" Memories can be
More fearful than reality.. "

Third person's P.O.V

          
         After finishing their breakfast Jimin and Jungkook sat in complete silence. Jimin was screaming inside as he was getting too nervous in the long silence. He was looking down at his lap where he was curling his fingers not noticing the elders interested gaze on him.

Jungkook never spent this much time with anyone cause he gets easily pissed off and most importantly he likes to spent his times alone. But this time he couldn't understand why he didn't want Jimin to let go. He wanted the younger to be there with him but not like this..... Where they will sit like mannequins. He wanted to talk with someone for the first time and  that's why he lacked in interacting skills.

So it doesn't matter how much dangerous and a play boy Jungkook was he was a introvert closed off person when it came to his personal life. He never thought about his personal life like it never existed.. He always thought about revenge and power. And see where he was.. A multimillionaire ruthless mafia businessman..... He never thought about his dreams cause he never dreamt.

But when he saw Jimin being a famous model and a passionate dancer... It somehow reminded Jungkook of his childhood. How he wanted to learn dance and didn't ate his lunch to make his mom agree and admit him in a dance class. But that day never came in his life....

When Namjoon's father gave them shelter he knew he had to be educated and make Taehyung educated too. Jungkook was always very much intelligent . Namjoon helped them to get admissioned in high school again and Jungkook put his every effort to ace in his studies.. He was always golden. In every single thing he did, was perfect. But unlike Taehyung he never interacted with anyone nor anyone had the courage to approach  him . He was the most handsome ,intelligent ,popular boy in  highschool but everyone knew he's bipolar and a dangerous mafia.

Everyone was scared of him including his teachers. His one gaze made anyone piss in their pants. After he took over the entire mafia he lacked time for attending school . So his attendance became irregular but when he would show up everyone treated him like a king but did he cared? Never. He was always a emotionless doll of cruelty and ruthlessness . When he graduated he was already a new young successful businessman man and rising feared Mafia leader so that's why he did his higher education privately.

Jimin somehow made Jungkook wonder if his parents were alive, if his life didn't get fucked up, if he got raised like a normal boy..... His life would have been so different.

It's not just him who turned himself like this, life pushed him to the edge too.

So here the infamous Jungkook was struggling to manage the silence between him and Jimin. He didn't know why he was suddenly wanting to start a conversation with the younger.

" Uhmm.. How was your recording? ",
Jungkook asked all of a sudden making Jimin look up with a surprised face.

Jimin could not process if he was hearing things or not. Did Jungkook just asked him something normal?

" Do you stare at people like this if they asks you something? ",
Jungkook's voice suddenly changed into a cold one that made Jimin want to slap himself for acting dumb.

" I-it was very good.. Thank you very much fo-for giving m-me the oppo-opportunity ...",
Jimin said half stuttering.

" I don't like people's stuttering when I'm not scaring them at all you
know? ",
Jungkook didn't have any idea nor control about what he was saying. Somehow the fear in Jimin's eyes and voice was irritating him.

" I'm sorry... ",
Jimin collected all his courage and replied without stuttering.

" Whatever. ",
Jungkook said rolling his eyes. Somehow it seemed kinda funny to Jimin like Jungkook saying normal things or mocking and the eye roll it seemed so like Jungkook's age when most of the time he acts older than it. But of course Jimin can't laugh in front of Jungkook, never in his life he wants to piss Jungkook off and ruin the harmless atmosphere.

While Jungkook was wanting to slam his head on the wall for acting weird. He didn't know why Jimin always makes him want to do odd things like, smiling, laughing, joking... But of course he's not going to do that.

Suddenly an idea came to Jungkook's mind and he decided to mess a little with Jimin.

" Why did you argue with your friends Baby Doll ?",
Jungkook asked making Jimin freeze.

" They said things about...About you. ",
Jimin replied nervously.

" So..? I asked why did YOU argue? They said things about me not about you. ",
Jungkook said trying to get a satisfying answer from his Baby doll .

Now Jimin looked straight at Jungkook with a questioning gaze. It didn't take much time for Jimin to understand what Jungkook was trying to do. Again he was tasting his love.

" They said things about you which I don't agree with , they said wrong.
I argued wait... I did not actually argued.. I told them what was wrong about their perspectives that's all. ",
Jimin answered with a sudden confidence as he remembered how he hated those words that his friends said about his lover.

To say Jungkook was amused with Jimin's confident answer that will be an understatement. But he wasn't someone who'll stop messing.

" So you didn't like them saying things about me huh ? They said what they thought, what everyone thinks about me. ",
Jungkook said making Jimin clutch his palms in anger thinking about anyone thinking or saying bad about Jungkook.

" Well I don't think like that nor agree with them. ",
Jimin said maintaining the eye contact with Jungkook. Jimin knew if he always get scared and say nothing he can never help Jungkook . Of course he was scared of Jungkook but he had to do it.

Jungkook clenched his jaw. He was too surprised of Jimin's sudden change. But he liked it.

" Why don't you think like that Baby Doll? I am exactly the same like they said. ",
Jungkook deadpanned knowing from some point Jimin might think like that about him too.

" No you're not. Not for me cause I don't judge people by what they shows they are. ",
Jimin said making Jungkook restless. He couldn't control himself anymore as he got off from the couch.

Jimin was internally shaking in fear but still determined to answer the truths.

" So how do... ",Jungkook pinned Jimin on the couch hovering on top of him , "You judge people? ",
Jungkook completed his question.

Jimin was scared to death will be an understatement.

" I judge people by their real personality not how they acts.. I judge them by their eyes... ",
Jimin said looking above at Jungkook's eyes which were his favourite.  The long curly raven bangs were falling over making Jungkook more attractive in Jimin's eyes.

" Do you judge me by my eyes...? ",
Jungkook asked pressing Jimin more onto the couch and leaning down eyeing Jimin's lips to eyes in the process.

" Yes-ahhhhhnnn... ",
Jimin was replying but Jungkook suddenly bit onto his jawline making him moan. Jimin clutched his eyes shut as he squirmed his hands in Jungkook's hold.

Jungkook continued nibbling on Jimin's jawline to upper neck.

" But they says my eyes are pretty emotionless . So how do you manage to judge me Baby doll...? ",
Jungkook asked nibbling on Jimin's earlobe making it more hard to answer for Jimin.

" It's.. It's not emotionless.. They ahnnn... they just fail to notice the real you behind ahahhnn ..behind the thin curtain over your emotions.. ",
Jimin manged to answer between the moans as Jungkook kept sucking on his skin.

" Then what do you see behind the curtain Baby doll...? ",
Jungkook asked looking straight at Jimin's eyes with a stern gaze as Jimin's words surprised him.

" I see the person I love.. I see the person with a beautiful smile, who doesn't hide his scars, let out the cries, lives the life... I see a beautiful person who just wants to get out of the cage that the cruel life put him into. ",
Jungkook was trying to process the words Jimin just said. No one... No one ever said something like that to him . The most surprising thing is all this words are coming out from someone that he is hurting from the very start.

Jungkook loosened up his grip on Jimin's hand and rested his elbow beside Jimin staring at him. Jimin wanted to cry... He really wanted to as he saw those always emotionless looking eyes are flashing with lots of emotions like they were restless.

Everything fell silent between them, no words, no movements until Jimin touched Jungkook's face softly with shaky hands making Jungkook gulp.

Jimin caressed Jungkook's cheek tracing his soft fingertips against the elder's flawless skin until it reached to the scar on Jungkook's left cheekbone. Once again rubbing his thumb on it cursing the person internally who caused it. Who hurt his Jungkookie.

Jungkook blinked and tried to collect himself as he thought he was going insane so he held Jimin's wrist stopping him from touching his face.

" The hell are you doing..? ",
Jungkook growled but Jimin was looking somewhere else.

Jimin's eyes watered as he noticed the scars on Jungkook's wrist.. The fresh ones.. It hurts him the most knowing that the person he loves with his everything is hurting inside.

" stop hurting yourself... Please... Please stop I... ",
Jimin cried out as he touched the scars with his another hand.

Jungkook's heart clenched as he saw the smaller crying.

Jimin moved up a little and pressed his lips on Jungkook's wrist where the scars were as tears left his eyes. Jungkook's breath hitched at the action. Again it's the first time someone was doing something like this and Jungkook was letting it happen.

Soon Jungkook's anger was got the best of him again as he felt like Jimin is giving him sympathy, making him look pathetic and weak.

Jimin's P.O.V

      Killing myself, yes that's what I want to do now. Seeing those scars on his hand is making me want to sob. He still hurts himself..... He hurts himself and that's enough for me to want to stab myself.... Why why just why...

I know it pains, pains him so much and I couldn't do anything about it, I couldn't stop him and what do I exclaim? I will do anything for him.... I am useless.

I kissed the fresh scars.... I'll not let it happen again .... I'll do anything to stop him from hurting himself.

" Please stop hurting yourself... ",
I pleaded again and he remained silent.

" Why do you care? ",
The same question. He asked the same question again.

" Caused I can't see you getting hurt.. I can't take the fact that you feel so much pain... ",
I said as my eyes started to get blur with tears.

He suddenly pulled away and got off of me leaving me alone on the couch. I looked at his back which was facing me as more tears came out of my eyes. I quickly got off from the couch and ran to him but I don't have the courage to touch him now. I got on my knees behind him waiting for him to say something.. 

" What can you do to stop me? ",
He asked with the same bone chilling voice.

" I would do anything Master... If you want me to hurt myself I'll do it too.. I'll do anything you want... Just stop hurting yourself.... Please.. ",
I replied what my heart said and I know it's truth. I'm willing to do anything for him.

Third person's P.O.V

" Can you kill yourself ? ",
Jungkook's asked with a stone cold voice as he turned his head to right side eyeing a crying Jimin on the floor.

Jimin looked up with teary eyes.

" will you stop hurting yourself if I do? ",
Jimin unknowingly asked with a sadly hopeful voice.

" ahhhhhh... ",
Jimin whimpered in pain as Jungkook suddenly turned around and grabbed his hair and pulled him up .

" And from when do you think you can ask questions? ",
Jungkook growled tightening his grip on Jimin's hair.

" I -I ahh am sorry... ",
Jimin apologised as he was clutching onto Jungkook's shirt ,silently begging to leave him.

Again Jungkook was hurting Jimin because he felt confused, something new and he thought he hated it. He couldn't take the fact that Jimin's every words were pulling the lost chords of his heart one by one. So there he was hurting Jimin which he'll regret later.

" FUCK YOUR APOLOGIES! ANSWER THE QUESTION I ASKED !",
Jungkook screamed too loudly and it echoed through the silent mansion making Jimin flinch badly.

" Yes I can... I can.. I will kill myself if you order me to . ",
Jimin replied as tears beamed down from his closed eyes.

And it's the answer that Jungkook was very much addicted too . Cause it was an answer that's only came out from Jimin's mouth and he always says like he mean it. There was no count how many peoples Jungkook killed through his 23 years of life but no one was selfless like Jimin, no one said these words like Jimin said. Everyone other than Jimin pleaded to leave them and forgive them but Jimin... He's always different.

" Are you lying? ",
Jungkook asked again. For some reason he wanted to get assured by Jimin again and again. It was so unlike Jungkook, he was always a person to order not someone who'll ask a single question again and again to hear the same answer and feel satisfied.

Jimin wanted to answer but suddenly he was feeling very dizzy after Jungkook screamed. The loud echo made him dizzy. It was always like this. The very familiar stinging pain inside Jimin's lower head was rising  which Jimin always thought is migraine. It started appearing more often after he moved to Seoul but he always avoided it.

But this time it came in the most worse way like it happened in his home sometimes , Busan.  He remembers few horrific Vivid memories and it made him shake violently.

' A little boy was crying after a lady said something to him... Then the boy cried and cried until he looked like he can't cry anymore. He looked like his heart is dead may be head too. He looked hurt, very hurt.

And suddenly the boy way standing in the middle of a road looking at a car coming towards him.

And then... pain, blood, car screeching, screams and then dark... Completely dark. '

Jimin was clutching his eyes shut as he was shaking very badly. The nightmare came again, he was feeling the same pain as the boy. His head was hurting very much, his entire body was paining and shaking .

Jungkook loosened his grip on Jimin's hair and held his shoulder trying to understand what just happened. Jimin never acted like this. He couldn't understand why Jimin was looking like he was in intense pain and will pass out?

" Ahhhh ahhhh ahhhhhhhh.... Mummy ahhhhhhhh I -can't.. I can't anymore... I'm so-sorry.... ",
Jimin was having the same panic attack again. He was feeling the same pain as the dreadful accident from years ago which was actually a suicide attempt.

" Jimin.. Jimin..! Wake up! Jimin what's happening! Wake up!! ",
Now it was Jungkook's time to get worried. He couldn't understand what caused Jimin to have panic attack all of a sudden but he couldn't do anything. He didn't know what to do.

" No no no ahhhh... ",
Jimin was holding his head and his face showed ultimate pain.

" Jimin! Jimin no! Wake up! It's not your what you're seeing! You're okay! Just wake up..  ",
Jungkook held Jimin's waist and patted his cheeks to break the trance but it wasn't working. Jimin was clutching how eyes shut and with every seconds passed he looked like he was dying.

Jungkook felt Jimin's body way getting limp in his hold and he was looking like he can't breathe.

" Jimin breathe please!! Jimin Jimin please breathe!! Nothing is happening with you! You're okay please open your eyes! Jimin!! ",
Jungkook was loosing his mind as he saw the younger in that state. He couldn't help but remember about his mother.

" No no no Jimin!!! ",
Jungkook got scared,  the first time after years he really got scared when Jimin fell unconscious in his arms looking so much in pain.

" Whoa.. I...Jimin!!! Wake up baby! ",
Jungkook exclaimed holding Jimin's face but it was burning.

" Fuck ! ",
Jungkook cursed at himself before taking Jimin bridal style and running upstairs.
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   " Send me his file in 30 minutes
Mr. Kang. ",
Namjoon ordered someone in the phone.

" I.. I can't sir... Ple-please it's his private information... "

" You're saying no to me? Forgot about who I am? ",
Namjoon's scary voice made the man shiver on the other line.

" I'm really... Really sorry... Please forgive me sir... "

" Stop with your sorry bullshit and send me the file. I don't want to hear anything else. ",
Namjoon cut the call and threw the phone in the couch in frustration.

He rubbed his forehead with his thumb and the index finger as he started thinking about the whole situation.

" Never imagined Jimin will lie. I trusted him with Jungkook... Thought he will relive Jungkook...change him for better... But he was lying the whole time..... But why?.. Why didn't it feel like he was lying?...why did he always looked like a pure angel, acted like one?... Why he acts so selfless?.... Why do I still want to trust him..? ",
All this thoughts were running inside Namjoon's head making it more of a mess.

A sudden ring of Namjoon's phone broke the chain of his thoughts and he took the phone in his hand. He couldn't help but feel happy to see the name of the caller on his screen.

It's Jin. He picked up immediately.

" Hi... ",
Namjoon greeted.

" Hello Namjoonah... How are you? "

" I'm fine. What about you? ",
Namjoon lied.  He's definitely not fine at all. He's completely stressed about the situation.

" That's good... I just wanted to ask you... You... ",

" What is it Jin? Tell me please.. ",
Namjoon asked worriedly as he thought the person he secretly loves is in trouble.

" No...its just..... I know it's already evening but did Jungkook and Jimin came back? ",
Jin sounded like he just changed his question and he did for real.

" No.. They isn't back yet. Anything else...? Or it's just it? ",
Namjoon asked hoping for something else.

" I ahh... I wanted to ask.. Ask if you can come to my house for dinner tonight... You know it's okay if you say no.. I know you're busy and all.. ",

Namjoon's face immediately lit up with happiness and excitement. His crush is inviting him in a dinner.

" No no it's okay. Completely okay. My work will be done in few hours. I'll love to come. ",
Namjoon said.

" that's really good, I'm glad. "

" So meet you at 8:00 ? ",
Namjoon asked thinking how can he finish the entire sea of tasks in few hours.

" Hmm.. That will be great.. "

" it's all my pleasure. ",
Namjoon could not stop smiling.

" Okay bye then. "

" Bye. See you. "

Namjoon cut the call smiling but the moment his eyes fell on his desk his smile faltered upon getting reminded about the situation as his eyes made contact with the family photograph of Park family and Jimin's photo beside it.

He picked up two pictures in his hands. One being the Park family and other being a smiling Jimin. Namjoon was so determined to prove the truths but at the same time a fear of something wrong attacking his mind. But his loyalty and duty was first...so if Jimin is really Park Jimin . He has to die for sure.

A knock on the office door made Namjoon startled and he put the pictures on the table.

" Come in. ",
Namjoon said and sat on his swivel chair. Seconds later the door opened and his secretary Daniel entered the room.

" Sir. Sorry to disturb you but I'm here to give you the file you asked for. Mr. Kang sent it. ",
Daniel said with a very polite voice.

Namjoon extended his hand and Daniel placed the file on Namjoon's hand.

" Thanks. You may leave now. ",
Namjoon said and Daniel bowed before leaving the office.

Namjoon sighed and looked at the file. It's Jimin's University profile and the way to prove the truth so simply. The real surname, parents name and every other details will be clearly written there.

But for some reason Namjoon felt tensed and kind of scared to open the file .

" I've to prove it. ",
Namjoon thought and opened the file.

But before he could see or read anything his office door opened and a furious looking Kai entered the room.

" What are yo--",
Namjoon was about to ask but Kai stopped him by slamming his hand on the table.

" What the heck are you trying to do brother!! ",
Kai growled looking straight at Namjoon.

" That should be my question! ",
Namjoon retorted with a cold face.

" Don't try to use the sharp mouth of yours with Me! For your kind information it's not gonna work !",
Kai nearly yelled.

" Then why are you making me use it? What are you doing here? Go be the servant of that cheater! You respect him don't you? ",
Namjoon was really angry at Kai.

" I don't have the time to talk fight with you brother! Tell me why do you need Jimin's private information so much? Why did you force Mr. Kang to give you his university profile!? ",
Kai asked glaring at Namjoon.

" It's not your business. What I want.. I get. No one can stop me. It's important for me. ",
Namjoon was about to look at the opened file on the desk again but before he could take it Kai snatched it and closed it.

" The fuck do you want! ",
Namjoon yelled getting up.

" Just doing my job of keeping Jimin safe . JK ordered me to keep everything about Jimin safe and private. So whatever is in this file you don't get to see it! ",
Kai said with a smile.

" Kim fucking Jong-in !",
Namjoon seethed.

" Yes Brother ?",
Kai still had the smile on his face.

" Why the fuck are you nosing in my business? Let me do my work! ",
Namjoon tried to calm himself down and talk politely cause he knew Kai isn't someone he can easily scare. The only person Kai was scared of is Jungkook.

" I'm not nosing around. Just doing my duty properly brother and don't get me wrong but I think the one who's nosing around is You. Trying to ruin everything! ",
Kai was smiling but his voice was dripping with venom.

" I am not ruing any fucking thing! ",
Namjoon said rolling his eyes.

" You're! Believe me Jimin is actually no harm until you hurt his Jungkookie. ",
Kai smiled at the memory when he heard Jimin calling his boss Jungkookie while thinking something.

" Give me the file back. ",
Namjoon ordered and Kai chuckled.

" Take it from me if you can. ",
Kai said with a challenging voice.

Namjoon was loosing his patience and getting desperate. So before he could think anything he took his revolver from the desk and pointed towards Kai who stopped laughing.

" Give it back or be dead! ",
Namjoon's loud voice echoed through the room. Kai was silently looking at the revolver pointed towards him.

For one second Namjoon thought Kai is scared and will give him the file back but ohhh how wrong he was.

" Oh my god... I'm so scared! Let me go sir please let me go Hahahahahaha ",
Kai laughed out loudly as he pulled out his revolver and pointed at Namjoon.

" I love you so much brother. But you know how I'm loyal to my duty. So don't make me do something that will hurt me inside. ",
Kai said still pointing the gun at Namjoon.

" You people's are being pathetic !",
Namjoon said with a irritated voice and put the gun down.

" No.  Just duty that's all. It's JK's order that I'm following. Every single thing or details about Jimin is supposed to be seen by JK himself. ",
Kai said and Namjoon heart beat fastened.

" What? ",
Namjoon asked. He can't help but feel scared . of course he wanted to prove but didn't want Jungkook to find out at first.. He couldn't help but feel scared for Jimin.

" Yes brother. It's the order. Then why fighting? You're doing all this for Jungkook right? I am going to give it to him too. I know nothing is wrong inside it and if it is...... Nyahhh it
can't ",
Kai said knowing a boy like Jimin can never lie. He saw the eternal love for Jungkook in Jimin's eyes.

" No Kai... Then please let me check it for once. ",
Namjoon pleaded.

" Don't get back to the square one brother. Fuck off and wait till JK to say anything. Bye. ",
Kai said and left the office before Namjoon could do or say anything.

Namjoon knew unknowingly Kai dragged Jimin into more danger.

" It hurts
more
than it seems... "

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