Chapter 53 : Phir le aaya dil
Few Popular Christian Hymns were playing in background....
Naina - " aur kuch bhaiyya??..."
She asked him eager to know few more things about her Rajveer...her fingers anxiously knotted end of her dupatta, where as her right foot tapped subconsciously rhythming the hyms....
Naveen - " Shalu ke delivery date agle hafte ki he. Tu nahi aayegi???..."
Desperation can be heard in his voice... He perfectly knew what she wanted to hear. Though she walked out with her body, her heart was left with them especially attached to Rajveer, thinking every second about him. That's what she can do. He knew everything, but as Naveen Singh Ahluwaliya he soulfully desired to see both of them together, living a happy life.
Naina - " nahi bhaiyya... Main yahi theekh hu.
Aap bus unka khayal rakhiye..... "
She reminded him about her husband in end.
Naveen - " Agar woh yaha ho toh rakhunga na main. Woh Ganga ghat gaya he... Lagta he waha se seedha duty join karega. Col. Shetty se appointment liya tha usne...."
He informed her briefly, not mentioning his Veeru's wails and screams he used to hear in midnight, not letting her know his Veeru's broken shattered heart that was on the verge of death. Somehow, he was unable to come out of his Mama Hen's character. He tried his best to make his Veeru realise what future has secured only for him. He tried all the ways to convince to move forward. One or the other day the sun will be woken up along with a smiling Rajveer...
Naveen patiently waited for that one day by being his side. Afterall, his Gudiya's happiness is completely dependent on Rajveer's decisions.
Naina - " unhone mere baarein mein nahi poocha?..."
She asked the last thing she never wanted to ask.
Naveen - " Uske zuban se kuch nahi nikla...lekin uski ankhein..."
Naina cutting his words,
" apna khayal rakhna..."
She ended the call before her bhaiyya could explain the things beautifully that could make her believe in her love again.
She trusted him but blind beliefs are dangerous to heart. What will happen if he never return? Will she be able to breath without his little smiles? Will she be able to lead a life without his small talks? Will she be able to believe in love once again?
Keeping her phone inside the little bag,
She sat on the last bench waiting for everyone to disperse. Slowly the crowd melted... and the priest smiled at her with a knowing look, blessed her.
And went out...
Soon the church turned empty containing only her, and the God...
Her innerself began to speak...about the things happening around her... she wanna throw those things away, just like the way she did in past. Talking to someone, to her bhaiyya, to a friend or to him.... She saw here and there... to find someone.
And as usual her eyes caught the confession booth. Familiar things are always more dearer to heart.
Her legs took the charge and made her reach them. She sat on pew facing the box, knowing that no one is on the other side to hear. clasping her hands she bowed her head and began to pour all those things out,
" Saalon phehle jab main yahii baita karti thi, apne kahaniyonko sunate, dard ko baant the, khurafatonka chitti kholte, tab ek pal ke liye bhi yeh nahi socha tha ki us paar baita dil, joh yeh baatein dheeraj se sun raha, usase kisi din mujhe pyaar ho jaayega.
Jab maine saath fere liya us anjaan aadmi se jiske naam bhi main ulte seedhe le rahi thi, tab bhi mere dil ko yeh baat pata nahi tha ki woh, kisi din apne aap ko use saump dega. Mere naam bhi usike ke naam ke saath liya jaayega.
Naina Rajveer Singh Shekhavat..."
She closed her eyes to feel the wonders that bursted inside her heart with a mere mention of his name.
She continued,
" Pyaar ko sochke plans banate nahi karte. Bus hume kisise yun hi pyaar ho jaata he. Mujhe bhi hua, do baar. Luckily, dusri baar us aadmi se hua, jise mere jism se zyada rooh mein dilchaspi he. Jise mere hontonse zyada baaton mein man lagta he. Jise mujhse sirf ek hi umeed he, mere saath ki.
Bahot achche he woh. Apne dard ko kabhi mere raaste mein bhatakne nahi diya unhone. Chup rahe apne aansuvonko chupake.. mujhe hosla diya ki main apne ateet se nikal paaun. Warna kab ka main is duniya saare dard se aazad hoti. Mere diye har ghav ko apne hasi ke marham lagake ghoomte rahe.
Lekin iske badle maine unko akele chod diya, woh bhi unke saare ghav ko kholke. Unhe toh pata bhi nahi tha ki Ananya pregnant thi. Shayad us such se anjaan hoke woh aage badhne ka sochte kisi din.
Kahii maine galat toh nahi kiya unko saare such batake?
Maine koyi galti toh nahi ki unko apne dard se akele ladne chodke? ......"
She cried continuously unable to hold back her own emotions.....After so many days, she got the strength to clear up all the loaded feelings in heart.
She was never like this, a aerated bottle... She loved to blurt all her feelings away in one or the other way. Through her pranks or words, she always lived like a open book. But after crashing with Rajveer named ice burg, her titanic sank...
But like every story, there's one author who is waiting to make your story unique, the God too listened her sobs... and sent a lifeboat to rescue her, to make her alive again...
" Kisne kaha tumse Naina ki tumne mujhe akele chod di??...."
A hidden bronze voice knocked her sense through the closed door of booth...
Naina - " Rajveer...."
She called out recognising the voice...
He appeared opening the door, and stood parallel to her... with moist eyes communicating with her eyes, shouting aloud that he is with her.....
Rajveer - " Maine phehle bhi bola tha tumse, yeh saansein tumhari he. Ab bhi tumhare hi he, Naina.
Jab yeh sub tumhare he, chodkar jaane ki baat aa hi nahi sakti....."
He forwarded his hand, pulled her in a bone crushing hug, inserting himself in her,
feeling her hairs against his face, letting her aroma cloud his nose, and her warmth protect him from all the negative vibes. She is his life....
Naina hiding her face in his neck,
" Main nahi chahti ki aap firse apne gam ko chupake aage badhein.. main nahi chahti ki aap mere liye khudko nazar andaz karein. Main nahi chahti Rajveer ki aap apne ateet aur mujhmein kisi ek ko chune. Hum dononke saath bhi aage badh sakte he na...
Main nahi jee sakti aapke bina... "
She whispered holding him tight
Rajveer - " Lekin maine toh tumhe chun liya he Naina...."
He lifted her a bit, and took her to a nearby desk to sit. Firstly he fixed her hairs, that were damped with her tears.... wiped her cheeks with his thumbs, slowly reading those round red eyes, trying to understand what storms she went through because of him....
Finally, kneeling down before her, he held her hands and started to talk...
" maine bahot wakth gavaya tumhare taraf firse haath badhane mein. Par main kyaa karta,
Main khogaya tha Naina, un saare lamhonmein jismein maine apne hi khwab sajaye the. Achanak se mere sapnonka mehal mere saamne khada hogya tha aur maine hi use goli maarke khatam kardi. Barbad kardiya mere hi khushiyonko...
Ananya mere dil ke woh taar (string) he, jisne mujhe pyaar ke gehrayi mehsoos karaya, jisne marte akri dam tak meri salamati chaha, jiske pyaar mein koyi milawat nahi tha.... in sub baatein mujhe mere jeene ki ichcha ko khatam kardi thi....."
He began to tell her his side of story, which she needs to know.
Naina - " Aap aise kyun soch rahe, woh joh bhi hua...."
She tried to save himself fron him.
Rajveer keeping his hand on her mouth,
" Please aaj mujhe bolne do.
She nodded to his request and his hand went back to its place.
" Par main bhool gaya tha, ki woh tum thi jisne mere dil ko dhadkaya. Usmein jaan bhari. Agar tum nahi aati toh main kabhi us raah pe nahi chalta jaha mujhse Ananya takrati. Tum toh mere dil ho, mere dhadkan ho.
Main pagal tha Naina, joh yeh nahi dekh paaya ki, tum toh mere ateet mein bhi shamil ho, aaj mein bhi aur aane wale kal mein bhi....."
She knew where it will go. Cutting his words in mid, she squeezed his hand, and uttered,
" Aap aaj bhi Ananya se hi pyaar karte he na..."
It wasn't a question, as she was sure he still loves Anu. But it didn't deny the fact that he felt the same for her too.
It was again a complex web.... may be life wanted a sequel...a season two. How can their story be a easy trip? She whooshed away her thoughts from her mind to his...
Naina - " Rajveer, aap joh bhi soch rahe he.... zindagi ko itna bhi complicate math kijiyein. Ananya ko peeche chodke mere saath aage badhna mushkil hoga aapke liye. Iska matlab yeh nahi he ki aap bhool jaaye use. Aap joh mehsoos karte he, mere saath use bant sakte he. Hum toh insaan he, jeene ke liye bus pyaar, izzat aur vishwas chahte he. Kisi ek ko chun na yeh galat hoga.... "
She again made a mistake of choosing his happiness instead of hers.
Rajveer - " Tum chahti ho ki main tumhare saath rahun sirf isiliye because you parch my emotional thirst? Tum jaanti ho na what will happen next?.."
He asked remembering their terrace encounter...
May be he will use her for his physical cravings without being able to love her properly.
Naina passed a knowing smile,
" Yaad he aapne ek baar bola tha, main aapke aaina (Mirror) hu. Aap joh nahi dekh paarahe he main use achche se samajh sakti hu. Aapke ankhein kabhi jhoot nahi boli he mujhse.
Aap woh nahi he Rajveer joh aap khudko maante he. Aap mujhse toh sahi se jaante he, lekin khudko kabhi jaan ne ki samajhne ki koshish kari hi nahi...
I know you..."
She kept her hand on his chest just where his heart reside....
Rajveer kept his hand on hers, and presented one of his special smile to her,
" Aur joh tum kar rahi ho woh sahi he? Mere pagalpan ko halke se lerahi ho, woh galat nahi he?..."
Naina - " Kyaa aap in sub bojh ke saath, ek dusre ke ehsaan jata kar zabardasti pyaar karenge mujhse? Yeh zaroori he ki aap khudko hazaroo baar sawalonke jhanjeero mein bandhke yeh bulwaye ki aapko mujhse pyaar he? Pyaar pressure se bhare cooker ke ander nahi hota Rajveer. Woh bus ek ehsaas he... use bus mehsoos kiya jaata he....
Hum aise hi aage nahi badh sakte???...."
She asked him not letting him force himself to love her. From the moment he stood infront of Ritu defending Naina, somewhere she knew that Rajveer feels for her. But love is just like a river... You can only feel it. She didn't want him to confess his love just because he needs her at this moment. Just because he needs her to hang on.
Rajveer - " Naina,
Tum khudke pyaar ko yun hi jaane derahi ho???..."
Naina - " Jaane dena nahi Rajveer, main bus wakth derahi hu aapko...taaki aap ise sahii se mehsoos kar sake. Yun hi ek dard se bhagne dusre ko math gale lagayiye...." Seeing his confused face, she offered him question to his own statement,
" Toh batayiye, aap mujhe isiliye chun rahe he kyunki aapne mujhse shaadi ki he? Yaa isiliye kyunki main aapke jigar ka tukda Naveen ki behan hu? Yaa fir....."
Rajveer caught her chin, and made her pout,
" Main tumhe kaise nahi chunta, jisne apni khilti zindagi ko bagal mein rakh ke mujhe mere khoobsoorat ateet se milaya. Agar tum chahti thi, toh mujhse Ananya ke pregnancy ke baarein mein chupa sakti thi aur mere saath aage badti. Lekin tumne aisa nahi kiya....."
He gave a proper reason, suggesting the various ideas which she didn't choose.
Naina casted down her eyes whispering,
" woh aapka bachcha tha Rajveer. Aapko jaan ne ka haq tha. "
It was hard for her too, as her love had a painful past. He made a little life together with Anu....
Rajveer - " Lekin woh haq tumse tumhara saara adhikar cheen leta mere zindagi se.
Yeh nahi socha tumne?..."
He asked knowing the answer. Her Naina isnot like others.
Naina - " aap yaha mujhse sawal karne aaye he??.."
She requestioned not knowing how to answer his weird question.... She never thought about the second option, that would have lightened their life.
Rajveer nodded his head, in approval,
" tumne kaha tha ki tumhara pyaar kaafi hoga hum dono ke liye. Kyaa woh offer ab bhi valid he??..."
His eyes were reflecting hope. He didn't wanted to darken her life with the baggages of his his past. He decided to listen Naina's words. He yearned to give a chance to himself to fall in love with her honestly... all-around he wanted a fresh start...a new chapter...
Naina - " haaan. "
Those words came instantly
Rajveer - " Agar kisi din mujhse tumse suchmein pyaar ho jaaye toh...."
He asked with innocent eyes.
Naina - " Pyaar ki chashnii banayenge..."
She giggled stealing his heart...once again...
AS For now,
They were happy with that aadhe adhoore ishq vishq.
Naina was double happy to take this risk as it assured Rajveer as her prize.
They had the whole life with them to sort out how to carry each other's heart... As usual she wanted the things placed easily and left the complicated things aside...
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Phir le aaya dil majboor kya keeje....
Raas na aaya rehna door kya keeje...
Dil keh raha use maqammal kar bhi aao
Wo jo adhoori si baat baaki hai....
I know bahot saare adhoore baatein baaki he, chaahe woh Raina ki ho yaa humare...
Kuch logonko is baat pe gussa bhi aaya hoga ki Rajveer ne confess kyu nahi kiya yaa fir Naina ne confess karne se mana kyun kiya.
I let you guys to calculate it.
Aapki,
Nandu ❤
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