" Truly, Madly and Deeply... that's how the Devil loved his angel, doesn't matter if it required him to be selfish. "

Jungkook and Jimin's souls were falling in the depth of galaxy with them holding eachother against their chests. The shinny glittering lights of the stars reflected on their faces as they kissed.

Jungkook tried to hold Jimin as tightly as possible , the Writhing pain of fear was still burning in his chest even when he has gave up his life to be with his Jimin. Now nothing can make them be apart...but the happiness ? The happiness, love and care Jimin deserved ?

Jungkook felt like he was a failed lover as tears rolled down his eyes. Wasn't he supposed to be happy that he finally reached his Jimin forever...? Then why was he feeling the burning on his skin cause of the fuelling guilt ?

Why couldn't Jungkook fall in the depth of the galaxy with Jimin without feeling like he has killed his Jimin !? He murdered his lover and his unborn child who deserved every little happiness in the world ?

Jungkook didn't know when he hid his face in the crook of Jimin's neck to find the warmness but why was he losing the touch of his lover ?

Why was Jimin fading away once again !? No no! Jungkook couldn't tolerate it ! He held Jimin tighter but all in vain.

" Jimin don't go ! Please ! Jimin !!! " Jungkook wanted to scream but nothing came out of his throat .

" We deserve more Jungkookie...our life, our...us together. There's still left."
That was only thing Jimin said before Jungkook saw Jimin drifting away from his hold. He couldn't do anything as he again felt the unbearable pain in his chest and the burnings in his skin . But he could care less .

Jungkook couldn't understand anything rather than trying to reach the fading Jimin with his eyes getting blur till it became all black, once again.

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The final cardioversion shock was placed on the motionless Jungkook's chest, knowing it would also not work and with zero chance of getting a mere respond from him.

But he did respond after uncountable tries. His chest heaved up with the shock and he tried to breathe harder.

His soul was gifted back to him by the destiny itself cause...he still had to complete his duty of being his Lover's worthy lover, boyfriend and husband.

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" Doctor !!! He's responding ! He is breathing Doctor ! " the nurses yelled in unison as they saw the HRM monitor's flatline suddenly rose up to the Bradycardia level .

Jimin's heart responded. It responded to beat with his lover, once again. Cause ?...He was the winner. The Winner against the Destiny itself.

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" You're being selfish Jungkook!! " Taehyung tried to restrain his aggressive voice because of two reasons. One was because, it was Jeon Jungkook he was talking to and second one was , Jimin was sleeping in the room beside.

" Tell me when I was not ? I'll do anything to keep him in my arms, safe and sound, wrapped with love. Even if you call it selfishness or whatever the fuck you want. " Jungkook's cold collected voice domineered . The little drawing room fell silent till Taehyung spoke again.

" But you can't hide everything Forever ! Doesn't he deserve to know everything !? Atleast the littlest things ? You can't keep him in the dark forever ! Hidden forever ! Tomorrow or the day after he'll get to know everything and then he'll be hurt again ! " Tears were pooling on Taehyung's eyes cause he can never imagine his little brother hurt again.

" And how is he going to know ? Who'll tell him ? You ? Huh ? " Jungkook's sharp curt voice spread the fear in the room. A Devil may get defeated to his angel, devote himself to his angel but a Devil, Always remains a Devil.

" Jungkook... please... Atleast let me stay here... I can't live in Seoul without him without you...he just calls me his brother but...but he forgot his Tae Tae Jungkook ! And it hurts ! " Taehyung looked down , holding back his sob.

" If you are done, you can leave. It's already dawn . " Jungkook said getting up from the couch with a stone face without looking at Taehyung's pleading face.

" Jung- " Taehyung could say no more.

" You can visit once in a week . Talk to him and spend time . Go back and think how much hurt he will be if he remembers. Yes, I'm selfish. I'm selfish cause I want to erase every past. I can't afford to stand infront of him being the Jeon Jungkook again. " Jungkook said turning his back on Taehyung.

" And if I say you're cheating ? You're lying , you're making an illusion of lies ? I'm his brother and your as well ! I don't care if you forgot it but I have the right to decide about him ! " Taehyung said with his every string of strength and courage but Jungkook Still didn't look at him.

" Cheating and lying...huh ? Yeah. Only to keep him happy. Only to mend the broken pieces of past. Only to heal the scars I've caused your brother. " Jungkook said , his voice still calm and authorative.

" Kookah...you..." Taehyung couldn't say anything more .

" Don't fight with me Tae . Don't dare doing it. It's not a request, it never was. It's an order. Leave. " Jungkook said.

" I'm going away today kookah...bu-but I'll come back..." Taehyung said wiping away the lone tear from his eyes.

" I never stopped you from doing so. " Jungkook said and it physically hurt Taehyung that he was again losing his Best friend because of the situation.

Taehyung knew, no one else will be ever able to love Jimin like Jungkook does, no one will ever be able to cherish him like Jungkook does but somewhere there... Taehyung couldn't forget the past.

Taehyung couldn't forget that Jungkook shot Jimin that day. He didn't know if it was out of anger or anything but he couldn't forget it. He didn't know how Jungkook got into the accident and stuffs .... they actually knew nothing that happened in the deadly dark day. Jungkook never told them nor Jimin remembered.

Taehyung was going to leave silently but this time, Jungkook stopped.

" Tae... " Jungkook's call made Taehyung stop and turn towards him in a flick of seconds, hoping for some positive agreement from Jungkook.

" Yes Kookah ? " Taehyung asked and gulped as he saw Jungkook approching him.

Taehyung could only blink when Jungkook stopped right infront of him and once again pulled him in a hug after months. And ofcourse, Taehyung was shocked , too shocked as he couldn't help but remember when he almost lost Jungkook that day. He automatically hugged back and closed his eyes .

" Drive safely. " Jungkook said patting Taehyung's back and the older hummed .

" And stay away if you want to disobey my decision. " Jungkook's sudden cold voice made Taehyung stiffened but Jungkook was still hugging him.

" Take care of yourself. " Jungkook said and Taehyung nodded this time , not knowing how should he reply this polar opposite words.

" Remember, fighting against me would probably bring you pain which I don't want to cause . Don't make me do it. " Jungkook said patting Taehyung's back again.

Taehyung stayed silent. He was in a different mud of fear and nervousness along with care.

" You remember that I see you as my gurdian right ? My older brother ? And my best friend ? " Jungkook asked pulling back from the hug but still holding Taehyung's shoulder.

Taehyung blinked nervously and nodded seeing Jungkook's small smile.

" Then you should also know that I care for you and your well being. " Jungkook said and Taehyung nodded again, unable to utter Something.

" Leave. " Jungkook said and moved away leaving a stiffened, perplexed Taehyung stand there for seconds till Jungkook walked out of the drawing room.

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" How did we meet Jungkookie ? " Jimin asked out of blue and making Jungkook stiff while he was brushing Jimin's hair.

The morning started beautifully. Jimin woke up while Jungkook was making their breakfast and Jimin couldn't help but stand there beside the door and gawk at his boyfriend ... Unintentionally or intentionally pressuring himself to remember atleast a little about their past.

Jimin couldn't help but feel lucky each moment cause he never thought someone can love someone so much. What did he do to deserve this man ? But what hurt Jimin more was, he thought he was hurting Jungkook by not remembering him.

Jungkook looked at Jimin with worried eyes and cupped his soft cheeks tenderly before he knelt infront of Jimin who was sitting on the edge of the bed.

Jimin's heart started to sting again as he saw Jungkook's eyes. He immediately held the older's wrist .

" Jungkookie please...tell me something..." Jimin asked with a soft pleading voice without knowing how the other was holding back his exhaustion of hiding the truths and holding back the anger he has for himself.

How was Jungkook supposed to say how they met? And why they met ? How was Jungkook supposed to tell that he was there waiting in Taehyung's office to kill Jimin that day ? Was trying to decide how to slash his throat ? And how one glance of Jimin made him restless and change his plan ? How Jungkook couldn't pinpoint the feeling he got seeing Jimin and mistook the peace and safety in Jimin's eyes as Something else ? How he decided to ruin Jimin and play with him ? Kill him after breaking his heart and soul ?

Jimin noticed how Jungkook's eyes were becoming dull and sad ... only if anything else could hurt Jimin more. He couldn't tolerate his Jungkookie being sad.

" It was Friday. It was a sunny day. A bright day you know Baby ...? But not more bright than you . " Jungkook said circling his thumb on Jimin's cheek with his eyes burning with hidden tears.

Jimin felt his ears becoming hot but he couldn't help but want to hear more and melt in the touch of the older.

" And...? " Jimin asked and Jungkook couldn't maintain the eye contact anymore. Seeing Jimin's beautiful face and serene eyes were making it hard for him to forget those past moments flashing over Jungkook's eyes. Ofcourse Jungkook remembered every single details, what Jimin was wearing, how his hair was a little messy, how he looked a little tired but too gorgeous, how his lips parted in shock, how the chocolate Box from his hand fell, how nervous he got, how he blinked, how he walked, the way he smelled like peaches and fresh roses, how his skin tingled in the close proximity, right when he entered the office and even which foot he placed inside the office first.... every details, Jungkook remembered every details.

Jungkook suddenly rested his head on Jimin's lap with his eyes closed.

Jimin was confused, happy and also sad. Happy because how much Jungkook loves him and makes him feel loved and sad because he saw the pain in Jungkook's eyes but couldn't remember anything and confused cause he couldn't understand why Jungkook never tells him anything about the past.

" We met at Tae's office...you came to visit him. " Jungkook said wrapping his arms around Jimin's waist who placed his hands on Jungkook's hair, caressing his long raven locks... Something Jimin loved to do so much .

" Oh ? So you two work at same office Jungkookie ? " Jimin asked .

" Uhmm not actually... I was there for some work ... " Jungkook said while keeping his eyes close .

" And then ? We talked ? How did I look hehe ? Bad ? Or Good ? " Jimin giggled and Jungkook could feel his tears trying their best to betray him at this point.

" You looked too beautiful Baby. Too gorgeous... like an angel. People's jealous eyes on you were all over the place and I... I couldn't look away from you. " Jungkook said and Jimin giggled more.

" Aishh ! You're only saying this because you love me Jungkookie ! " Jimin said and Jungkook hid his face more in Jimin's lap and tried to forget everything that's were hammering on his mind.

" Yes I love you. I love you so much Baby...but you trust your Jungkookie right ? Then believe me... I've never seen anyone more ethereal than you ... You were, are and always will be the best sight in my eyes love. " Jungkook said , praying that Jimin changes the topic and forgets about it now but luck wasn't with Jungkook today.

" Did you think that you're gonna love me Jungkookie ? When you first saw me ? Hehe " Jimin asked eagerly with his voice filled with hope and happiness.

Jungkook felt his heart churn as he held Jimin tighter. Only if he could cry now.

" I'm sure that I knew I'm going to love you ! Hehe really ! I feel like I fell in love right there and then ! " Jimin said smiling and playing with Jungkook's hair while the older bit his bottom lip to restrain his sobs .

" Jungkookie ? " Jimin called carresing Jungkook's nape as he didn't understand why the older became silent all suddenly. He knew that the older wasn't much talkative but when it came to his Jimin, Jungkook would talk day night. All the things that Jimin's boyfriend did, made him feel special.

" Yes baby...? " Jungkook asked trying to collect his voice and looked up .

" Why did you stop ...? Did I say something wrong ? " Jimin asked blinking and Jungkook could die at the sight . He wanted to pull Jimin closer to his chest, hold him tightly and kiss him with all the love he had but he couldn't...or he didn't.

Everything scared him. What if Jimin remembers the monster behind the facade of his Sweet boyfriend in the kiss ? If only a voice and touch could trigger Jimin to remember Jungkook's name... Jungkook was scared. But however he wants, could he change the feeling of his touch that Jimin feels in his skin ?

Jungkook never wanted to hurt his Jimin again. Every time he craved for Jimin's touch , he remembered about how Jimin hid all his pain and showed only and only love.... Jungkook loved Jimin too much to care about their intimate relationship. All he wanted was, Jimin to be completely fine again to love him with his everything. He knew that Jimin would give into whatever he wants and it hurt Jungkook.

It hurt Jungkook that Jimin still loved him just like before, with the same devotion and same affection. The amount of times Jungkook has locked himself and cried for all these months were uncountable.

What could Jungkook want more than Jimin to be fit and fine again ? What could he want more than holding Jimin in his arms, kissing his forehead and keeping him happy ?

May be Jungkook would cut all the connections with everything one day and run away from the country with Jimin one day...? When Jimin gets cured properly ? He wanted nothing to surround them which could trigger any memories of Jimin ever again.

Jungkook knew that he was thinking like a selfish but he could do anything for Jimin.

" I'm sorry... I'm so sorry Love... Please forgive me if you can... Please..." Jungkook said surprising and confusing Jimin at the same time. He was about to protest against this sudden baseless sorry but suddenly he felt dizzy .

Some words, the same voice... Jimin felt uneasy . Something was playing in the far corner of his mind.

" I'm Sorry ... that I made you feel like this. "

Jimin's head hurt suddenly. Was it Jungkook's voice ? But why was it ? What was the situation.

" Ahh " Jimin suddenly hissed in pain, closing his eyes shut as he tried to remember anything .

" Jimin !? JIMIN !? " Jungkook worried shaky voice weren't reaching Jimin ears as he clutched his forehead, getting frustrated and exhausted because of the million tries of remembering his Jungkook.

" Baby stop ! No ! Please look at me Jimin !! " Jungkook cupped Jimin's Cheeks desperately.

" I - ah " Jimin was becoming restless till Jungkook pulled Jimin in his arms and hugged him tightly, caressing Jimin's back and nape hairline to calm him down. But certainly, Jungkook's touch was suddenly triggering Jimin's anxiety but also it's something that makes Jimin feel safe.

" It's okay it's okay... forget it ! Whatever it is, forget it. It's not worth remembering. Please... Please Baby listen to me...calm down. Won't you listen to your Jungkookie baby ? Then calm down.... please. " Jungkook had tears pooling on his eyes as he held Jimin close and the younger also clutched onto him tightly, almost digging his nails on Jungkook's back because of his restlessness but all the older cared about is, his Jimin being okay.

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By the time Jimin calmed down , he already felt tired and was half asleep in Jungkook's arms who was paranoid to the core. To Jungkook's dismay, he himself knew that something triggered Jimin's memories and the almost panic attack that Jimin faced right now scared Jungkook more than anything. No no ! Jimin can't remember anything ! Jungkook can't let him ! He can't see Jimin's tears again ! He can't let anything happen to his Jimin !

Was there no ways to restrain and erase every possibility of Jimin remembering the past ? Why did the always winner Jeon Jungkook was so powerless in every matter that related his lover ?

All these thoughts made Jungkook's grip tighter on the younger who was resting in his arms.

" I can't lose you again Doll... please...please don't do this me... don't remember anything... It'll hurt you and take you away from me... don't remember me Baby... don't. It's not worth it... " Jungkook said to himself and almost breaking down as he pressed a soft and tender kiss on Jimin's shoulder blade and his lower neck thinking the younger is asleep. The kisses rather showed worry and possessiveness over his love than anything else.

But Jimin wasn't asleep and the certain touch made his spine shiver and breathe sharply. His lips parted away in a silent gasp ... This touch...

Jimin knew that Jungkook wouldn't hold him like this and act this way when he thinks Jimin is not asleep. Jimin has noticed it before as well . He knew how Jungkook doesn't sleep at some nights and only caresses his hair and hand tenderly. At some points Jimin wanted to ask Jungkook so bad that why he is always so worried ... Jimin was worried about whatever was going inside Jungkook and he couldn't understand anything. It made Jimin angry on himself that he couldn't help Jungkook out and make him happy when the older does every possible things to make him happy and keep him as safe as possible.

Jimin was also in dark about so many things. He got into an accident ? What accident and how !? Then why was there the fading mark of bullet on his chest ? Jimin was sure of it being a bullet mark somehow . He asked Yeonjun about it...he loved the younger boy just like his little brother. Although he couldn't remember him and his mother but he knew he was surely close to them.

But no one would tell him anything. Nor them, nor his Jungkookie , nor his brothers , nor the hyung called Kai who's his Jungkookie's helper and friend, nor the neighbours ... No one.

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It was a beautiful evening. Jimin was lying on the soft green grasses by the riverside with his head resting on Jungkook's lap while the older was carresing his hair but it didn't go unnoticed by Jimin that once again Jungkook's eyes were lost.

Jungkook didn't go to the flowershop after earlier's incident. He was worried about Jimin despite the younger reassuring him time and again.

Now Jungkook took Jimin out for his evening walk but did he let Jimin actually walk ? No. He carried Jimin on his back . According to Jimin's boyfriend , it is also Jimin's walk if the older is carrying him.

" Jungkookie..." Jimin called, drawing Jungkook's entire attention .

" Yes Do-uh Baby ? " Jungkook stuttered a bit and by now Jimin was used to the older going to say something like "Do- or Dol-" while responding but never completing it.

Jimin was always so eager to hear it but to his dismay , his boyfriend never said it. Ofcourse Jimin loved Jungkook's every love filled words and nicknames that he used for him but something was always missing. Between all the Jiminie, Baby, Honey , Love and Angels... Something particular was missing a Jimin felt incomplete because of this missing one.

" I'm okay Jungkookie... please don't be worried anymore. " Jimin said holding Jungkook's wrist softly. But Jungkook's face suddenly dulled down more.

" This words makes me more worried you know baby ?... " Jungkook asked with gloomy eyes as he carresed Jimin's face with his another hand and to be honest Jimin didn't understand it nor liked it. He himself was feeling restless for the entire day now this words.

Jimin sat up quickly , rather harshly and slightly hissed because of his usual tiredness for sleeping in coma for so long. Usually Jungkook helps the younger to sit up and to run sometimes but this time he didn't get the chance.

" Jimin ! " Jungkook's aggressive dark voice screamed in worry as he held Jimin quickly but unlike other times, Jimin suddenly stiffened for some reason.

Jimin took few seconds in silence and faced Jungkook. Ignoring the older's worried eyes, Jimin snuggled closer to his boyfriend's chest .

" Trust me... I am okay. And I also know you wouldn't let anything happen to me. " Jimin said and kissed the older's scar in his left cheekbone.

In response the older immediately closed his eyes and pulled Jimin close. This moment... with his dearest person, his lover... What else could Jungkook want more ?

" I love you ... I love you so much Jungkookie. " Jimin said , his voice just above whisper as he nuzzled his face in the crook of Jungkook's neck.

And this time... there was an instant reply from Jimin devoted lover.

" And I love you more...to the moon and back. I love you my love. " Jungkook said pressing a kiss on top of Jimin's head .

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" So, elaborate. Why did you do it ? "
Jungkook asked with a cold voice and an ominous smirk.

" I-I'm so-sorry.....Aaaahhhhhh "
I painful scream left the poor man's mouth as a sharp pain of bone crushing on his fingers.

Currently the man was sitting on a chair, tied, with Jungkook sitting right infront of him. It was the little outhouse in the garden where the things of gardening and woods were kept according to Jimin.

" Aaaaaaaahhh nghhh... I- " The man yelped in pain.

" Yes? You ? " Jungkook's smirk got wider as he pressed the piler onto another finger of the man infront of him.

Right now Jungkook was breaking the man's finger bones with a sharp piler. Kai and few other Mafia members were silently standing in the corner and by the door.

" Fo-forgive me-ahhhh " The man's voice muffled between his screams as Jungkook clutched the piler onto the man's last unbroken finger.

" Forgive huh ? " Jungkook's dark chuckle got mixed with the other man's painful screams.

" Okay I'll do it. " Jungkook said leaving the mans broken hand and keeping the bloodied piler. He leaned back on the wooden chair and the other one cried out, muttering faint apologies .

" But for that, you have to tell me...who sent you here ? Who is it ?" Jungkook's dark deep spine chilling voice could paralyse anyone's backbone and something like that happened to this person too.

" I want the name. " Jungkook retorted looking at the man's face which was scrunched in pain.

" P-pl-please le-let me go a-after I..I te-tell..." The man was badly shivering in pain and utter fear . He never thought that this awaited for him tonight when Jungkook didn't even see him when he was keeping an eye on them this evening. Oh how wrong he was.

" Ofcourse. " Jungkook said with the same devilish smirk hanging in the corner of his lips as he took a knife from the tool box and started to fiddle with it's tip with his fingertips .

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Jimin tried to comfortable in his sleep but something was bothering him for past few minutes. He couldn't feel his safe touch and comfort hold. He extended his hand to reach someone time and again in his sleep and even tried to scoot closer but finally he got disturbed and opened his drowsy eyes.

In seconds all the senses hit him back when he saw that Jungkook wasn't there on the bed. A sudden fear hit Jimin as he blinked and sat up , looking around the room. Where did the older go !? The clock was showing 2:30 of night !

" Ju- " Jimin was about to call but stopped as he thought that the older might be in bathroom . But certainly it didn't calm him. So he called out with his sleepy hoarse voice.

" Jungkookie ? "

But there wasn't any answer. So he called. Again and once again till his heart beat increased and he got off of the bed.

" Jungkookie where are ? Please answer me ? Please ? Jungkookie !? " Jimin's worried voice called as he tried to step out of the room . But the drawing room was dark and Jimin certainly was scared of dark .

" Jungkookie !? Jungkookie it's dark ! I'm scared Please ! Where are you ? Are you okay ? " Jimin asked with his voice breaking already . An unknown fear of something was eating him alive.

Why did it felt like Jungkook left him ? Why did it feel like Jimin was loosing his everything and Jungkook was walking away from him ? His Jungkook not loving him ! His Jungkook misunderstanding him !?

His Jungkook can never do this !

" No-ahh! " Jimin clutched his hair and stumbled back on the wall , sliding down till he reached the floor. He felt scared. Why would his Jungkookie ever misunderstand him ? Why would he leave his apple of heart ?

" Jungkookie Please ! Stop ! Don't leave ! Please ! I ... I love you ! Please don't leave me ! " The incoherent words left Jimin's mouth with his headache raising faster till his eyes fell on the smiling picture of him and Jungkook on the bedside table. It was recently taken and still... between all these, Jimin thought what if his Jungkookie is in pain somewhere ? What if he needs his Jimin there ?

But Jimin was scared of dark ! But his Jungkookie is his everything !

" Ju-Jungkookie !? " Jimin called out louder and stepped out of the room.

But just the second Jimin tried to hurry towards the drawing room and call for Jungkook again, he heard a faint scream coming from somehow near.

Jimin blinked rapidly . Worry growing faster in him as he thought Jungkook was in problem but...but Jimin knew it wasn't his boyfriend's voice.

Yet again came the faint scream and Jimin couldn't tolerate it anymore as he ran towards the back door from where he thought the scream was coming from.

" Without his Angel, the Devil was nothing ;
With his Angel, the Devil was something and
Together,
They were everything. "

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And here's the alternative chapter 2 if anyone is still here to read these. But if you're here, don't go away without commenting. They're precious to me as well as you are.

I know I'm a little late for this update but please forgive me. My exams are approaching and lots of things are going on currently in my life.

→ Hopefully next update will come soon and don't worry, everything will fall into places in this alternative ending and I'll end it with their wedding kiss for sure.

Love you all so much ❤️

Take care, Borahae 💜