dark outside. My phone’s light is dominating the room and when I checked it, I got welcomed by how many Keith’s message our and missed call as well as Jungwon saying I should pick up my phone because Keith messaged him for amount of times.

I sigh and decided to turn off my phone and hug a pillow. I’m spacing out again but then I heard the door getting open by a key and I immediately covered myself under the blanket.

“Until when are you going to stay in there?” Sunghoon hyung asked, he opened the door.

I didn’t answer again.

“Hey,” he called. “Sunoo, I’m really going to send to Keith everything if you won’t face me right now,” he threatens.

I immediately pulled off the blanket and look at him. My eyes are it again, tears are about to fall again. “H-hyung… d-don’t, please?” I pleaded, trying not to cry.

He sighs and went closer to me, he takes a seat beside me and hugs me. That’s the queue for me to cry again. “H-hyung! D-don’t please? D-don’t post it, p-please,” I bawls.

“What did I told you about this, Sunoo? I said, if you’re going to stay a good girl, everything will be fine,” he stated, rubbing my back.

“B-but I can’t trust you,” I said between my sobs. “W-what if y-you already s-sent it? W-what if you already p-posted it?”

“And to whom am I going to send it?”

“Y-your friends! To sell it! I don’t know!” I answered in confusion and I felt him pulled me and held my cheeks.

“Hey, listen carefully, Sunoo,” he started in a calm and convincing note. “Why would I let them see how fucking sexy you are Sunoo? I want it all for me. I want you just mine, baby. I don’t want anyone seeing you naked aside from me, you get that?”

What is this again… Why do I feel like I’m getting swayed by his words again? Is this true? Is he really going to keep it for himself? Should I really trust him?

“How can I trust you, Sunghoon hyung?”

He holds my hand. “Just do trust me,” he stated. “Our videos are safe.”

Our… So it wasn’t just me after all. It’s the two of us. It’s us.

I forced a smile and nods. “Y-yes… Yes, I trust you, hyung,” I said and hug him again, burying my face on his chest.

That’s the only thing I can do. I should trust him or I’ll mess up. I should be in his good side of he’ll turn the tables and throw me under the bus.

He gently pushed me away and then kisses me, I kissed him back and his hands landed on my waist. He pulled out and looks at me. “How was it? How’s hyung in bed?” he asks.

I pursed my lips and I feel my inside twitching as if it remembers how good he is last night. “I-I… I love it,” I whispered under my breath.

“You what? Hyung can’t hear you, baby,” he said.

“I-I…” I paused and look at him. “I love it, hyung.”

He smiles and kisses me again. “Now what do you prefer? To fuck or to get fucked?” he asked again.

“I-I’m… I’m fine with b-both but… but if it’s you then…” I bit my lip before continuing, “I’m fine getting fucked.”

He kisses me again and asks, “Who’s better? My sister or me?”

I gasp. What kind of question is this…

“Keith is… Keith’s good but… but you made me lose my sanity hyung…” I pause again to breath. “I like it more… with you.”

He softly laughs and ruffles my hair. “Good girl,” he complimented. “Do you want to eat dinner outside?” he asks me.

I nod at him. “Y-yes hyung,” I answered.

“Okay, go get a jacket and we’ll go out,” he smiles and get up.

“Yes,” I replied and get up but I realized something. “Ah, all my hoodies are at the laundry,” I said.

“Go get mine,” he replied.

I walk closer to the cabinet where his clothes are and picked a hoodie. I wear it and it’s really loose on me then I felt a hug from behind me.

“Sunoo… no matter what happened, trust your hyung, okay?”

Actually, I’m only acting like this because I don’t really have a choice. Trust him? How can I? I really can’t but my feelings are fucking betraying me right now.

Look, my heart is even beating so fast right now and I know how it means, I’m not naïve to not to know why is it beating like crazy but I don’t want to admit it.

I maybe like how dominating he is in bed but I can’t… I can’t like Sunghoon hyung aside from the lustful agenda. I shouldn’t like someone like him.

But on the other hand… something’s telling me that I can actually trust him.

Crazy, right? That’s real. I’m insane now.

I turn around and look up at him. He held my chin and kisses me that made me respond immediately. “You said I should trust you, right? And so I will, hyung.”

“Good girl… Trust me with everything you have, Sunoo.”