" By yours side...
That's where I ALWAYS
want to be.... "

Jimin's P.O.V

      I felt light touches on my face but I don't wanna wake up now so I kept my eyes closed . But the touch on my lips felt a little odd and the scent...

Then suddenly beside my ear...

" Baby doll... "

My senses came back and hit me hard,its him. I shot my eyes open and ......here he is sitting beside me, hand beside my neck and looking down at me with that familiar smirk and looking breathtaking as usual.

( looking breathtaking is his daily routine 😭 )

My eyes widened in shock as I'm speechless again. Is he really here? Or am I dreaming? How and when did he came here?
I can't say anything but look at him almost thinking that it's a dream.

His smirk got wider as he traced his fingers on my bottom lip again, his eyes looking straight at mine and he chuckled lightly.

" Missed me baby doll? ",
His voice make me shiver and I surprisingly feel comforted by his voice.... So he's really here? I am still confused about the situation but tried to nod.

" Didn't I tell you to always use words? ",He coldly said and it feared me.. Yes he said, so why didn't I remember? I have to obey him always.

" Yes.. Yes master I missed you... ",I answered and saw a little smile on his face but it vanished within seconds and I frowned cause I wanna see him smiling.

" Then let's get going. ",he said and I'm dumb founded now. He's really here? It's not a dream? And where are we going?
Before I could say or do something he effortlessly picked me up bridal style and started walking towards the door.

What the hell is happening?

I didn't tried to protest cause I know it's worthless but deep down I know it's just an excuse....... I wanna go with him.

I looked at the sleeping Jin hyung on the couch, he doesn't have any idea what's going on. We exited the room, Jungkook is not sparing a single glance on me despite me being in his arms. It feels good to be in his arms.......... I feel comfortable... Safe?
My inner self will laugh at me too if I say I feel safe with Jungkook who wants to kill me.
I was staring at his face so long that I didn't notice we're already downstairs. I'm loving the way his hands wrapped around my back and under my knees.

It's like I'm really a doll and he's taking me to play with him. We left the house behind and I saw his car. Suddenly I realised I'm just wearing a thin white shirt and my blue shorts , bare feet and where the hell we are even going? It's more like where the hell is he taking me?

" wh-where are we going master? ",I asked after gathering some confidence after trying like million times. He didn't answered and opened the car door before throwing me on the front passenger seat . He shut the door too forcefully that I flinched and moved away from the door. The leather seat felt to cold to my bare skin in legs and hands. The car is nearly cold like yesterday's room. I don't know how he tolerates this much cold atmospheres.

He hopped in the car and started the engine. I was looking at him with lots of questions in my mind but can't ask anything after being refused to get answered at the first. We drove away from the house and he's still looking straight at the road like I'm not here at all.
I noticed we are driving in an unknown road, I mean I never came here and it's kinda quite. Just few cars passing by and going out of view in seconds . I don't have any idea where are we going nor he's saying anything and as usual silence is giving me anxiety.

Should I try to ask him again? If he gets angry?but I wanna know....

" Ma-master...? ",I stuttered. He suddenly picked up the gear and started driving too fast. He wasn't driving slow before but now I can't even see anything outside, it's all blur cause of the high speed. It felt like we are going to crash for sure. How the hell he's driving like this and don't have any scared expression on his face while I'm about get a heart attack ?

The car is running in the speed of light and I clutched my eyes shut in fear. My grip on sit was too tight that my nails are digging on the leather.

" Ma-master please.. Please st-stop.... Please....!!!",I pleaded and he suddenly laughed out loudly and I can feel he speeded up again.

Third person's P.O.V

      " ple-please..... ",Jimin pleaded again getting scared to death. His health was already disturbed for the drug and now the fast driving making him wanna throw up, his head was spinning and legs started to get numb but Jungkook didn't care at all.

Jungkook knew how Jimin was getting sick but it was his intention... To hurt Jimin. After Jungkook completed his daily routine of cutting himself his mind craved for more, something else, something different... for the first time Jungkook wanted to spent time with someone while he will hurt the person and enjoy.

The person was Jimin whom Jungkook thought about.

Looking at Jimin in pain felt different to Jungkook, a feeling he couldn't pin point correctly... So he decided to hurt him more to understand his puzzled feelings.

Jungkook suddenly stopped the car in the middle of nowhere and for the first time looked at Jimin. Jimin fell back on the seat while breathing heavily, his eyes were shut and head facing the ceiling of the car . Jungkook touched Jimin's pale white cheek with his right index finger and traced down to Jimin's neck enjoying the view in front of him.

Jungkook loved to destroy beautiful things and Jungkook wouldn't lie about Jimin being the most special out of them but Jungkook didn't understand that Jimin is not a thing.

Jimin's breath hitched when he felt Jungkook's finger on his face and soon on his neck. Jimin threw his head back a little unknowingly giving Jungkook more access and view to his neck showing the red and purple artworks made by Jungkook .Jungkook bit his own lips upon seeing Jimin like this, it was making him wanna fuck Jimin senseless right there and then but he had other plans for the smaller.

Jungkook's seductive touches changed into a painful one in the blink of an eye. He grabbed Jimin's neck chocking him. Jimin's eyes shot open widely as his hands automatically went to Jungkook's wrist trying to get free from the death grip. The grip tightened  around Jimin's neck and Jungkook smirked evilly. Jimin's mouth was open trying to scream but nothing came out of his mouth , tears rolled down from his eyes as he was quickly loosing his breath. Jimin was curling his legs in pain and wanted it to stop but his opinions doesn't matter here.

What Jungkook wants ,he gets and if he doesn't he makes it his with his own way which is not a good way at all.

Jungkook suddenly slammed Jimin's head on the glove of the car making Jimin scream in pain.

" Are you hurt baby doll...? ",
Jungkook shamelessly asked still clutching Jimin's neck. There was visible blood on the car glove.

Jungkook pulled Jimin's face closer to him and saw blood gushing out from Jimin's forehead as the crying boy  still kept his eyes shut.

" I asked you something... ",
Jungkook said and removed his hand from Jimin's neck only to clutch Jimin's hair. Jimin opened his eyes . Pearl like tear drops left his already red eyes as he looked straight at Jungkook.
Jimin was surely hurt and Jungkook knew it very well but still wanted to hear what will Jimin answer. Jungkook knew Jimin will say he's very hurt ,scared and will beg to spare him like the others did .

Everyone is same, they will say I'm yours, I can do anything for you, I will always stay beside you despite you hurt me.... and stuffs like that But it's all just plain lies and Jungkook knew it very well. There's is nothing like unconditional or selfless love in this world, everyone wants their own profit from everything. Jimin will just be one of them and will want to escape, that's all Jungkook expected and believed.

But Jungkook was wrong on the highest level.

" N-no ma-master.... ",Jimin muttered with a hoarse voice barely audible shocking Jungkook. Yes, shocking the Jeon Jungkook.

Jungkook thought he might heard it wrong so he tightened his grip on Jimin's hair and pulled him more closer.

" Say it again. ",
Jungkook demanded with a slightly eager voice.

" No master...I'm not hurt.. ",Jimin tried to answer as clear as possible despite his neck and head hurting like shit. Jimin knew Jungkook didn't expect this answer but it was true answer with a deep meaning.

Jimin's really got hurt physically but he accepted it happily cause it came from his master. For his master he can endure a lot of pains like this so, he's not hurt at all. Pain is a thing that his master is willingly giving him so why not accept it with a smile ?

Jungkook was looking at Jimin with a blank expression but his mind was trying to process Jimin's answer. It's not something he expected to hear.
" He isn't hurt ?",Jungkook thought in his mind. He surely is! Then why the fuck is he lying but the answer.... It is.... Jungkook shook away his thoughts and looked angrily at Jimin.

" What do you mean by 'not hurt' ? ",Jungkook asked gritting his teeth and boring holes in Jimin's eyes.

" I-it didn't hu-hurt when you ca-cause them... ",Jimin stuttered. He was hissing in pain but still answered.

The answer is something that made Jungkook confused. Jungkook didn't knew why is it feeling different suddenly. Something in the answer made him soften his grip on Jimin's hair. But again... Jungkook thought it was a lie and gripped Jimin's hair tightly again. Jimin hissed in pain again but he was still looking at Jungkook trying to understand the taller's feelings.

Jungkook got confused and he didn't like it at all. He didn't like getting confused and never wants to feel new things. Jimin is giving him odd feelings from the first encounter and it was making Jungkook restless. He was trying to find out the answer but he found none. It made Jungkook more angrier than before and threw Jimin away on his seat and stared the car again.

Jimin understood Jungkook is confused cause Jungkook's expression less eyes showed confusion for a millisecond but Jimin was quick to notice it.

Jimin held his neck as it was paining and he was scared to touch his aching forehead cause he was afraid to see his own blood. Tears were continuously beaming down from his eyes but he didn't stopped looking at Jungkook. He couldn't help but stare at him with a feeling called unconditionall love that Jungkook didn't believe in.

Jungkook noticed Jimin's stare on him and glanced at Jimin. Jungkook got more confused when he saw Jimin was looking at him with a little smile on his face.

" Playing smart baby doll..? ",Jungkook asked as he kept his eyes on the road speeding up the car again.

" No master... ",Jimin replied as he turned his gaze away from Jungkook and looked down at his palms.

Tears fell down on Jimin's palms as it was not stopping to leave from his eyes. The blood started to drip down from his forehead and  got mixed with the tear drops on Jimin's palm .

The car started to run a lot more faster than before but this time Jimin didn't said anything nor looked up. He sat there like a doll who doesn't feel anything. Jungkook's knuckles were turning white from holding the steering wheel too tightly.

Jungkook wanted Jimin to cry, to get hurt so why the hell he is getting confused and more puzzled ?....it was the only thing Jungkook can think of.
So Jungkook decided to do something else.
Jimin was very near to be unconscious from the pain in his body , the intense headache as he was shivering in cold badly.

Jungkook stopped the car again and looked at the sick Jimin beside him who was nearly loosing his sense . Jungkook exited the car and that made Jimin look up finally understanding that the car stopped. Jimin looked out side to see where are they but got shocked when he saw they were in a bridge and it's very much quite.

Before Jimin could understand anything Jungkook opened the car door of Jimin's side and grabbed Jimin's collar, harshly pulling him out of the car.

Jungkook pulled Jimin out of the car and threw him on the road. Jimin fell on the road with a loud thud. Jimin yelped in pain as his legs and hands got scratched badly . He clutched his elbow as it was hurting badly and laid on the cold concrete as he didn't have no strength to get up from there.

" AHHHHH!! ",Jimin screamed as Jungkook kicked him on his stomach. Jimin rolled on the road now clutching his stomach.

" Are you hurt now? ",
Jungkook asked as he knelt down beside Jimin. Jimin was unable to answer for the immense pain in his body .

" will you not beg to me for mercy baby doll....? Will you not ask me to leave you...? ",
Jungkook asked knowing that Jimin will surely say those for sure this time.

Jimin was sobbing and laying on the cold dirty road but still knew what his answer is .

" N-no... Ma-master.. ahhh.."Jimin answered with his eyes still clutched shut.

"Ughhhhhhh!!!!",
Jungkook screamed in irritation and walked away from Jimin.

" LIE LIE LIE!!! ",
Jungkook yelled grabbing his own hairs in his hand trying not believe in Jimin's words. His voice was echoing on the eerie silence of the bridge. It was nearly an abandoned road which Jungkook owned and it was his private way to go to his forest mansion. So it was completely his territory. No one was there.

Jungkook turned his head to see Jimin. Jimin was laying there with tears on his beautiful eyes which were beaming down over his ethereal face and falling down on the road. There was blood on his head, hands and legs too. And after all this he's saying a damn "NO ".

Jungkook pulled off his blazer and threw it away on the road before walking to his car. Jungkook took a cigarette and lit it up before taking long drags of that to calm his confused mind down. He walked towards Jimin again. Jimin was now looking at Jungkook waiting for the next thing that will happen with him.

Jungkook got more angrier when he saw Jimin still looked at him with a pained little smile.

" THE FUCK ARE YOU TRYING TO PROVE??? ",
Jungkook asked as he stepped on Jimin's right hand and knelt down beside Jimin again. Jimin's hand was getting crushed but he still maintained his obvious smile and eye contact with Jungkook.

" Nahhh-no-nothing... ",
Jimin's voice was breaking but he still answered.

Jungkook was in the verge of getting insane . His brain was racing, trying to understand Jimin but it was useless. Jimin is doing those things that never happened with Jungkook before nor Jungkook thought anyone is able to do. Jungkook was failed to find out any reasons for Jimin acting like this.
Jungkook threw away his half finished cigarette and moved away from Jimin . Jungkook sat on the road with his back resting on the car bumper while clutching his own hair again and eyes closed shut.

Jimin was looking at Jungkook still laying on the floor with his entire body aching badly. On his hands there was marks of Jungkook's shoes and some bloods but Jimin didn't care about it. The only thing he cared about is Jungkook. He understood very clearly about Jungkook's confusion. Jimin was right about his thoughts. No one ever stayed beside Jungkook like he wanted ,no one loved Jungkook the way he needs.... But Jimin will do.

Suddenly Jimin noticed something on Jungkook's wrist and his eyes widened.

Jimin's P.O.V

     I know he wants me to say "I'm hurt.... ".yes I am but it's nothing that I can't do for him. He wasn't expecting my answers so its clear that  no-one done it before. No one stayed beside Jungkook the way he needs.... Not loved him the way he does... Unconditional..

I will always stay here when he wants and even when he doesn't. Endure everything he will do. Support him with everything even if he kills me. But I know he's a human and he has a breaking point. I will take him there, he will change one day even if I'm dead by then but still.... He will change for sure.

I'm again staring at him while he's sitting there.. Debating with his mind.

Just then I suddenly noticed something on his wrist....

Cuts...?

Fresh Cuts...?

What?

I tried to look closely but my blurred vision was not helping.  I silently tried to get up trying not to catch his attention but my wounded legs and almost numb body is going against me. Still I tried and got up after trying so hard. But my every part of body is hurting. I limped towards him and sat in front of him surprisingly not catching his attention as he didn't open his eyes.

Oh my god!!! I was right. It is the same thing I expected.
Cuts! Lots of cuts! Fresh and old and there is still a tint of blood on his wrist.

Jungkook cuts himself? Why? No!!!
He's hurt? No no it can't be! I can't see this!!

My heart was clenching as I can feel I'm crying again.

Jungkook is hurt. He's surely depressed. I have to make it go away. I have to take care of him. I can't let him get hurt. Never.

I didn't even noticed when my hand went to touch his wrists. He flinched at the sudden touch and opened his eyes.

He looked straight at me then to his hands then again at me with bone chilling scary expression before shoving my hand away.

" THE FUCK WERE YOU DOING? ",he dreamed am he got up.

I can't stop my tears, it's not for my wounds, I know it's for him.. He's hurt, he cuts himself, my dreams.... No no no...

" You are hu-hurt master... ",I said looking up at him.

" No I'm not.. ",He deadpanned.

" You cut you--".
Before I could finish my sentence he grabbed my shirt and pulled me up higher than my height. My toes are barely touching the ground.

" Why do you care ...?",
He asked angrily but I'll answer him.

" cause I love you master... ",I faintly said and the next I know is he slammed my body on the bridge railing.

" ohh really baby doll...? ",he asked laughing sarcastically . I nod. His expression changed into a poker one before he grabbed my nape and pushed my face more on the railing.

" Why? ",he asked.

And I don't really know why. But I do love him . It's true. He didn't really gave me a reason to love him and only gave me reasons to hate him but still..... I can't imagine of hating him, it's impossible. I can never hate him.

" Speechless? ",he asked mocking me but suddenly removed his hands from me and moved away. He rested his back on the car while crossed his arms looking at me.

" You said you love me right? ",he asked raising an eyebrow. But I nod at the question and smiled through tears getting happy that he's believing me.

" you'll do everything for me right..? ",he asked and I eagerly nodded. I smiled more.
But my smile soon fell down by his next words .

" Then jump off from here. ",He said.

I became a statue. He's telling me to jump from the bridge? That's what he wants?

" what happened? Love vanished? ",he asked smirking. I shook my head wiping my tears from my swollen face.

" then the fuck are you waiting for ?",He asked taking another cigarette and lighting it up. He is saying those things line he know I'll refuse the thing he's telling me to do.

" W-will you be-believe in my love if I do it? ",my voice quivered as those words left my mouth. He looked at me with an amused expression.

"of course.. "
He rolled his eyes .

But it's fine, isn't it? He's saying he'll believe me! That's the thing I want.

I smiled at him and turned around . Before my mind can process anything else I put my all left strength together and jumped off of the bridge.

It's a lake. The water looked very dark,deep and dangerous. I don't even know swimming but do I care? No.
It's his order that's what matters. It took me few seconds to meet with the almost freezing water with a huge splash.

I didn't try to survive nor I have the strength to do. My breath started to leave me, water filled my lungs and it started to burn. My vision became black and I was sinking down peacefully.

I proved.

" Always...?
.......yes, in All ways. "

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Hello lovelies!!!! ♡♡♡♡♡
So here's the update for today!
I wanted to publish it earlier but my short nap took 3 damn hours and I still can't believe I slept like a dead body for that long 😑😑

Please don't kill me after you read this chapter cause I'm hurt too. I was crying while writing this. My mom asked if I'm okay or if someone is saying something bad to me.
I answered - " Maaaaa... Jiminie.. 😭"

She was like - " Whoa? What happened to him? Is he sick? "

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