you left shadow and mrs. sakawaii alone as you made your way back to foods. although you felt something burn in your chest, it felt numb, you craved someone's presence but it was someone important that you wanted, not any ordinary friend. 

you decided to ignore this feeling, it was odd and uncomfortable but relaxing. the room was already busy, people were in their kitchens and such, you decided to get your things sorted through and join them. once you headed towards your kitchen one of the girls told you it was your turn to wash the dishes, you honestly didn't mind since running around getting confused on ingredients. you went to duty but you eavesdropped on one of the girl's conversations.

"do you know that new kid in class 9-4?" one of them said catching the other girls attention. "you mean Shadow? honestly he's so hot!" she cheered happily but some girls exchanged glares. "him? he's so edgy though, like I bet he can't even get a girlfriend because he's probably obsessed with my chemical romance" they laughed, it angered you. you felt a harsh shove against your lungs you could barely control your breathing. the soapy water was the only thing keeping you calm. 

"Also have you've seen Y/N? She's been clingy to shadow a LOT lately..." one of them whispers making you stop in your slightest motions with your heart racing by the sound of your name. "She like, follow him wherever he goes! Such a lost puppy!" One of them giggled as they continued to make jokes, you wanted your head at rest but something kept pounding on your forehead. It wanted you to turn around, you wanted to turn around to see the madness that was happening. You turned your head slowly with the pounding getting harder and harder as you began feeling sick, a twisted thought came to your head. They don't even notice that Michel is g o n e. They did their normal things as if that incident was breaking a cup of glass and then sweating it up and throwing it into the trash forever forgotten.

"Y/N?" His voice startled you. It. Pissed. You. Off. He was always so clingy to you and he was so selfish he kept you away from your dreams and life. You stood in front of him angry, frustrated, Irritated. All different emotions but meant the same thing, you could throw a dictionary at his face telling him your emotions That outrun any mind. But... you stood there down at him and before you could speak his eyes started watering as if he knew what you were thinking, his watery eyes went to blobs of tears covering his pupils blinding him in his tears. You still stood there with the unlimited emotions until the words came out. 

You shook out of the Daydream with your friend shaking your shoulder constantly. "Y/N!"you heard her faintly yell, you looked down to the sink and your hands... you dug your nails so deep into your skin it showed clear frustration in the deep cuts that bled non-stop. Beforeanybody could react the bell rang with your friend staring at you worriedly. "I'll be fine, I'll go to the office to get bandages... go eat lunch or whatever" you sounded more annoyed at the last sentence, your friend sensed your anger and scattered. You stayed in that spot and stayed still like the dream you had with Micheal. I won't end up like that... you were worried you were too clingy to people and one day, you'd be gone too and nobody will care, maybe for a day or two but they'll move on like they did with Micheal. 

Micheal was still crying but harder this time, his legs started to show and his body proposition was at an uneasy angle as if he were to fall. "Leave"

You shook out of the dream again with your nails clinging into you flesh harder and deeper, your eyes watered while you walked calmly in the hallway. The hallway was quiet, not like you could hear them. 

Micheal fell on the floor as he started gagging as if being choked, his knees were bruised and his chubby face began to twist to blue to purple so quickly you would consider him a absolute weirdo. "Me"

You started to feel light and you felt multiple things being thrown at you, like rocks and textbooks. Your face began going pale and your body went numb quickly while walking shakily through the hallway. Your nails were deep inside your palm now, you could see the muscles and almost the bone. 

Micheal laid on his side gasping for air as his eyes slowly roll back,there was nothing much to say, he looked dead. "Alone"

You whispered the words as someone grabbed onto you, you didn't want to face anybody, your clothes and hands were extremely bloody. Suddenly the person embraced you into a protective hug as you  felt nothing but loved, you felt important on that spot. It felt like years you were walking on that path and there were so many other choices. This was the right choice. Your senses of hearing and knowing the situation around you, it was quiet except for quiet gasping, you looked up to see shadow but he tucked your head Back down into his chest. "Come any closer and i'll Fire..." fire? Like actual fire? You thought curiously but couldn't bring yourself away from his grasp, all you could do was watch the blood on your hands drip. "Fine we'll leave the bitch alone." A man of a familiar voice said as more of ones person footstep clattered against the cement on the floor, the footsteps got quieter and quieter soon, they were gone. You tried to look up again but he held you still.

"I want you to close your eyes, and when I say open, you open your eyes. Clear?" His voice snapped making your eyes automatically close on their own as your own weight was soon lifted in the air while having support with two arms. You found yourself in shadows arms. He whispered something soft and quiet, then a sound after it almost sounding like electricity. He stood for a moment then dashed to somewhere far. It was a long wait till everything slowed down. "Open" his voice was soft but he had pants between the word open as if exhausted.

You opened your eyes to see a messy bedroom, you were on the bed that had blankets that were so soft but you hesitated to touch them Incase you'd stain them with blood. You glanced up and saw a couple posters but you quickly looked away embarrassed of the nude posters of women, they were mostly on motorbikes you noticed before looking away, you looked over at shadow who was sitting in a chair, on his left was a glass cage with a snake in it sleeping. On his right was.. a case of weaponary. Then a wall of guns and knives, he was holding a gun in his hand but he settled it down on the table near him. "Do you kill people?!" You covered your mouth from the stupid question you asked but he didn't respond, you felt awkward now, extremely awkward. You were in shadows bedroom, mostly importantly I think that's his underwear your sitting on.

"I do kill people but only for good reasons..." he turned to face you as you quickly kicked his underwear under his bed. "Did you.. i mean, killed people at your old school?" He nodded no as you only sighed in relief. "But the reason I brought you here was because you looked like that." He pointed at your shirt that was covered in stains. "Yea I know,  I-I.. my hands–" 

"No, your shirt. It looks like you got shot and I had a gun at the moment so If I were to be standing around looking like a lost child, I would've got put into custody." Good point but did he have to mention it so harshly? "Although this wasn't the best idea since I threatened a few people for your safety. Should thank me." He glared at you at the final statement. "I was heading to the bathroom it would've been perfectly fine. Plus why were you carrying a gun?" You got him there, he sat there quietly, until he looked at you again. "I saw you getting that trash thrown at you... so I did what I had to before I realized that you almost looked like you got shot" he said finally, you felt happy he did so and that he was there, you smiled softly showing your emotions towards him. "Thanks, I appreciate it a lot.." you started to go pale again with the same dream but a whole lot different. 

You were Micheal.