" Everything was blurry to the Angel except his Love ..."

Third Person's POV

" Ju-Jungkookie... ? " Jimin called again as he saw the backdoor opened. His heart was pounding against his ribcage for some unknown fear.

" Are you there...? Jungkookie ? Please... answer me once ..." Jimin called with his quivering voice while he stepped out of the backdoor.

It was very cold outside and Jimin realised it now. He was just in a thin shirt and it made him shiver so badly but did he care about it ? No.

He stepped out on the wet grass and looked here and there. Now everything was silent. No sounds no screams or anything and as always silence made it more hard for Jimin.

Everything was standing still, nothing or no one was there, the outhouse was locked like usual, just the yellow lights of the garden wall trying to radiate brightness in the dark night.

He didn't know what to do. Tears were already shinning in his eyes. Should he scream ? Should he run to Yeonjun's house and call for help ?

" Jungkookie..." A faint shaky voice came out of Jimin's mouth as he was scared of something happening to his lover. He was scared also a different corner of his mind was screaming
" Don't break down Jimin ! If He's in trouble, you're the one who should save him ! Help him ! You have to reach him ! You have to Jimin ! "

Alone these thoughts made Jimin's skin burn with anger about the unknown person who might have hurt his lover. Someone was screaming in him that he should end whoever dares to hurt his lover.

Jimin's eyes fell on the neatly cut logs kept on a side for bonfire and he quickly approached them and picked one . The fear in his eyes were turning into cautiousness as he looked here and there, deciding where to go first.

" Jungkookie... Please answer me... are you there ? " Jimin asked with worried yet strong voice this time as he carefully walked towards the gate which separates the backyard and the front yard of the house.

Jimin was about to call once again but before that, he heard footsteps behind him . He stopped but didn't looked back while trying to hear the footsteps properly . His hold was certainly getting stronger around the log .

Now when Jimin stopped, everything stopped again. Jimin knew someone was behind him. In a split second, Jimin turned around , bringing the log with a heavy force towards his unknown assailant.

" Jimi-ahhh Jimin ! " Jungkook almost screamed out as he held the log just before it could hit him . Shock was visible on his eyes as he stared at Jimin who was confused but also relieved to see his lover.

" Ju-Jungkookie ? " Jimin let go of the log immediately and engulfed Jungkook in his embrace . Ofcourse a pair of strong arms of Jimin's boyfriend wrapped themselves around Jimin's waist pulling him closer.

" Baby what happened ? Why did you come outside love ? It's cold ! " Jungkook scolded but his voice only had worry as he carresed Jimin's hair who already hid his face in the crook of the older's neck.

" I ... I woke up ... couldn't find you...sca-scared... I...a scream... whe-where were you !? " Jimin's incoherent words made Jungkook feel so hurt ...he was again worrying his lover.

" Baby I'm here...calm down please, see I'm okay, I'm here. " Jungkook continuously was carresing the younger's hair and back .

" I called you ! So many times ! You didn't answer! " Jimin's voice sounded sad, desperate and also angry as he clutched onto Jungkook's shirt. His voice was breaking to Jungkook's dismay.

" Baby... I'm sorry... I'm so so sorry... Please forgive me... I'm... I... Please..." Jungkook couldn't utter anything as he hugged Jimin so tightly .

" I ... I was so worried that..that Something... Something had happened to you ! I ..." A faint sob came out of Jimin's mouth as his whole body shivered in Jungkook's hold.

" I'm so sorry Baby... Please...look at me..." Jungkook pleaded with his hand and voice already shaking. He couldn't tolerate Jimin's tears anymore. It physically hurt him now. He had to stop Jimin , however he has to do it. His Jimin's tears were like sharp stabs on his chest.

" I'll die ... I'll die if anything ever happen to you Jungkookie... " The last thing Jungkook wanted to hear is this and he couldn't tolerate it anymore.

" Jimin no ! Look at me ! " Jungkook carefully pulled Jimin away from him, immediately cupping his cheeks and desperately looking at him. Their faces were impossibly closer and once again pearl like tear drops were flowing down Jungkook's lover's dreamy eyes.

" Don't say that ! Never ever ! The world can get shattered but your Jungkookie would never leave you ! He can never ! You're my everything Jimin! Don't you understand? Don't you understand how much I love you baby ? How can you say this ? " Jungkook's voice was breaking in the end as his own tears were badly betraying him when he wiped away Jimin's tears.

Jimin's lips were quevering cause he was holding back his sobs cause he knew well, Jungkook hates seeing him crying and now Jimin was scared that Jungkook was hurt... his lover was crying .

" I love you... I love you... I love you " Jimin unknowingly muttered with his hushed voice, clutching onto Jungkook's shirt. He didn't know what else to say. It was his sorry, it was his care, it was his assurance and confessions of never ending love towards his Jungkookie.

" I love you more... I love you more than anything and everything. I love you with my everything Baby... promise me that you'll never say these again. " Jungkook said pressing his lips over Jimin's right cheek, so close from the corner of his lips and it only made the younger close his eyes .

Something was happening in Jimin. His entire self was forcing him to remember something. The kiss, the loving kiss which made Jimin want to melt was also making Jimin's urge high to do something.

Jungkook once again pulled Jimin to his chest and the younger immediately let himself get held by his lover with closed eyes.

A warm tear drop rolled down from Jungkook's eyes when he kissed Jimin's shoulder blade before closing his eyes for a brief second. Jimin had his eyes closed too as he was getting overwhelmed by the memories that were trying to break the barrier of lost.

Jungkook opened his eyes and and nodded his head slightly and the black suited demon like mafia members bowed before dragging the dead body out of the backyard gate silently.

" We should get inside now baby... it's very cold here and you're barefeet as well. I told you to not walk bare footed for million times but who listens to me ? No one. " Jungkook complained and pulled Jimin up in his arms in a swift move, making the younger gasp and blush at the same time.

" Jungkookie..." Jimin whined wrapping his arms around Jungkook's neck .

" Don't whine. It'll not work okay ? " Jungkook said walking inside the house while giving a last glance towards the gate .

But Jungkook's words only made Jimin giggle and Jungkook let out the breathe he didn't know that he was holding.

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Laying Jimin on the bed again, Jungkook pulled the blanket over him . Jimin stared at Jungkook's with big shinny eyes till the older turned the lights off and joined Jimin on the bed.

Before Jungkook could pull Jimin close and caress Jimin's hair till he falls asleep like everytime... Jimin hugged his lover and pressed his face in the Crook of Jungkook's neck again.

Jungkook clearly understood that Jimin was still not over the matter of few minutes ago so he decided to stay silent and caress Jimin's back till the younger says or asks Something.

" Jungkookie... what happened out there ? Why were you outside at this hour ? " Jimin asked , his voice quite muffled on Jungkook's neck , his hot breath fanning Jungkook's sensitive skin of neck. Certainly it made Jungkook gulp.

" Why did you wake up baby ? If you say that to me, it'll be easier for you to understand. " Jungkook twisted the matter with his words .

" Me ...? I... I woke up- I just woke up all of a sudden and couldn't find you...may be I couldn't feel you beside me, that's why... I got scared. " Jimin said and felt a soft yet brief kiss on top of his head. Jimin's heart churned as his bodies automatic reaction was to lean closer to Jungkook that their legs got tangled.

Jimin had his heart beat running faster than ever as he breathed in the calming natural scent of his lover. He was addicted to it. It was the thing that makes Jimin calm down yet makes him restless because these few days he was pressuring himself too much internally. He was remembering everything yet not anything. It was like the memories were two steps away from him up it kept getting away from him when he walked towards it.

Now suddenly tonight... Jimin was feeling something in him . Why wouldn't Jungkook ever kiss him ? Not even a kiss on the lips ? Why does he acts like everything would hurt Jimin ? Jimin hated how Jungkook was paranoid 24/7 for him. He could see the man going crazy whenever he thinks that Jimin isn't okay.

Jimin might have forgot everything but he knew that no one would ever love him more than this man does...but why does he always find a shade of guilt covering the pure love in Jungkook's eyes ? Why does Jungkook act like a banished angel of heaven ? Why does he certainly feel like that person who has committed something that shouldn't be forgiven ?

Jimin didn't know anything. This man has done everything for him for all these months and year. He didn't know anyone could build someone's mindset newly like this.

Jimin still remembered how he was going to have a breakdown that day when he saw his mother's picture and couldn't remember her yet feel the pain in his chest,killing him when he got to know that she's not anymore.

It was Jungkook who consoled him . It was Jungkook who made Jimin believe that his mother was no one but an angel who went back to God .

" People has to leave the world when their time here ends Baby... It hurts but it's how the world works...and if we don't die that means we still have so many things to do, say and feel. Just like I'm here to love you , cherish you and protect you till the last breath I take. But I am in High doubt if I would stop loving you even after I Die. Cause my everything is yours. Life or death, it's all yours . "

Jimin recalls these words of months back everyday. He cried that day , so much may be till he saw how much in pain Jungkook was in to see him cry. Jimin couldn't tolerate it... Jungkook being in pain, him being worried, scared... Jimin hated it. Jimin's entire self would feel aching whenever he has seen tears in his lover's eyes.

Even if Jimin didn't remember, Jungkook made him realise how much he has loved his mother all his life and how good of a son he always was and still is. Jungkook told him how Jimin's mother was always so happy and proud of him and how she was so supportive. It was like Jimin got to know his mother newly through Jungkook's voice .

" I'm so sorry Baby, for leaving you alone in bed but heard a scream outside . " Jungkook said pressing a soft kiss on Jimin's forehead to calm the younger down.

" You too !? I too heard it when I woke up and that scared me more ! " Jimin said almost excited enough to sit up but Jungkook didn't let him.

" I know right... I heard it two times. When I first heard it, it was coming from a little far away but I decided to check it... cause someone might be in danger. " Jungkook said and Jimin listened to him with big eyes.

" But I couldn't see anyone outside when I got there. Then the scream came again and I went out of the backyard garden gate to check " Jungkook said and Jimin's eyes widened.

" Jungkookie why !? You went there alone ! You could have called me once or Yeonjun ! " Jimin was worried.

" I would have Baby but at that moment... I just " Jungkook didn't know what to say and Jimin himself stopped him.

" At that moment what ? What if anything happened to you ! I swear it the middle of night and you- why ? " Jimin was getting worried sick and Jungkook just pulled him closer and hugged him tightly.

" Calm down Baby... please ? Your Jungkookie is requesting you... please calm down. I'm okay right ? See, I'm with you, hugging you, I'm right here and nothing happened to me. " Jungkook said and Jimin looked at him.

Jungkook's entire self was breaking inside cause he could see the same expression in Jimin's eyes from year ago. The same devastating worry... the same desperateness for trying to save his lover in every situation. And it could only break Jungkook.

" Do-don't lea-leave me ever... Please... I wouldn't be able to handle it...don't leave me... Please... never ever ! It hurts ...it h-hurts so bad Jungkookie... y-you n-not being with me...kills me." Jimin said making Jungkook's face pale and tears roll down from his eyes. His lips parted out of shock and the broken nostalgic words that he never wanted to hear.

" B-baby n-no...I-you- I...no." Jungkook's voice broke as he couldn't tolerate those words. It hurt him...hurt him too much, internally and may be physically too.

And now Jimin didn't know what to do cause he knew how strong minded his boyfriend was for all these months. There was something about Jungkook that made Jimin feel that the older can do lots of things and can handle a lot alone let the matter be mental or physical.

Jimin became restless seeing Jungkook's inability to answer anything and his pale sad looking face. He just conveyed his uncalled fear or may be the biggest fear despite knowing Jungkook would never do it but now seeing Jungkook Jimin could only feel guilty. What about those words did make Jungkook feel this much hurt !?

" Kookie please, I... I'm sorry..." Jimin didn't know what else to say before his soul and body automatically pushed him to do something which he never did all these months.

Jimin didn't even know what he was doing till he found two pair of soft cloud shaped lips against his pillowy ones.

Jungkook was shocked, surprised, happy...his body was reacting so badly with his fingers digging on the soft skin of Jimin's waist when he automatically responded the kiss but the pain was still hammering on his head with those words echoing in his brain.

All Jimin felt was bliss. He knew what he was doing is right...may be the most right thing in the world right now. He didn't know how but he felt everything at once. It felt so right that Jimin didn't care how they never kissed in all these months after he woke up from coma and didn't even know if they ever kissed before or even if they had any intimate relationship with eachother or not.

But Jimin felt it in his veins. He knew there was...the touches that he felt in his bones, so familiar with every touch and closest proximities ... And it actually bothered Jimin that why Jungkook never crossed the line of the sweet affections ...why did he looked scared everytime ? And most importantly he looked scared of himself rather than anything else. Jimin has noticed it all.

A tear of happiness and overwhelmingness rolled down from the corner of Jimin's eye as his fingers unknowingly went to Jungkook's nape hairline, caressing them like everytime in their lost diary of love.

Both their rapid hearts were beating in the same rythm as they tried to pull eachother impossibly closer . Everything was getting discarded from their mind while they just kissed each other with closed eyes .

Jimin could feel the shivers in his spine because of Jungkook's semi rough fingertips gripping on his waist and caressing his waist.

Jimin could feel how much care and love Jungkook has for him in the kiss. Why was it making him want to cry ? Why was it feeling like that both has waited for it from an eternity back ? Jimin knew he could give everything he has to this man and he'll get cherished and treasured like no one ever was.

Now Jimin's fingers were anchoring on Jungkook's nape hairline as the older kissed him thoroughly , gently yet passionately. Jimin had his lips parted when Jungkook was busy painting his wet bottom lip with soft nibbles, resting Jimin for catching his breathe.

But Jimin couldn't have enough of it as he wanted their lips syncing together again. He kissed Jungkook again and this time he gasped because in a split second he was under Jungkook with their bodies collided together and their lips busy kissing eachother.

Jimin could feel his knees were starting to shiver now as he wrapped his arms around Jungkook's shoulder . He knew Jungkook could make his brain, body and heart react out badly in seconds but this much ? This much that Jimin felt like he'd faint in the overwhelming long awaited kiss which he couldn't even think of stopping ?

" Never ever say that Baby... never ever. You know the I could never do that nor I'll ever be able to. You're my heart beat itself, you own every breath I take, you own me ...how can I leave my owner of life huh ? " Jungkook said with his breathy voice against Jimin's now swollen wet Pretty plus lips with a saliva string attaching their lips together.

Jimin was panting lightly when he opened his eyes and met with his favourite pair of eyes and suddenly got hit with millions of blurred memories ... millions of memories which Jimin should remember and wanted to remember so bad . He felt like it was sin to not remember the man who loves him this much, this crazily, it was a sin to not remember a Brother, who's eyes shine with love everytime whenever Jimin hugs him , it's a sin to not remember the hyungs who cared for him like their own little brother. It was a sin to not remember his mother who loved her so much , the aunt and little brother who cares for him so damn much.

And most importantly it was a sin to not remember his own love story with his dearest lover without whom Jimin would have died. A lover who Jimin loves so much that the thought of staying without him gives him physical pain.

" I'm sorry ... I-I'm so sorry Jungkookie... promise, I won't say it ever again cause I know... I know how much you love me. " Jimin said with a heart winning smile which bought smile on Jungkook's lips too.

" My sweet baby...my heart. " Jungkook said carresing Jimin's face so tenderly , his eyes glowing with love with them still being tranced by the brain fuzzing kiss they shared seconds ago. Jimin had a feeling of first kiss yet the prominent dilemma of it obviously not being their first and Jungkook was drowned in the feeling of love...how much he missed those lips which was , is and always will be his addiction. He knew physical pleasure was not everything in love but it was a act of love... the much he loved Jimin, it was actually hurting him to not kiss Jimin at moments and let him know how much his Jungkookie loves him...now Jungkook was satisfied that Jimin himself wanted it and was okay with it.

" Yes Jungkookie... I'm yours. Only yours and forever yours. " The words came out of Jimin's lips like those words were made for Jimin to say them to Jungkook. It was like an eternal truth, fact and mantra.

Jungkook would lie worse than a bad liar if he says that he didn't miss these words, this feeling, this touches, this moments... It felt like Jimin was loving him for his everything, accepting him with his every flaws and mistakes once again like before and not like blindly loving a liar who has created a different reality for him.

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One week and few days has passed after they kissed for the first time after all these months and everything was going fine again... atleast it seemed like that.

No one could tell who screamed that night but Jimin obviously noticed how Yeonjun was looking at Jungkook when everyone was talking about it.

Jimin was tired of asking everyone about his past. Everyone says few same thing and Jimin was sick of it cause the more he fell in deeper love with Jungkook, the more his urge raised to remember everything. And it was so horribly disturbing when everyone says the same things like it was a written script.

After that kiss that night Jimin asked if it was their first time or not and was not even shocked when Jungkook hesitantly said it was not.

So Jimin obviously asked about their first kiss. After a lot of silent moments Jungkook said few things like he didn't even want to remember it. No Jimin wasn't hurt thinking Jungkook hated it or it didn't matter to him...he was hurt seeing Jungkook's eyes screaming guilty. Yet he asked time and again.

Jimin found shades in that too.

" It was a party " .... Jimin asked "where ?" Jungkook wouldn't answer. How did it happen ? ... Jungkook would stay silent and say " I kissed ... " Jimin smiled but again got confused when Jungkook engulfed him into his arms and muttered " I'm sorry... please forgive me... "

what was there to be Sorry about their first kiss ?

But everytime they kissed now after that Jimin could feel both of their physical and mental urge to do more. It was like Jimin was craving for everything of Jungkook and Jungkook was yearning to give Jimin all he had. But everytime Jungkook would stop at some point where Jimin could feel that Jungkook was staring to lose control.

Now only good thing that was keeping Jimin happy was Jungkook's love, care and touches. The subtle kisses, touches and affections bought a different satisfaction in Jimin like he got back something of him.

But one thing Jungkook didn't know was... Jimin was hiding few things from him. Jimin was a lot mastered up now in hiding his tries of remembering things, Jimin could control his breakdowns whenever he couldn't remember anything...he knew Jungkook wouldn't like it a bit and would find some way to distract Jimin.

After that kiss Jimin was starting to have blur and torn memories flashing by all of a sudden . But he was confused too much cause everything he remembered was related to Seoul ... all those scenarios...all those feelings .

An office room...he didn't know where. He remembers Jungkook's voice, rather coming from a far corner of Jimin's mind but he could feel it was Jungkook standing infront of him...too close .

Another dream which suddenly scared Jimin that day was...he was in a car and someone was driving it with a dangerous speed... Jimin knew he was scared but he was enduring but why did it feel like that the person who was driving was Jungkook !? Why would Jungkook do it !?

And many more things that kept Jimin absent minded often but he made sure to think all these when Jungkook wasn't around. He noted down everything in his notebook which he would hide behind a photo frame of them.

A few blurred visions of parties , some roads, some huge houses, bedrooms, places, a forest, a waterfall, a stage , a bridge...he felt he was crying, running, driving, smiling... everything was a mess in his mind.

Just today... Jungkook was feeding him his breakfast and Jimin's mind went blank to feel the same touch yet different time and place... he was in Jungkook's lap, he was ranting and Jungkook was feeding him. When did that happen !?

Jimin failed to recognise any memories that were made in this house...and most odd thing was , it was hard to find a memory where it was not in some so different and rich looking place.

" But it's impossible ! Jungkookie said we only had a comfortable life ! He doesn't know how to ride a car ! He didn't live in some big place
nor did I ! " Jimin screamed and scolded himself in his mind ...

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So right now Jimin was literally making everything in the house here and there to find anything...to find anything that would trigger him or atleast let him know anything .

He was visibly frustrated cause time was running out. Yeonjun might come to check him in few minutes after he is done with his homeworks, Jungkook might come back anytime from the flower shop.

Jimin has been trying to have this opportunity from past few days and even placed mirrors in perfect places in the drawing room from where he could see anyone coming in the house from his room .

He threw away the pillows out of frustration cause he couldn't find a single thing of work. He wanted to break his phone out of anger cause it basically had nothing nor he knew what to actually search for and there wasn't a single picture of past !

He was about to clutch his hair and fall on the floor when his eyes fell on Jungkook's laptop.

Jimin's eyes glowed bright... He knew it has Jungkook's work details. The work which requires him to sit infront the laptop for hours after Jimin falls asleep every night and visit Seoul once or sometimes twice in a week. And certainly he would never take Jimin with him.

Jimin checked the mirror again and saw that no one has even on the path infront of their house and marched towards the laptop on the table.

With rapid heart and shaky hands he opened it. It felt wrong but he had to do it.

His heart churned with the heavy hit of Love and happiness when he saw his smiling picture on the lock screen but his smile dropped when he realised that he doesn't know the password .

His head pained with frustration again cause someone from the far corner in his brain was saying that he had all the passwords back then. He had it all somewhere.... every code, every password that Jungkook used.

Jimin slammed his clutched fist on the table frustratedly as he tried to remember so bad. He incoherently typed few things, like Jungkook's name, his name, his birthday and few more numbers and stuff but nothing was working.

" Everything that is mine is always related to you. " Jungkook said one day and it only made Jimin think that may be the password was something related to him.

Jimin's mind wasn't working.

" Come on Jimin remember ! Come on you have to ! " Jimin forced himself.

" Don't let the chance go ! Remember it ! Try ! " Jimin said again and again while trying to think his name in different ways . May be it was not alphabetically but numerically his name !?

He was about to press ' 10 ' means ' J ' a voice made him freeze at his spot.

" What are you doing Love ? Anything wrong ? "

Jungkook's voice came from right behind Jimin.

....he felt a shiver ran down his spine, his legs literally trembled by the sudden familiar voice behind him... At that moment Jimin felt what actually fear was...a very familiar feeling of someones anger even if the voice was calm .

" In most of his blurred memories,
all the angel could see is, his angelic lover in a Devil's throne... "

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